Silent Power

Sid gu*

Selections from

The Mountain Path

and

The Call Divine

Sri Ramanasramam

Tiruvannamalai

2002

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Foreword

Like the previous volumes Fragrant Petals and Surpassing
Love and Grace, The Silent Power contains selections from The
Mountain Path and The Call Divine. Besides the writings on
Sri Maharshi and his beloved Arunachala, a few other interesting
articles on various topics have been included.

tlruvannamalai v.s. ramanan

15 February 2002 Publisher

Contents

Foreword

Part I

Arunachala — Lucia Osborne

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Arunachala's True Shape — Aquarius

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The Cult of the Hill — Kenneth Grant .

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Part II

Sab Jan, Sri Maharshi's Classmate — "SEIN" .

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Krishnaprem and Maharshi — Marie B. Byles .

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A Perfect Image of the Life Divine — K. Ramackandra

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A Talk with Sri Ramana Maharshi — Pryns Hopkins .

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Ramana Reminiscences

— I Arthur Osborne ....

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— II Dr. Hafiz Syed

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— Ill ProfB.L. Atreya

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— IV Anonymous

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— V Anonymous

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— VIOMSadhu

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— VII Anonymous

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— VIII Varadachari

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— IX Maurice Frydman

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— X Swami Madhavananda

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— XIK.R.K Murthy

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— XII /. Suryaprakasa Rao .

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— XIII K. K. Nambiar .

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— XIV P. T. Muthuswami .

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— XV AW. Rajan

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— XVI Madha viAmmal .

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Recollections — K.R.K. Murthy ..... 67
Our Natural State — A 'Pilgrim .... 69

A Spiritual Torch — PaulBrunton .... 73

Bhagavan Treated for Eczema — T.K.S. ... 77

Sri Ramana — Major A.W. Chadwick . . . .81

Sri Bhagavan and the Mother's temple — Major A. W. Chadwick 83
The Immutable Atmosphere — N. O. Mehta ... 85
Bhagavan Ramana Maharshi as seen by a Bengali Devotee

— Jagannatb Cbattopadhyaya . . . .90
Remembering Ramana

— I Miracles and Bhagavan — N. N. Rajan . . 92

N. Rajan . . 93

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— II His Divine Excellence — N.
The Fortunate Boy — "SEIN" .

Lest We Forget ...

— I Dr. V. Srinivasa Rao .

— II G. Laksbmi Narasimham
How I Came to Bhagavan

— I Roda Maclver

— II M. S. Nagarajan

— Ill A Seeker
Bhagavan's Solicitude for Devotees — Kunju Swami . .112

Reminiscences

— I A. Venkateswara Sarma and Smt. Sala . . 115

— II M. S. Nagarajan . . . . .117
How I Came to the Maharshi

— I Swami Paresananda . . . . .120

— II Sunyata . . . . .123

— Ill Satya Narayan Tandon . . . .125
Awareness Absolute — Visvanatha Swami . . .128
Sri Bhagavan's Bodily Health — K. Laksbmana Sarma . 133
Treatment to Sri Bhagavan - An Account — Dr. Sbankar Rao 135

■ Lt. Col. P.V. Karamchanda

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The End was Peaceful
Aradhana Day

— I Major Chadwick . . . . I AG

— WMouniSadhu ..... 148
Bhagavan is Everywhere — S. G. Devaraj . . .151
Bhagavan Sri Ramana is Personally Present Here

— Swatantra . . . . .153
How I Came to Bhagavan — Muhammad Abdulla . .155

Ramana's Universal Philosophy — Dr. M. Hafiz Syed

— I Ramana Maharshi's Spiritual Philosophy of Life . .158

— II Testimony of Islam to Bhagavan's Life and Teachings 164
Bhagavan Sri Ramana, The Light Divine

— Dr. T.M.P. Mahadevan . . . .169
Sri Ramana: A Pure Channel for a Higher Power

— Paul Brunton

Part III

The Eternal Now — Major A. W. Chadwick
There is Nothing, Be! — Major A. W. Chadwick
Uniqueness of Bhagavan — Dr. T.M.P. Mahadevan
The Miraculous and Supernatural — Marie B. Byles
An Angry Prayer — Jean Butler
An Incarnate Abbot Explains
Zen Stories
The Story of Lila
Appendix

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PARTI

On Arunachala

Arunachala

Lucia Osborne

"Arunachala! Thou art the inner Self who dances in
the Heart as T. Heart is Thy name, Lord!" (Five Stanzas
to Sri Arunachala, verse 2.)

IN THE PURANAS Arunachala is referred to as the oldest
Hill on earth and is regarded as the heart of the Universe.
Scientists have also pointed out the eastern ghats of the Deccan
plateau as the oldest land. Arunachala has many names: Arunagiri,
Sonagiri, Sudarsanagiri, Annamalai, to mention but a few and
is also referred to as the Tejolingam — the lingam of effulgence
— which is the formless emblem of Siva.

The form of the Hill is said to resemble Sri Chakra, the
emblem of the Cosmos with its substratum, and shaktas regard
this Hill as Sri Chakra itself. Bhagavan took an active part in
the installation of Sri Chakra in the temple dedicated to the
mother.

Devotees of Siva consider this divine Hill as the form of
Siva, who appeared in the midst of Brahma and Vishnu as a
column of fire without beginning or end in order to dispel
their ignorance. Both failed to realise his presence by their
physical efforts. This signifies the inability of mind or intellect
to go beyond itself. Arunachala is traditionally identified with
Sudarsana (a form of the chakra or discus of Vishnu) . In the

form of a deity, Sudarsana appears in a fierce aspect, armed
with weapons of destruction. When a seeker penetrates beyond
the semblance of the terrible, while struggling to overcome what
seems terrible in himself — namely, the dark downward
propensities of his own psyche — grace reveals itself as love and
compassion. This, according to Dr. Mees, an authority on
symbolism, is the etymology of Sudarsana which aims at the
destruction of these propensities, so as to reveal love and beauty.

Many saints and sages have sung and composed songs in
praise of Arunachala and its import, and some have attained
enlightenment here. Shankara also seems to have visited
Arunachala. In one of his compositions he calls this Hill 'Meru'
and says, like Bhagavan, that Sidddha Purushas are found here.
Saint Namasivaya lived in one of the caves, which is still called
by his name. His disciple has written the well-known Annamalai
Venba, a hymn in praise of Arunachala. Another well-known
Saiva saint, Virupaksha, also lived in a cave higher up on the
slope. It is said to be in the shape of OM — and some devotees
have heard there, the sound of OM in silent meditation. The
saint's tomb is also there and this cave bears his name. Bhagavan
spent seventeen years in it and later moved up to Skandashram
where a trickle of water changed overnight to a perennial stream
whose water, like that of the Ganges, does not deteriorate with
time. Arunagirinathar, another notable saint, is also celebrated
for his songs of praise after he received illumination through
the grace of Muruga in the Arunachala temple.

When mention was made one day of the tank adjoining
the Ashram being called AgastyaThirtam, the Maharshi was asked
if that sage ever visited the Hill. Bhagavan remarked "Yes, of
course, everyone must come here eventually", meaning that
everyone must eventually return to the source — Arunachala.

Sages have said that one can attain salvation by being born
in Tiruvarur, by dying in Benares, by worshipping in
Chidambaram and by merely thinking of Arunachala. "So
worship Arunachala of shining golden lustre for mere
remembrance of Him ensures deliverance," 1 Bhagavan also
affirms.

Bhagavan mentioned that the Hill is one of light.
Sometimes one can see manifestations of lights on the Hill.
In the early years, a French devotee, Sujata Sen, once spent
the night on the Hill in protest against an order of the
management not allowing women devotees to remain in the
Ashram after dark. This was the most wonderful time for many
devotees when Bhagavan used to sit with them for an hour or
so in radiant silence. Sujata dwelt on her grievance one-
pointedly. Next morning she told me that she was taken inside
the Hill and found a whole world in it, which she described. I
did not pay much attention to this, dismissing it as a dream or
imagination. Strangely enough many years later, in 1970 to
be precise, another devotee, Mr. S. N. Tandon, had a similar
experience which he described in detail in the April 1970 issue
of The Mountain Path in 1970, that year. It is reminiscent of
Dante's inferno, leading by stages to light, in which all
manifestation disappears in the feeling of pure I-Am-ness.

Sri Visvanatha Swami, who from his adolescence spent many
years with Bhagavan, shares with us the following account.
Bhagavan said to him one day in the early twenties, "Innumerable
are the visions I have had of this Hill, Arunachala. I have seen
beautiful groves of trees and fine palaces inside it. Once I saw a
large tank and a big congregation of rishis and yogis seated on a

Five Hymns on Arunachala.

wide plain around it. Every face was familiar and so were the
surroundings. A dais was there and I went up and sat on it with
my right hand held up in Chin-mudra. It seemed my usual place
and my usual pose." Chin-mudra is a pose in which the right
hand is held up with the thumb and forefinger joined and the
three remaining fingers straight up. It is the pose of Dakshinamurti.
It denotes the unity of the individual with Brahman, the
transcendental Reality beyond the three gunas.

It is said in the puranas that a Siddha Purusha, the ancient
teacher in the form of an eternal youth, is present higher up on
one of the slopes seated under an enormous banyan tree,
diffusing his spiritual radiance in silence.

In the early days Bhagavan used to roam a good deal
on the Hill. One day he found, in a dried up watercourse, a
banyan leaf of such enormous size that it set him wondering
what tree could produce such a leaf. Proceeding further he
saw from a distance a huge banyan tree growing on what
looked like sheer rock. Going closer, Bhagavan inadvertently
put his foot in a hornet's nest and did not withdraw it until
the hornets appeased their anger for being disturbed, by badly
stinging his leg.

Bhagavan did not go near the tree but returned to his
abode. Subsequently he firmly discouraged devotees from trying
to find the place saying that it was inaccessible and not advisable
for them to do so. "It is impossible. I know it!" he told them,
"For there shall no man see Me and live." (Exodus 33, 20).

The finite ego must die before it can behold and merge
with infinity. Once a whole group of devotees, obviously
unaware of Bhagavan's injunction, set out to locate the place
but they found themselves in such distress that all they could
pray for was to be able to return safely!

Any endeavour to write about Arunachala is like 'painting
the lily' — to borrow an apt expression. It is impossible to
present it better or more clearly than Bhagavan himself and in
this case there is no distinction between them. Arunachala in
the form of Bhagavan speaks about himself! Like Bhagavan, the
Hill comes to life and can appear to us as the beloved of our
heart as an indescribable tenderness. What could be nearer and
dearer than one's own Self, Arunachala?

"O nectar springing up in the heart of devotees .... haven
of my refuge. . ." {Arunachala Padikani).

"The one Self, the sole Reality alone exists eternally. When
even the youthful teacher of ancient times, Dakshinamurti,
revealed it through speechless eloquence, who else could convey
it by speech?" {Ekatma Panchakam) .

Bhagavan explained that the Universe is like a painting on
a screen, that screen being the red Hill, Arunachala. That which
rises and sinks is made up only of what it rises from. The finality
of the Universe is Arunachala. Meditating on Arunachala or
the Self, there is a vibration T. Tracing the source of T, the
primal 'I-T alone remains and it is inexpressible. The very first
sloka in the Marital Garland of Letters expresses this tersely:
"Arunachala! Thou dost root out the ego of those who meditate
on Thee in the Heart, O Arunachala!"

Bhagavan, who scarcely ever gave advice to devotees unless
asked, wholeheartedly approved and encouraged their going
round the Hill as conducive and very beneficial to progress in
sadhana. He himself set an example by doing giripradakshina
countless times. Worship is expressed by going around the object
of worship in silent remembrance or singing bhajans — and
not giving way to stray thoughts. One usually goes barefoot.
The most auspicious times are full-moon days, Sivaratri (the

night of Siva) and Kartikai, the night when the beacon is lit on
top of the Hill. It is said that the pilgrim is accompanied by an
invisible host of siddhas and rishis. On festival days, the stream
of pilgrims in white and brightly coloured clothes resembles
garlands of flowers, strewn around Arunachala, wafting their
scent in the way of bhajans.

Among the many holy places in India, representing
different modes of spirituality, Arunachala stands out as the
centre of the most direct path, guided by the silent influence of
the guru. It is the centre and the path where physical contact
with the guru is not necessary. The silent teaching acts and speaks
directly to the Heart. There was something essentially immutable
and rocklike in Bhagavan, although he had a thousand faces.
He spoke and explained when asked, but his greatest and most
inspiring teaching was, like the Hill, like Dakshinamurti, given
in silence. Through Bhagavan, the immense potentiality for
spiritual regeneration inherent in Arunachala, with which he
identified himself, was brought to life and into focus.

The benedictory verse adopted as an auspicious
introduction to the Five Hymns to Sri Arunachala was rather
puzzling as it was not clear who actually wrote those words "the
Paramatman, who is the same as Arunachala or Ramana." SriT
P. Ramachandra Iyer, one of the oldest devotees, who gave up
his practice as a lawyer to serve Bhagavan, was consulted and so
was Sri Visvanatha Swami. Their account of the matter is that
one day, when Bhagavan went out of Virupaksha Cave for his
usual morning walk, one Amritanatha Yati put on Bhagavan's
seat a piece of paper on which he told in a Malayalam verse, of
his great longing to know who Bhagavan really was, "Are you
the manifestation of Lord Vishnu, or Siva, or the great
grammarian Vararuchi, or the greatest ofyatis (renunciates)?"

His question was couched in classic form and script. When
he returned a little later to the cave, he found Bhagavan already
back from his walk. On the reverse of the piece of paper was
Bhagavan's reply, also in verse and Malayalam script, rendered
with mastery. On reading it, Amritanatha Yati felt shaken and
in all humility fell at Bhagavan's feet "like a tall coconut tree
cut even at the base", to use his own words.

The reply was as follows: 'In the lotus-shaped Heart of all,
beginning with Vishnu, there shines as absolute Consciousness
the Paramatman who is the same as Arunachala-Ramana. When
the mind melts with love of Him and reaches the inmost recess
of the Heart wherein He dwells as the beloved, the subtle eye
pure intellect opens and He reveals Himself as pure
Consciousness."

"Through the potent grace of Bhagavan", wrote Osborne
"the path of Self-enquiry was brought within the competence
of men and women of this age, was indeed fashioned into a
new path that can be followed in the conditions of the modern
world with no form or ritual .... This creation of a new path
to suit the needs of the age has made Arunachala the spiritual
centre of the world. More than ever, now that he has shed his
physical body and is one with Arunachala, the grace and
guidance that emanates from him to those who turn to him
and seek his aid is centred outwardly at Arunachala, to which
many are drawn, both those who were disciples of Bhagavan in
his lifetime and those who have come later."

As in the lifetime of Bhagavan, so also now one can turn
and speak to Arunachala-Ramana far more effectively than in
one's own words, by repeating an appropriate verse chosen from
the Five Hymns to Arunachala which Bhagavan wrote on behalf
of his disciples from whom he was not separate. The individual,

being only a mode of absolute Consciousness, struggles against
his finitude to regain his primordial state of absolute freedom
through grace. These verses come from the devotees' own heart:

"Even when the thieves of the five senses break in upon
me, art Thou not still in my Heart, O Arunachala?"

"On seeking Thy real Self with courage I lost my moorings.
Have mercy on me, O Arunachala!"

"Unless Thou extend Thy hand of grace in mercy, I am
lost, O Arunachala!"

"Unlovable I am to look at now, yet ornament me with
Thy grace and then regard me, O Arunachala!"

"Thou hast administered the drug of confusion to me, so
must I be confounded! Shine Thou as grace, the cure of all
confusion, O Arunachala!"

"Lord! Who art Consciousness itself reigning over the
sublime Sonagiri, forgive the grievous wrongs of this poor self,
and by Thy gracious glance benignant as the rain cloud, save
me from being lost once more in the dreary waste, or else I
cannot ford the grim (stream of universal) manifestation."

"Lord! Deign to ease me in my weariness struggling like a
deer that is trapped. Lord Arunachala! What can be Thy will?"

"O pure One! If the five elements, the living beings and
every manifest thing is nothing but Thy all-embracing light,
how then can I alone be separate from Thee ..."

Bhagavan has given many indications of his continued
presence. Ever-present, all-pervading, where could he go?
Outwardly manifested and visible as the Hill, he will remain
here always, guiding as before. "Only the body travels the Self
just is", Bhagavan used to say. His body travelled and disappeared.
He just is as he always has been and the visible support of grace
is Arunachala. It is a great blessing to be able to come here, to

stay here. After many years, every day still seems like a gift.
One cannot help feeling the living presence, radiation and
powerful spiritual help accorded to those who seek it, and above
all are humble enough to surrender to this influence of faith!

"The Hill which draws to itself those who are rich mjnana
tapas (those who are ever intent on gaining wisdom) is this
Arunachala" (Annamalai Venba) .

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Arunachala's True
Shape

Aouarius

From every angle Arunachala presents a different aspect.
But the Sivalinga, representing the Hill, symbolises its true
shape, that of the formless including all forms.

A RUNACHALA IS RAMANA. Every true devotee of Sri
-Z\_ Bhagavan comes to feel this to be true. Arunachala is an
insentient Hill while Sri Ramana was a sentient human being.
How could they be the same, we ask, except perhaps in a
metaphysical sense? But do we know what Arunachala is like
even in the physical sense?

I approach Arunachala generally by bus from the east as I
come to Tiruvannamalai from Madras. Arunachala becomes
visible from about ten miles away. At first it is only a vague
cloudlike shape but as I come nearer it becomes clearer. It
assumes the form of an irregular cone somewhat longish at the
base with a curved spur on its northern side.

This shape lasts only until I come to the temple of
Arunachaleswara. It changes gradually when I proceed to the Ashram
and finally when I reach the Ashram it assumes the beautiful shape
which is familiar to all devotees of Sri Bhagavan. It reminds me of
Mount Kailas as it looks in the familiar photographs of that sacred
mountain. Others have also noticed this resemblance.

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I have seen Arunachala not only from these two angles
but also from numerous other angles too. While going round
the Hill on the holy circuit it looks different from each spot.

Names like the 'five-faced Arunachala and the 'four-faced
Arunachala have been given to those aspects in which it appears
to possess five peaks or four peaks. When one comes to the
northern side the appearance changes completely. It becomes
more rugged and massive. Arunachala has many faces and many
shapes. From every angle it presents a different aspect, reminding
us of the ever changing flux of creation, the motionless dance
of Arunachala-Siva whose unity penetrates all diversity!

Every true devotee of Siva believes that Arunachala, the
Hill, is Siva himself or a huge Siva linga in the form of the Hill.
The puranas elaborate this. That is why one walks round it
barefoot reverently all the eight miles of the way. Siva linga is
simply an emblem of Siva, in its manifest form as the Hill and
the linga of fire without beginning or end, as mentioned in the
well known story of its first appearance, symbolises its
unmanifest transcendence. Thus Siva is rupa (with form) and
arupa (without form). He has many forms and at the same time
can reveal himself as formless.

"When I approach regarding Thee as having form, Thou
standest as a Hill on earth. If (with the mind) the seeker looks
for Thy (essential) form as formless, he is like one who travels
the earth to see the (ever-present) ether. To dwell without thought
upon Thy (boundless) nature is to lose one's (separate) identity
like a doll of sugar when it comes in contact with the ocean (of
nectar) and when I come to realize who I am, what else is this
identity of mine (but Thee), O Thou Who standest as the
towering Aruna Hill?" 1
1 Arunachala Ashtakam, verse 3.

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The Cult of the Hill

Kenneth Grant

OF THE OUTER symbol of Sri Arunachala on earth, Lord
Siva says, "Meditate on the fact that in the heart of the Hill
surges the spiritual glory, within which the whole world is contained. "

It is in fact this holy Hill — the Mount Kailas of the south
and the very embodiment of Siva — that is the manifest and
visible guru of Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi.

It behoves us therefore to remember, that now the beloved
master is not with us any more in the fleshy garments of frail
humanity, this holy guru is nonetheless visible and accessible to
all those whose eyes are opened to the spiritual glories which
Siva describes as surging within its mysterious heart.

Here is the tangible focus of that tremendous spiritual
energy, which burned with unabated strength in the form of
Ramana; thus is this symbol supremely sanctified for us today
by the certainty of liberation, which Bhagavan himself taught
was the reward of the unflinching surrender of the ego in the
flames of its all consuming embrace.

Those who feel disturbed within themselves at the great
loss of the body of Bhagavan, should instantly direct their minds
to the contemplation of the 'Hill of the Holy Beacon', which
— Bhagavan has told us — only waits to respond eagerly and
tenderly to even our weakest yearnings towards It.

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In his article called 'Physical Supports of Grace', Arthur
Osborne says that the Hill called Arunachala is verily the greatest
of physical supports, for did it not bear upon its sacred surface
the earthly tabernacle which was the physical form of Bhagavan?
Yet for those who are unable to live within sight of the
earthly Arunachala, there need be no regrets, for the Hill itself
is but a thought-construction same as any other. If we would
grasp the inner significance veiled by the 'dull', outer form of
its simple contours, we must search within the heart, and establish
contact with that regionless bliss, void of all conceptions which
the mind is capable of formulating. For Arunachala is the symbol
of the void nature of the Self manifesting in so simple a shape
as the 'Hill of the Holy Beacon'.

This is the form of Ramana, which lasts longer than the
human garment that he wore for our sake. But as long as the
world appearance lasts for each aspirant, so will endure the Hill,
to symbolise to us the perfect void, the all full Self that lies as
the heart in the spaceless and timeless eternity.

Sri Ramakrishna Paramahamsa said,
"Is Kali, my divine mother, of a black complexion? She
appears black because she is viewed from a distance, but when
intimately known she is no longer so. The sky appears blue at a
distance but look at it close by and you will find that it has no
colour. The water of the ocean looks blue at a distance, but
when you go near and take it in your hand, you find that it is
colourless."

And so it is with the 'Hill of the Holy Beacon'; go near to it
in spirit and it is without shape, without colour, without attributes
of any kind. It is only distance which lends it the illusory qualities
it seems to possess. Really, we impress the void — It essentially is
with the attributes we seem ourselves to possess and then we

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imagine seeing what is not truly there. Thus it is our attributes
we have to slough if we would come close to the sacred symbol
and know its real significance, and our everyday life can help us
insofar as we regard all things that occur to us in a new light.
For instance, instead of viewing circumstances and conditions
as isolated phenomena occurring to us for no reason at all, we
should strive to regard each event as a stone upon the slopes of
Arunachala; each trivial repetition of which event constitutes at
last that sacred 'mount of the spirit' which is our true nature.
Thus we can worship Sri Bhagavan in and through our ordinary
mundane life. It is merely a matter of re-orientation and
determination to accept as deeply significant in a spiritual way
all the seemingly trite and disconnected incidents which
constantly occur to us. Yet is this but a preliminary to the final
process of knowing Truth as it really is? For when Arunachala
has been thus truly built into the fabric of our hearts, we shall
need to view each separate part no longer as a separate stone of
the divine edifice, but as the structure entire in its sublimely
simple shape of the 'holy Hill'. And then, entering into the
heart thereof with understanding, we shall know the whole as
the embodiment of that spirit of grace and compassion which
eternally enlightens our hearts.

In this way it is possible for the less advanced of us to
perform a spiritual discipline while living in the world even
though far removed from the outer symbol of divine grace
in Tiruvannamalai.

It is only when we realise that it is we who clothe the
formless Arunachala with form, because we view it with the
eyes of the body, that we shall begin to search within our hearts
for the formless Reality which that form veils. Until then, we
shall not penetrate and comprehend this miracle, nor shall we

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understand why Bhagavan Sri Ramana made no difference
between his human form and his Hill form. It is the guru in
hill form who is an everlasting beacon of hope for those who
inhabit the earth (or body). As soon as the body is dissolved
into a shining mist, so also does the guru's Hill form dissolve,
and we are no longer deluded by other concepts such as our
own form or the Hill form — for these twain are no more.
The underlying Reality shines forth as the pure and perfect
void, conceptless and ever blissful.

As an aid to the realisation of this, it may help the devotee
— if he be remote from the physical sight of the Hill — to
create a mental picture thereof and endeavour through such a
mandala to pervade the Hill and become one with it. Certain
physical supports, such as a mound of actual stones taken from
the Hill itself, may further the project and intensify the
concentration, and also link the devotee in some subtle manner
with the focus of spiritual peace abiding in Tiruvannamalai.

Yet all this is of no avail if it be not always borne in mind
that these accessories are but props for exalting the
consciousness to the pitch necessary for contacting the subtle
emanations of grace, which spring from the spaceless
Arunachala Siva, whose eternal abode is the Heart. For, all
takes place in, and is supported by, the void, of which the Hill
itself is the perfect and singular symbol.

eg so

PART II

On Bhagavan

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Sab Jan, Sri Maharshi's
Classmate

"SEIN"

BHAGAVAN SRI RAMANA MAHARSHI emphasised
several times that the holy Hill Arunachala is the heart of
the world and the most ancient and oldest of hills. He also used
to say that it is a natural Sri Chakra and that from each angle it
has a different appearance. That is why it is a Siva linga with
form and without form. From every direction it presents itself
in a different majestic posture.

And so also I always like to see Sri Maharshi from different
angles and enjoy the differences in his appearances! In respect
of his teachings, movements in the Ashram, like assisting in the
kitchen, catering to the needs of devotees and even dumb
animals, devotees know Bhagavan to be more as one's own father
and mother and God incarnate, than as Tatwama Sivaroopa.
His greatness as an intimate friend of a classmate of his is
portrayed here truly revealing his loving heart.

When young Venkataraman (of Tiruchuzhi) was reading
in Madurai in the American Mission High School, in his 4th,
5 th and 6th forms, he was closely associated with one Muslim
boy, whom he chose as his intimate friend. Venkataraman was
very fond of this young Muslim, whom he addressed as Sab
Jan. His real name is M. Abdul Wahab.

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Mr. Wahab, now a retired police inspector, nearing eighty,
unable to see or hear properly, is living with his son at Neyveli.
Upon hearing this, I went there to meet with him. He welcomed
me very kindly and I was amazed at the serenity of his face. I
requested him to tell me something about Bhagavan in his school
days. His talks on the Maharshi gave me a thrilling experience
and enabled me to visualise with the mind's eye, the intimate
friendship that he enjoyed with Venkataraman, later to be known
as the great Sri Ramana Maharshi.

When I asked him to describe the depth of their friendship,
Mr. Wahab recalled his happy past and jumped with joy saying,
"We were inseparable mates." This Muslim enjoyed such privilege
with young Venkataraman. He began to tell me of his past happy
days that he was fortunate enough to spend with him.

"Venkataraman was very learned in Tamil and he stood
first in the class. When the teacher wanted to refer to some
portion in the text book he used to ask Venkataraman to quote
and Venkataraman used to do it with remarkable clarity. He
was particularly well-versed in Nannool Soothram (Aphorisms
ofTamil Grammar). Our Tamil Pandit, Mr. John Balakrishnan,
was very fond of him. His knowledge of Tamil was really
remarkable and that ofTamil Grammar very exact.

"But Venkataraman was not very good in English, in the
sense that he was not an expert in that subject. In other subjects
also he was above average. But in general, he was not much
interested in his school books. He was very fond of playing
games and among games he was an expert in football. He used
to encourage me to join him in playing the game, saying that
he would teach me how to play We used to play together in the
same team and I was particular only to be with Venkataraman.
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encourage the boys taking part in games, so Venkataraman's
relatives did not like his playing games.

"Once when we were playing football, Venkataraman,
while defending against the attacks of the opposing players,
received a severe knock on his right leg, which immediately got
swollen. He was frightened and had to return home and I carried
him to a hospital and had some medicine applied and brought
his leg to normal condition. He was very happy and thanked
me for the timely help.

"Even as a student he was very religious. Every Saturday
and Sunday he would go to Tiruparankunram and go round
the Subramania Swamy Temple with fervent religious ecstasy.
He used to take me several times with him and make me go
around the temple saying, 'God's creation is alike and there is
no difference in creation. God is the same, the apparent
differences in Gods are created by man'. In the company of
Venkataraman I never felt any difference between a mosque
and the Subramania Swamy temple.

"This instruction of his really implanted in me a better
understanding of the secret approach to religion and thenceforth
I never felt any difference between a Hindu God and any other
God. It is quite possible, in fact, I am very certain, that because
of such an universal outlook implanted in me by Venkataraman
in those days, in my later days I could become an ardent devotee
of Sri Varadaraja Perumal of Kancheepuram, who actually
enveloped me in his divine rapture. I had visions of Varadaraja
Perumal in dreams and they proved to be of great help to me."

When I asked him in what manner, he said, "For 12 years
I was able to partake actively in the Garuda seva of Sri Varadaraja
Perumal by giving a shoulder to lift the deity of Perumal, while
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regard even today as the greatest privilege and boon. There
arose some complication also since some Vaishnavites objected
to my carrying the deity since I was a Muslim and that was
settled amicably later. This service of 12 years to Varadaraja
Perumal made me cling to him closer and closer.

"Once when I was on duty in Kuppam I received a
telegram that my wife, of whom I was extremely fond, had had
an abortion and I was greatly worried that she would die. The
same night Sri Varadaraja Perumal appeared in my dream and
assured me that my wife was all right and I need not worry.
When I returned to Tirupathur she was in normal condition.
Her recovery was the grace of Sri Perumal."

Mr. Wahab then spoke about Venkataraman:

"Suddenly Venkataraman disappeared and it was a shock
to me that he did not even tell me about his running away
from his home. His disappearance made his mother terribly
sorrow-stricken. While I refer to his home and his mother, 1
can not but mention the kindness and love with which mother
Alagammal used to receive me.

"Some Saturdays and Sundays he would go to Tiruchuzhi
to be with his mother and kith and kin. I would also go there
to see him. Mother Alagammal would immediately, with all
affection, tell Venkataraman of my arrival saying, 'Your dear
Muslim friend has come.' She had a wonderful face beaming
with nobility. Every time she gave me a very good reception
and used to give me whatever eatables were prepared at home.
If by chance 1 did not turn up for one weekend, she used to
enquire about my absence and give Venkataraman the eatables
saying: 'Give these to your Muslim friend'. I could never forget
the maternal love of Alagammal and her kindness to me, even
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Brahmins as untouchables in those days. They were despised
and treated with contempt.)

I asked Sab Jan, "When did you know of the whereabouts
of Sri Maharshi?"

He said, "I was enlisted in the police department and in
1903 in one of the medical shops at Uttaramerur, I was surprised
to see a portrait of Venkataraman but completely different in
appearance. I was anxious to know how the shop man happened
to possess the photo of my classmate. Then I was told that this
was the 'Brahamana Swamy' living in Tiruvannamalai and that
the Swamy was in mounam then.

"I was very eager to meet Venkataraman and at last after
several months of strenuous efforts, I was able to come to Sri
Ramanasramam, the abode of Sri Maharshi, my dear friend of
those earlier days. I entered it and was taken in by a cowherd
woman who was supplying milk to Bhagavan. I introduced myself
as his classmate 'Sab Jan' (but his facial expression clearly showed
that he had at once recognised me and that my introduction was
not at all necessary) and he was pleased to receive me although he
did not speak. He simply nodded his head with a radiant face. I
was thrilled to meet my classmate as a swamy for he was all the
more beautiful and resplendent, with a mark of saindiness.

"Again, I went there when I was the Inspector of Police at
Tirupathur. I was very sad then, since my father had passed away
but Bhagavan showed me his mother's tomb, which consoled
me. I understood from Bhagavan's action that death is inevitable
as far as the body is concerned and that no one was ever born or
died. He was so kind and offered something to eat and asked me
to stay for a couple of days but I could not, since I was on duty.
After that I went to see him several times and on all occasions he
showed special attention to me and introduced me to whoever

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was present on the occasion with deep love and kindness. He
used to make me sit by his side while taking food in the dining
hall, which later I came to know was quite unusual with him.

"A sudden change took place in me. I was transformed
into a devotee of Bhagavan from being a friend of
Venkataraman. This inward change brought about by Sri
Maharshi is the greatest boon he has showered on me. He showed
his greatness once through a dream in which he showed signs of
my wife passing away and in a mysterious way consoled me and
prepared me for the shocking incident. It did take place very
soon and my beloved wife passed away as predicted and by the
grace of Sri Maharshi it did not affect me very much. This
attitude of detachment is itself the grace of Bhagavan.

"In 1950, on 14th April, the memorable day of his Brahma
Nirvana, it so happened that even though it would have been
absolutely impossible for me to come to Tiruvannamalai, as I
was on duty at a place far away, I had the opportunity of visiting
the Ashram. In the day time I could not take my food due to
lack of time during travel to go to a hotel and take food.

"I paid my homage to my friend and guru who left his mortal
coil that night, but whose presence still pervaded his abode. I was
in deep mourning. Then someone asked me to take food since I
looked fatigued and tired and it was late in the night. I flady refused
saying, ' 1 am going to fast the whole day as an act of reverence and
homage to my intimate friend and revered guru.'"

I thanked Mr. Wahab and took leave of him with great
reverence as the classmate of Bhagavan who did not stop at being
a classmate but went further and understood Venkataraman as
Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi, the Maha Guru. *

* Sri Wahab has passed away since the article was written.

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Krishnaprem and
Maharshi

Marie B. Byles

{An English professor in ^purvasrama, Sri Krishnaprem
was an orthodox devotee of Krishna and as such had no intention
to follow Self Enquiry. Yet he had a striking experience of the
significance of the question, 'Who am IV, when he visited
Bhagavan for his blessings.)

SRI KRISHNAPREM, formerly Professor Ronald Nixon
from Cambridge in England, had taught literature at
Varanasi and Lucknow universities before he gave up the life of
the world, donned the gerua robes and became a sannyasin. He
took as his guru the saintly woman Yashoda Mai who had been
a leader of Indian social life before she became a sannyasini and
established an ashram at Mirtola, about eighteen miles from
Almora in the Himalayas. Here Krishnaprem took up his abode,
soon performing the Vaishnava rituals in the temple, and, when
the Brahmin cook left, doing the cooking also. When Yashoda
Mai died in 1945 he was left in charge of the ashram, though he
handed over the management to another in 1955, ten years
before his own death.

He was an orthodox Vaishnava and worshipper of Lord
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last thing that would have entered his head would have been to
find his goal through asking the question, 'Who am I?' However
he regarded Maharshi as a living shining light of India and
because of this in 1948, he made the long journey from Almora
to the south to receive his blessing. The story of his visit is told
by his friend, Dilip Kumar Roy, in his book about him. And as
I do not seem to remember having read about this visit
elsewhere, others may find it as illuminating as I do.

He entered the room where Maharshi was reclining with
devotees before him, and sat down among them to meditate.
As soon as he did so, he heard a voice saying over and over
again, 'Who are you? Who are you? Who are you?' He tried to
ignore it but eventually he replied silently, 'I am Krishna's
servant.' The voice still went on relentlessly. The question
changed to, 'Who was Krishna?' He answered, 'Nanda's son',
and formulated various other answers, 'He is an Avatar, the
One-in-all, the resident in every heart'. The voice continued
asking the former question. He became very disturbed, and
finally he rose and left the room. He returned and the voice
continued as before. Silently he prayed to Radha for guidance,
but she shook her head. Then the answer was revealed, but how
we are not told!

In the morning he again sat down with the other devotees.
Maharshi gave him a lightning glance and smiled at him. He
closed his eyes, then on a sudden impulse he found himself
silently asking Maharshi his own question, 'Who are you?'
Something made him open his eyes. Maharshi's couch was empty,
there was no Maharshi on it. He closed his eyes again but in a
moment opened them. Maharshi was reclining in his usual place
and he gave a fleeting smile and meaningful glance, after which
he looked away. Maharshi did not ask Krishnaprem to cease

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from worshipping Lord Krishna and surrendering all to him.
He never did this, there are different ways for different
temperaments. Some will perhaps be more direct than others,
but in the end all will find the same answer, and that vacant
couch gives the answer better than all.

And this is what I was taught when invisible cords drew
me to the Maha Bodhi Meditation Centre near Mandalay in
Burma. I was told there, that many are the ways of learning
Vipasana or insight meditation, but that all end up with the
experience of phyit pyet (come- go or ceaseless change) or the
end of T and 'mine' and 'me' — you are not the worrying
thoughts that disturb you, you are not the mind, you are not
the body. What are you then? phyit pyet. Whatever is your way
or my way, it is always helpful to understand and appreciate the
ways of others, as for example that of Krishnaprem, who found
that ultimately all faded away and there was only Krishna.

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A Perfect Image
of the Life Divine

K. Ramachandra

SAINTS AND SAGES are the salt of the earth. They are the
saviours of humanity. They are the sustainers of society. Philo
remarks, "Households, cities, countries and nations have enjoyed
great happiness, when a single individual has taken heed of the
good and beautiful. Such men not only liberate themselves,
they fill those they meet with a free mind."

In all sects of Hinduism, the worship of saints and sages
forms an important feature. In the galaxy of spiritual giants of
modern India, a great Sage answering to the description of Philo
in a supreme way is Bhagavan Sri Ramana, popularly known to
the world as 'Maharshi'. He stayed at Tiruvannamalai in South
India for over fifty four years and attained Mahasamadhi in
April 1950.

His teachings have a unique appeal to thinkers of both
east and west. He was considered as the living embodiment of
God-centred life, a perfect image of the life divine in the mirror
of human existence. In the words of the world-renowned
psychoanalyst, Dr. Carl Jung, "Sri Ramana is a true son of the
Indian earth. He is genuine, and in addition to that, something
quite phenomenal. In India, he is the whitest spot in a
white space."

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The Maharshi was not one of those teachers who tried to
make an impression on his devotees and others by mystifying
matters. Nor did he utilise any of the psychic powers to attract
the curiosity-seekers and miracle-mongers. His method was
direct. He disclosed the truth in the simplest possible language,
as realised and lived by him. He spoke very little, but in his
look there was not only love and compassion, but a subtle
spiritual vibration which went deeper into the heart of the visitor.

He regarded nothing as alien, none as other, no event as
undesirable. He thought of others in the same way as he thought
of himself. Love and love alone influenced his relationship with
others. His teaching through mouna or silence was difficult to
be understood by the average person. Once a visitor from the
west put the question to him as to why he was staying at one
spot for years together, without moving about and preaching
to people the truth he had realised. The Maharshi gave his
characteristic reply as follows:

"How do you know that I am not doing it? Does preaching
consist in mounting a platform and haranguing the people
around? Preaching is simple communication of knowledge. It
can really be done in silence only. What do you think of a man
who listens to a sermon for an hour and goes away without
having been impressed by it, so as to change his life? Compare
him with another who sits near a holy presence and goes after
some time with his outlook on life totally changed. Which is
better, to preach loudly without effect or to sit silently sending
out inner force?" On another occasion, answering a similar
question by an Indian devotee, he remarked,

"Vivekananda was perfectly right when he said that if you
thought a good thought in a cave it would have repercussions
on the whole world."

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So, let us meditate in silence on Bhagavan Sri Ramana.
Though he has given up his physical body, his presence is felt by
thousands as before. It is not confined to Tiruvannamalai. It
never was. But the hall where he sat for years has a special
attraction. Visitors come there even today from the four corners
of the globe.

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A Talk with
Sri Ramana Maharshi

Pryns Hopkins

IN AS MUCH AS India is notoriously the most
metaphysically minded of all countries, it was natural that I
should seek discussions in this field.

Ever since I had read Paul Brunton's A Search in Secret
India, I had been keen to visit Ramana Maharshi, the sage whom
Brunton found most impressive of all those he sought out. Soon
after my arrival at his Ashram, I bade one of the two men who
mainly ministered to him to inquire whether I might ask two
questions. Accordingly, I was requested to take my seat in front
of the group of visitors and an interpreter sat next to me
(although Maharshi usually gets queries directly through English)
and was invited to present my question.

The first of these questions was: "If it is true that all the
objective world owes its existence to the ego, then how can that
ego ever have the experience of surprise as it does, for example,
when we stub our toe on an unseen obstacle?"

Sri Bhagavan answered, 'that the ego is not to be thought of
as antecedent to the world of phenomena, but that both rise or
fall together. Neither is more real than the other, only the non-
empirical Self is more real. By reflecting on the true nature of the
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time, material obstacle and stubbed toe are equally unreal and to
dwell in the true reality which is beyond them all.'

He then went on to outline that we only know the object
at all through sensations derived from it remotely. Moreover,
that physicists had now shown that in place of what we thought
to be a solid object there are only dancing electrons and protons.

I replied that while we had, indeed, direct knowledge only
of sensations, we know less, for all that knowledge about the
objects which gave rise to the sensations, about which knowledge
was checked continually by making predictions, acting on them
and seeing them verified or disproved. Furthermore (here I went
on to my second query), "If the outer phenomena which I think
I perceive have no reality apart from my ego, how is it that
someone else also perceived them? For example not only do I
lift my foot higher to avoid tripping over that stool yonder, but
you also raise your foot higher to avoid tripping over it too. Is
it by a mere coincidence that each of us independently has come
to the conclusion that a stool is there?"

Sri Maharshi replied that the stool and our two egos were
created by one another mutually. While one is asleep, one may
dream of a stool and of persons who avoided tripping over it
just as persons in waking life did, yet did that prove that the
dream stool is any more real. And so we had it back and forth
for an hour, with the gathering very amused, for all Hindus
seem to enjoy a metaphysical contest.

During that afternoon's darshan I again had the privilege
of an hour's talk with Maharshi himself. Observing that he had
given orders to place a dish of food for his peacock, I asked,
"When I return to America would it be good to busy myself
with disseminating your books to the people just as you offer
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thought it good it would be good, but otherwise not. I asked
whether, quite apart from whatever I thought, it wasn't useful
to have pointed out a way to those who were ripe for a new
outlook. He countered with "Who thinks they are ready?"

The Maharshi went on to say that the essential thing is to
divorce our sense of self from what our ego and our body are
feeling or doing. We should think "Feelings are going on, this
body is acting in such and such a manner", but never "I feel, I
act." What the body craves or does is not our affair.

I then asked, "Have we then no responsibility at all for the
behaviour of our ego?"

He replied, "None at all. Let it go its own way like an
automaton."

"But", I objected, "you have told us that all the animal
propensities are attributes of the ego. If when a man attains
jivanmukti he ceases to feel responsibility for the behaviour of
his ego and body, won't they run amok completely?" I illustrated
my point with the story of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.

Maharshi replied, "When you have attained jivanmukti,
you will know the answer to those questions. Your task now is
not to worry about them but to know the Self."

But I am forced to doubt the whole theory unless it explains
away this discrepancy. "Here before us is the Maharshi who has
attained jivanmukti, and so withdrawn from all responsibility
for the conduct of his ego and the body we see before us. But
though he declares them to be the seat of all evil propensities,
his ego and body continue to behave quite decorously instead
of running wild. This forces me to suspect that something in
the hypothesis is incorrect."

He answered, "Let the Maharshi deal with that problem if
it arises and let Mr. Hopkins deal with who is Mr. Hopkins."

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Raman a
Reminiscences

Arthur Osborne

ONCE AGAIN PEOPLE throng together from all parts
of India for thejayanti of Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi
at Tiruvannamalai, at the foot of the sacred mountain of
Arunachala. Men and women, young and old, from the town
dweller in coat and trousers, to the old- world type of sadhu, all
alike irrespective of wealth and caste and from beyond India
also. America, France, England, Holland, Poland, Iraq, Ceylon,
all are represented. The Maharshi, tall, white-haired, golden-
hued, frail now beyond his years, goes through his daily routine
unperturbed, unselfconscious because completely Self-conscious.
Being unperturbed does not mean being indifferent. Never was
a face so alive, so responsive. From the rocklike gravity of
samadhi to free laughter or amused smile; the gracious
recognition of a devotee drawn here again, a smile, a look of
compassionate understanding that enters the heart and makes
an impression never to be forgotten. Nevertheless, many are
puzzled about the Maharshi.

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They ask, is he always in samadhP. Is it true that he will
not answer questions? Will he give advice? What kind otsadhana
does he enjoin? Is it any use for ordinary people to go there? I
will try to answer these questions as well as I can.

The supreme and final state of samadhi is Sahaja samadhi
which does not imply any trance or any oblivion to what we
ignorant ones call the 'outer world'. There is no going backward
and forward between the trance state and the mental state, the
inner and the outer. His consciousness embraced both constantly
without distinction and without effort. That is why the Maharshi
seems so natural, so simple and human in his ways, why he
laughs and talks freely and shows interest in all that goes on
around him. He is gracious to all, responds to all. There is no
aloofness, except the indefinable grandeur, the awe that a devotee
feels in his heart.

He does not expound doctrine unless asked, but when
asked, he answers all sincere questions graciously and often at
length. The widespread idea that he will not answer questions
perhaps comes from his own saying that he teaches in silence.
But that only means that the real teaching is the silent influence
on the heart of the seeker. The doubts of the mind can take
shape in words but that is not the essential teaching because,
however much a man may argue, he is not really to be convinced
in his mind but only in his heart, and that teaching is silent.
Indeed, it has happened to many, as Paul Brunton relates, that
when they sat silent before the Maharshi such peace flooded
their heart that the mind's doubts also disappeared and they
found they had no questions to ask.

In any case, the kind oisadhana enjoined by the Maharshi
requires little philosophy. It is the pure doctrine of Advaita.
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in books as the path of intellect. It is a peculiar use of the word
intellect and misleads many. It does not mean that there must
be more attention given to philosophy, but only that there must
be understanding of the one simple, central truth of Advaita,
that the Self alone is, and that all that is real in you is the Self,
Atma, and is universal. Therefore, the Maharshi does not answer
questions about what you were before you were born or what
you will be after you die. All such philosophy is brushed aside
and he turns you from such mental speculation to the practical
work of Self-enquiry 'Who am I?' When asked about life after
death, he has said, "Why worry about what you will be when
you die? First find out what you are now." Probably
commentators will arise who will call this 'agnosticism' just as
some have called Buddha an agnostic or atheist, but it is not. It
is simply a practical reminder that the Self not only was or will
be, but is and that if the apparent separateness of this life is an
illusion, that of the next life is also, and for the jnani who abides
in truth, in the Self, there is neither past nor future, neither
birth nor death, neither this life nor the next. The body may
change, but the consciousness of Self is immutable.

In order to realise universality, it is necessary to try to give
up the thought 'I am this' or 'I am that' and think only 'I am'.
That is why the Maharshi does not advise people to change their
conditions of life or work. If he advised them to give up their
work or their family and retire into solitude it would only be
exchanging the thought 'I am a house-holder' for 'I am a sadhu
and both are equally wrong, since it is necessary to remember
only 'I am'. It is the mind that must be overcome, and that can
be done as well in the world as in the jungle. If a man's work
distracts him from sadhana, the cure is not to give it up (because
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constantly 'Who am 1?' 'Who is doing this work?', until he acquires
detachment towards his life just like the work of the bank cashier
who receives and pays out lakhs of rupees efficiendy and without
emotion because he is not the owner and the sums do not affect
him. It means playing one's part in life with the same consciousness
and indifference to the outcome as the actor who knows that he
himself is not affected whether he has to play Caesar who is stabbed
or Brutus who stabs.

Many will say that this is too hard. Certainly it is harder to
control the mind than the body. To fast or remain celibate is
much easier than to keep your mind off food or women. But if
the way is hard, the blessing and support of the presence of
Bhagavan on earth is great. If a man says that this sadhana is
beyond his power, he is quite right! If he says that it is beyond
the power of Bhagavan to enable him to follow it, he is wrong.
Some may also say that it is a cold and mental way, but it is not
really. It is not a sadhana of the mind but of the heart. The
mind may wander and argue, the heart can perceive the truth
of oneness and must hold grimly to it until the wandering mind
has been subdued. But how can one explain the conviction that
awakens in the heart and the remembrance that stays there from
sitting in the presence of the Maharshi? His eyes can destroy
doubt and implant the seed of life. The memory is in the heart,
not the mind. It must be experienced to be understood.

Not all who go to the Maharshi are intellectuals. All sincere
devotees enjoy his grace. Sometimes philosophers have gone
there and drifted away and simple folk with love in their heart
have remained. Here, though never in the material world, the
saying is made good 'to each according to his needs'. You can
expect such devotees to tell you why they go there only when
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II

Dr. Hafiz Syed

IT IS SAID and perhaps rightly too, that over this distracted
world there is a greater sway of materialism than of spirituality.
The majority of people are deeply sunk in materialism and
therefore, have no inclination or desire to turn their attention
towards spiritual values.

The rapid advancement of science with its wonderful
achievements in the form of numerous discoveries and
inventions, has added to the materialistic tendencies of mankind
today.

The people in this modern age demand direct proof for
everything they are told to believe in. They are not satisfied
with mere assertions. As spiritual values can not be demonstrated
in the same manner as material things are, people do not give
even a moment's thought to the possibility of values, other than
material which they see all round themselves. This sphere of
spiritual and material values is based on two different angles.
To quote a Tibetan Scripture, "The Self of matter and the Self
of spirit cannot remain together, one of the twain must go!"

The reality of spiritual life cannot possibly be undervalued
or ignored simply because the majority of people are drawn
towards materialism. But for the glory and achievements of
spiritual life, human civilisation would not have progressed nor
could humanity have taken a step forward in the scale of
evolution. The history of human civilisation has revealed, to no
small extent, that solitary spiritual men have achieved great
things and have rendered no small service in raising the standard
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to divinity. The all-embracing influence of divinely inspired
prophets and sages in all ages is still being felt in various parts of
the world, and the fact that materialism has been unsettling our
minds, and in spite of the alienation of our sympathy from and
belief in higher values.

Of all countries, India has had the unique reputation of
producing in its fold a larger number of saints and sages from
time immemorial up to the present day. Every teacher of
humanity has had his own way of dealing with his brethren.
Some of them, say, for instance, Gautama the Buddha, Jesus
Christ, Guru Nanak, Kabir and Sri Sankaracharya have gone
about from place to place exhorting and admonishing the people
of their times to live moral lives and shun the ways of falsehood
and intrigue.

They used to give sermons to the eager crowds wherever
they went and in this way drew a larger number of people to
them, laid certain rules and regulations for everyday life, advised
people to seek true happiness exempt from decay and to be
helpful and charitable to each other. They thus laid the
foundation of the various religions that are still in vogue in
every part of the world.

Unlike all these saints, sages and prophets, Sri Ramana
Maharshi's life and work tells quite a different tale. His way of
serving mankind is in many ways unique and all his own. If we
closely and critically survey his simple and evidently uneventful
life from his earliest youth up to the present day, when he has
completed what the Psalmists call three score years and ten, we
find that he has never of his own accord desired or moved a
finger to win people's attention towards him. Nor did he offer
them any kind of spiritual or moral admonition to better their
lives.

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When the people ofTiruvannamalai discovered his presence
at the foot of the Hill of Arunachala some of them were irresistibly
drawn towards him and sought his help and guidance.

There has been a gradual evolution in his relation with the
outside world. In his early days when he was observing complete
silence, some approached him out of mere curiosity to see what
the 'Brahmana Swami' looked like, while others were moved
by an inner spiritual urge to visit him and receive his blessings.
One person of the latter category was Sri Ganapathi Muni who
had all the equipment necessary to understand, a being endowed
with higher spiritual powers.

It is acknowledged on all sides that Sri Ganapathi Shastri
was deeply learned in Hindu shastras and in the light of his
knowledge given by the rishis of yore and having the requisite
qualifications as laid down by the sacred scriptures, he knew
full well how to appreciate a young sage. To his great joy, as we
all know, he found that Sri Ramana Maharshi in his youth had
acquired all the moral and spiritual qualities and had attained
the highest spiritual enlightenment to which humanity ever
aspires. It is he who made known to the outside world that the
'Brahmana Swami' was a great sage, whose spiritual eminence
could not easily be gauged by an ordinary mortal.

One great quality which shone brilliantly in the Sage was that
of complete desirelessness and a spirit of unreserved renunciation.
The thought of the world with all its glaring trinkets never crossed
his mind. He was deeply, unshakeably and permanently established
in his highest Self that was full of bliss. Having found his rest and
home in what he lovingly called, his 'father', he never cared to look
at anything that the world prized highly

Only recently (i.e. in the latel940s) he suffered from a
sarcomatous growth on his arm, a disease which causes intense

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pain to the body. It was operated on thrice and the sage's serenity,
poise and peace were not at all disturbed. He remained absolutely
unmoved by the pain and suffering that is usually associated
with such a condition. He firmly believed and teaches others in
silence to understand that man is essentially a spiritual being,
free from all change, decay, and death. He is not his body, nor
his senses, nor even the mind.

They are all made of matter and therefore they are
constantly moving and changing. It is this realisation that makes
him truly happy, carefree, quiet and peaceful. Bhagavan Sri
Ramana's life is the greatest proof of the reality of the spiritual
life which is a challenge to materialism. He lived in his higher
Self and is in constant communion with the supreme Reality.

Bhagavan's method of approach to Truth is all his own. He
never dogmatises, he never sermonises, never gives any mantram
or expects people to follow any set mode of worship.

What he does for us we cannot convey by word of mouth.
His invisible gaze, silently, unobtrusively transforms the lives of
the men and women who, by virtue of their past good deeds,
are gathered around him, waiting for his benign attention and
paternal guidance.

All his great work for the improvement and betterment of
mankind is done invisibly and silently. His silence is more
eloquent, more effective, more far-reaching than the sermons
of any number of teachers put together. There is nothing
wanting in him for us. His grace is ever ready for us. All that we
have to do is to qualify ourselves by our self-effort and self-
purification to make ourselves worthy of his attention.

The well known maxim, "God helps those who help
themselves", holds good more in the case of his devotees than
of others. We have to raise ourselves to his level of requirements.

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Let a sceptic, an agnostic, or an unbeliever in higher values
come to him with an open mind, with a genuine desire to
understand what inner life is and to know what truth really
means and it may be said without the least hesitation that his
visit to Sri Bhagavan will never prove fruitless.

What the modern world wants is proof and demonstration.
That proof is present in the life of this great sage of India who is
in our midst to dispel the darkness of ignorance and restore the
light eternal, which alone can grant us the peace and happiness
that the world so badly needs.

Ill

Prof B.L. Atreya

A SAINT IS as great a necessity for human society as is a great
scientist, a great thinker and a great leader, nay the necessity is
even greater. For a scientist discovers the secrets of life and of
the Universe, a thinker tries to understand the meaning and
purpose of existence, and a leader tries to shape and transform
humanity or a portion of it according to his own notions of
what it ought to be.

A saint is one who makes a wholehearted effort to realise
in himself, in his own life, the highest and furthest possibilities
of human life, which in a natural course of evolution may take
centuries to actualise.

A saint is a man perfected, a fulfilled hope of humanity, a
successful experiment in human sublimation, and a source of
inspiration and guidance to the travellers on the path to

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perfection. He is the embodiment of the highest values of
humanity, an indubitable indication that ideals can be made
real, that man can be what he ought to be, here and now.

His life is a measure of man's manhood, when it is lived in
the midst of humanity and not in sanctified seclusion. It is a
practical solution of the various puzzles of life, provided it is a
comprehensive one. Considered from various points of view, a
saint is the greatest asset to human society. A perfected being,
he is the eternal beacon to sadhakas the world over.

I have read the biographies of many a saint, seen a number
of them and have come in contact with some. I have had the
privilege of being at the Ashram of Sri Ramana Maharshi for a
short time in March 1940 and since then have been in
correspondence with him.

He made a deep impression upon my mind, a mind that
has been moulded by a study of scientific and philosophic
writings of the east as well as of the west. The greatest peculiarity
and merit of Sri Ramana Maharshi's life is that although he has
moulded and perfected his personality on the lines ofAdvaita
Vedanta, a purely Indian way of Self-realization, he is highly
appreciated and resorted to by western seekers and by those
Indians who have been educated on western lines.

One of the reasons for this fact may be that some English
and French writers happened to praise him highly in their books.
But the fact remains to be explained why these western seekers
were themselves so well impressed by the Maharshi. Mere
publicity does not in the least establish the greatness of saints,
although it may make them known, as in the case of Jesus Christ,
to a wider public.

Maharshi's greatness is more deeply founded. It is based on
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reality is one without a second, that everything in this Universe is
but that reality which is Existence-Consciousness-Bliss.

True to his creed, he regards nothing as alien, none as
other, no event as undesirable. For him the ideal is the real and
the real is the ideal. He has no other relation with anyone but
that of love. He thinks as much of others as he thinks of himself.
Love, affection, kindness, mercy etc. which are expressions of
one and the same thing, and the feeling of unity with all, ever
flow from him. This is the secret of Maharshi's unique greatness
and consequent popularity. The whole of humanity owes its
homage to this great sage amidst us.

Jnana is like akasha. The supreme Self which is to be known
through sadhana is also like the ether. The various objects we
see in the world as well as the souls are like the ether. Therefore,
who is to know which? What is to be known by what? The
supreme realization is that there is no plurality. True knowledge
is distinctionless. That knowledge is the Self, the light divine.
That knowledge is Bhagavan Ramana.

May we offer our obeisance to this supreme Lord who
came to save the world and who still abides and will ever abide
with us in order to make us perfect.

May we, on this auspicious occasion, renew our faith in
our Bhagavan and pay homage to him so that not only we, but
the entire world may be saved.

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IV

Anonymous

WITH THE INCREASE in distant visitors, the atmosphere at
Ramanashram is growing more lively and Sri Maharshi often
brings home a point by narrating stories from the past.

One day last week, the photo of a piece of architecture at
the Madurai temple was missing. A few minutes earlier, it had
been seen by many people who had gathered in the hall but
when Mr. Maurice Frydman wanted to see it, the photo could
not be traced. The Maharshi asked some of the inmates what
had become of it and the most surprising part of it was that the
French lady who was stated to have obtained it was not herself
aware of having done so.

Mr. Frydman utilised the occasion to ask a pointed question
as to how this disappearance was viewed by the Maharshi himself.

The reply was, "Suppose you dream that you are taking
me to Poland. You wake up and ask me, I dreamt so and so.
Did you dream so or know it? And how do you view it?"

Frydman further asked, "But are you not aware of the
happenings in front of you?"

Sri Maharshi replied, "These are all workings of the mind
and the questions also."

Then Sri Maharshi narrated a story.

"When Ska was missed and Rama went about in search of her,
Parvati was surprised and asked Siva, 'You had praised Rama as the
perfect being. See how he behaves now and grieves at the loss of Ska.'

"Siva replied, 'If you are sceptical about Sri Rama's
perfection then put him to the test. Transform yourself into
Sita and appear before him.'

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"Parvati did so and to her astonishment, Rama ignored
her appearance and still cried. 'Ha Sita, Ha Sita, and moved
like a blind man. Parvati was then convinced."

In the course of a conversation Dr. Henry Hand asked
Maharshi, "Are you conscious of a brotherhood of invisible
rishisV

Sri Maharshi replied with a question, "If invisible, how to
see them?"

Dr. Hand, "In consciousness".

Sri Maharshi continued, "In consciousness there is nothing
external."

Dr. Hand asked, "Is there not individuality? I fear to lose
my individual being."

Sri Maharshi, "Why fear to lose individuality? What is your
state in dreamless sleep? Are you conscious of your individuality
then?"

Dr. Hand, "It is possible."

Sri Maharshi, "But what is your experience? If the
individuality be there would it be asleep?"

Dr. Hand, "That depends on the interpretation. What
does Maharshi say?"

Sri Maharshi, "Maharshi does not speak for your
experience. He does not force anything down your throat."

Dr. Hand, "I know. That is what I like so much about the
Maharshi and his teachings."

Sri Maharshi, "Do you not really take great care to get
sound sleep? Do you not prepare your bed carefully? And are
you not anxious to lose your individuality in deep steep? Then
why fear it?"

One visitor asked him, "How can one root out the sex
idea?"

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Sri Maharshi's reply was, "By rooting out the false idea of
the body being the Self. There is no sex in the Self."
The visitor again asked, "How is one to realise it?"
Sri Maharshi said, "Because you think you are the body,
you see another as the body. Difference in sex arises. But, you
are not the body. Be the real Self and there is no sex."

Anonymous

IN 1943 (OR 1944), Dr. Jesudasan, known as Peria Annan
(the Chinna Annan being Dr. Paton), accompanied by Dr.
Raja went to Sri Ramanasramam. Peria Annan who was a highly
qualified doctor and who had done his medical studies at
Edinburgh, wanted to serve the poor. At the same time he had
a deep spiritual longing, and spent long hours in prayer,
meditation, and reading the scriptures. Some accused this odd
sanyasi doctor of not giving his full attention to medical work
and wasting his expert talents. He himself was disturbed about
this seeming dichotomy in his life.

He went to Sri Ramanasramam and sat in silence before
the Maharshi amidst several devotees. Solemn silence prevailed
and after some fifteen minutes, Periannan ventured to speak
out and seek Bhagavan's guidance. Smiling, the Maharshi said,
"Some call me also a lazy fellow. Do what you feel like doing."
Periannan realized in a flash that there was no real dichotomy
in his life.

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VI

WHEN IN ANCIENT DAYS even Sri Dakshinamurti the Adi-
guru, guru of all gurus was able to reveal the truth of that one
Self only through silence, the speechless speech, who else can
reveal it through speech?

In this connection, Sri Bhagavan once told the following
story to Sri Muruganar. When the four aged Sanakadi rishis
first saw the sixteen-year-old Sri Dakshinamurti sitting under
the banyan tree, they were at once attracted by him,
understanding him to be the real Sadguru.

They approached him, did three pradakshinas around him,
prostrated before him, sat at his feet and began to ask very shrewd
and pertinent questions about the nature of Reality and the means
of attaining it. Because of the great compassion and fatherly love
(vatsalyd) which he felt for his aged disciples, the young Sri
Dakshinamurti was overjoyed to see their earnestness, wisdom and
maturity, and hence he gave apt replies to each of their questions.

As he answered each consecutive question, further doubts
rose in their minds and still they asked further questions. Thus
they continued to question Sri Dakshinamurti for one whole
year, and he continued to clear their doubts through his
compassionate answers.

Finally, however, Sri Dakshinamurti understood that if he
gave more answers to their questions more doubts would rise in
their minds and hence there would never be an end to their
ignorance (ajnana). Therefore, suppressing even the feeling of
compassion and fatherly love which was welling up within him,
he merged himself into the supreme silence. Because of their
great maturity (which had been ripened to perfection through
their year-long association with the Sadguru), as soon as Sri

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Dakshinamurti thus merged himself, they too were automatically
merged within, into silence, the state of Self.

Wonder-struck on hearing Sri Bhagavan narrating the
story in this manner, Sri Muruganar remarked that in no book
is it mentioned that Sri Dakshinamurti ever spoke anything.
"But this is what actually happened" replied Sri Bhagavan.

From the authoritative way in which Sri Bhagavan thus
replied and from the clear and descriptive way in which he had
told the story, Sri Muruganar understood that Sri Bhagavan
was none other than Sri Dakshinamurti himself.

VII

The author of this reminiscence is not known, but the
events took place in 1935. Maurice Frydman eventually
became a resident of Sri Ramanasramam for a period of nearly
three years and during the later stages of his stay, he compiled
"Maharshi's Gospel".

ONE MORNING IN September, one Maurice Frydman, a
consulting and electrical engineer announced himself before
Sri Bhagavan. He entered the hall, hat in hand but with shoes
still on. The Maharshi ordered a stool for him upon which he
seated himself cross-legged for a short time and then he withdrew.
After a wash and light refreshments he came back without shoes
and squatted on the floor.

He stayed three days and was quite social and genial and
friendly to everyone who responded similarly towards him. He
tried to learn our ways and adapt himself to them. His clumsiness
often evoked the good humoured laughter of the Maharshi who
always put him right, as a father would a child.

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He tried to learn from Maharshi something about realisation,
raised doubts and had them cleared. Once he asked why there
should be illusion if the individual soul is identical with the Supreme.
Bhagavan gave him the usual answer (the answer is not given in the
text) and then began to chew betel leaves. In the meantime,
Mr.Frydman was ruminating and with dramatic gestures wanted
to know why the ego should not be cut down at one stroke and
destroyed so as to gain supreme bliss. The Maharshi stopped chewing
his betel leaves long enough to smile, and then broke out into
laughter and asked the questioner to hold out his ego so that the
Maharshi could strike it down. Everyone in the hall laughed
including Mr. Frydman and at the conclusion of the laughter Mr.
Frydman addressed the Maharshi and said, "Yes, now I understand."

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Varadachari

THOUGH I HAVE HAD unique opportunities of studying
some of the characteristic works of Sri Ramana, yet it was only in
April 1947 that I had the good fortune of beholding him face to
face. This darshan of the sage is an experience in itself. It is not
capable of being described. So very casual yet pregnant, so very
unobtrusive yet deeply significant, almost everything that occurs
in the Ashram seems to be inundated with the quiet consciousness
of the Master. Such indeed was my reflective impression. Pleasant,
deeply penetrating and inspiring somewhere in the depths, it
showed that the activity of the spirit is of a different order and
kind from what we know to be 'activity'.

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IX

Maurice Frydman

JUST SIX MONTHS after I came to India, I was left alone
and had no friends. The person whom I loved died and I had
nothing to attract me in life.

Quite accidentally, just for fun, I dropped in at
Tiruvannamalai. I went direct to the swami but I was ordered
out by his disciples as I had not taken off my shoes.

After bathing and other preparations, I went again to the
hall and remained there with the Maharshi for two hours.

Then I understood that I had met someone, the likes of
whom I had never met before.

I did not then know what was meant by words like
Maharshi and Bhagavan. I had no preconceived ideas and yet I
felt that there was something extraordinary in that man.

I was told about his teachings but they were far too high
for me. I did not understand what they meant but I felt a strong
and lasting affection for him. I was alone in India and I attached
myself to him just as a homeless dog would to his master.

Afterwards, whenever I felt worried, I used to go to
Arunachala, and sit in his presence. In the early days I would be
asking questions, but later when I began to visit him more and
more, the discussion with him grew less and less.

Then I began to visit him almost every month. I knew no
sadhana or dhyana. I would simply sit in his presence. To my
questions, Sri Maharshi would say: "Find out who you are." I
could not make out anything but all the same I felt happy.

Slowly some change came in me. Just as the egg grows and
hatches only with the aid of the warmth of the mother I was
also getting into shape slowly and steadily in his presence.

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My mind became more quiet than before. Previously it
was unhappy and never satisfied. Now a kind of security and
peace began to be felt spontaneously.

I felt that Sri Maharshi was coming nearer and nearer as
time passed. Afterwards I used to think of him whenever I felt
unhappy. He used to appear before me and ask if I have not
committed any sin. If I had erred or sinned, he used to hide
himself for a time but later on appear and reply.

His affection was always there and as fire melts ice so his
affection made my worries melt.

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Swami Madhavananda

ON ONE OCCASION, probably in 1939, Sri P.M.N. Swamy
a staunch devotee of Bhagavan and secretary of Sri Ramana
Satchidananda Mandali, Matunga, went to the Ashram at
Tiruvannamalai to have darshan of Bhagavan and stayed for
the day there with his wife and nine month old child, Ramanan.

They had their breakfast in the common dining hall in
the morning. After finishing they went to wash their hands at
the tap outside, leaving the child in the hall. By this time
Ramanan crawled away somewhere and could not be seen. The
perturbed father called out to the child as 'Ramana, Ramana.

Bhagavan, who was then passing on his way to the
meditation hall immediately responded to the call and the child
also was found near the well in the Ashram compound. The
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P.M.N. Swamy's mind because he thought that the call 'Ramana,
Ramana' intended for his child might have been wrongly
interpreted by Bhagavan.

Bhagavan was quick to read Sri Swamy's mind and told
him, "Why do you feel puzzled when I responded to the call? Is
there any difference between this Ramana (meaning himself)
and that Ramana (meaning the child)?"

XI

K. R. K. Murthy

AN OLD WOMAN bent double with age used to go round
and round Sri Bhagavan's hall and finally go near Bhagavan's
seat and loudly sing songs composed extempore by her. Her
spontaneous compositions used to pour forth effortlessly from
her extremely devoted heart. She was not a learned lady there
night be some grammatical mistakes and errors in rhyme,
rhythm, etc. She used to thus sing her prayers daily for obtaining
the grace of Bhagavan.

One day Sri Bhagavan smilingly remarked that her songs
seemed to be much better than those of her son. Her son was a
scholar and from an ordinary point of view, the scholar's
compositions ought to be superior but for Bhagavan those arising
from the bottom of the heart with great devotion and emotion
are more pleasing. Are not the standards of judgement different?

Whenever Bhagavan's physical body appeared to suffer from
some ailment, some devotees used to prescribe medicines for relief,
forgetting that Sri Bhagavan himself was Vaidyanatbawho can cure

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all ills if he so willed. Sri Bhagavan used to take or apply the medicines
just for the satisfaction of the devotees who prescribed the same
and not for curing himself. He never wanted to wound the feelings
of even the humblest devotees and he used to accept the medicines,
though there was no necessity for any of them as far as he was
concerned. Though the act is the same, the object is different.

One lady devotee was one day expressing to Bhagavan
that she had come that day from a long distance. Bhagavan
suddenly remarked, "You did not come. The train brought you
here." The other side of the picture is more real to Bhagavan.
She did not come there perhaps by her individual exertion but
was brought by Bhagavan's grace.

In the early stages, Sri Ramanashramam was a lonely
cottage in the burial ground. As the number of devotees
frequenting the Ashram was increasing, so also was the joy of
the thieves in the neighbourhood at the prospect of getting easy
money from the Ashram.

They waited for an opportunity and one day suddenly
broke into the Ashram at the dead of night. They freely used
their sticks on every one of the inmates including Bhagavan.
They enraged the devotees who were preparing to pay them in
the same coin. Sri Bhagavan who was unmoved pointed out
that, "sahanam was sadhu dharmd" , and that they should
patiently bear with the thieves.

"We should not swerve from the path of our dharma
irrespective of the acts or behaviour of evil doers, further it is
not wise to knock down the teeth that bit the tongue", he said.

These words disarmed the devotees, who kept quiet while
the thieves were busy. The thieves expected to go back with a
fortune but with all their efforts could not secure more than
ten rupees worth of valuables from the whole premises.

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While the thieves were thus disappointed and dejected, Sri
Bhagavan was reported to have suggested to them mercifully
that they should take the food available in the kitchen. This
sensational incident could not upset the peace of Bhagavan even
for a while or make an impression on his mind (although it
became the talk of the neighbouring town) . The importance
attached to this occurrence by the sage was nil.

Once Bhagavan, while passing through the hilly tracts
inadvertently damaged a nest of wasps. The wasps furiously
attacked the leg that pulled down their beloved home. Sri
Bhagavan bore the unbearable pain patiently without offering
the least resistance as his guilty leg which caused pain to them in
his opinion, deserved the just punishment meted out to the
same by the angry wasps. How different is Sri Bhagavan's
reaction and his sense of justice which knows no fear or favour?

When a westerner invited the attention of Bhagavan to the
poverty of the average Indian and his poorly furnished quarters,
Sri Bhagavan replied that although the Indians did not possess
many material comforts, they are not less happy on that account.
As they do not feel the want of the same, they are able to enjoy
life with what they have. How true and how correct! Happiness is
not direcdy proportional to the material goods one possesses.

In Sri Ramanashram Sri Bhagavan used to occupy a sofa
and many people used to think it was very comfortable and
luxurious a seat for any person. Some used to remark why should
a sage or sanyasi require such a seat, forgetting for the moment
that Sri Bhagavan was accustomed to the roughest and hardest
possible seats throughout his life and only towards the end he
used the sofa to oblige certain devotees.

One day Sri Bhagavan was giving instructions to an
attendant about binding the books for careful preservation. To

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supplement the instructions and show personally, he sat on the
flat floor and remarked that it was very pleasant to sit on the
ground. A high seat also was essential to enable a number of
devotees to have darshan of Bhagavan simultaneously. Sri
Bhagavan was accustomed to put up with anything which came
his way and as he was not attached to any particular seat, he
occupied the sofa for the convenience of the devotees. This was
in spite of some physical discomfort in occupying that particular
seat. Ordinary people think that the sofa is a nice seat. But Sri
Bhagavan expressed at least once that the floor was much better.
Are not the views different?

One day as usual Sri Bhagavan started for a walk towards
Arunachala. On the way, there were some steps. While crossing
over these Sri Bhagavan's leg slipped and was injured. Some
devotees who noticed this examined the steps and found them
to be uneven. Immediately some masons were called for and
by the time they started work Sri Bhagavan returned to the
spot and observed that they were cutting off some portions of
the steps. "Why?" He questioned. "Why do you cut off the
steps? The steps did nothing. It is only this leg that is at fault.
Cut off the leg." How different is the saintly reaction!

XII

J. Suryaprakasa Rao

IN THE YEAR 1946, a friend of mine informed me about the
glory of Tiruvannamalai and its sage. The photo of Bhagavan
in a smiling posture was secured by me.

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It was three years later during May 1949, that I decided to
have his darshan. On entering into his presence, the general silence
and serenity captivated me. At first I was partly anxious to get
near to him and partly timid. I only mentally repeated, "Bhagavan
I have come" as though it was a long expected meeting. He looked
into my eyes. Even from the distance I could not stand the
brilliance of those eyes. I tried to meditate. Presently there was
some conversation. A European lady sat there attired in Indian
style. After a repeated jingling of her bangles, Bhagavan asked in
Telugu smilingly, "What is the matter?" Somebody replied, "She
wore bangles", "Oh I see", said Bhagavan. He was then looking
at some of the correspondence, at the playing of the squirrels,
and at the feeding of the white peacock.

In the afternoon, by the time we came, the sitting had
already commenced. There was no interruption to the supreme
silence. A cultured family of a mother, husband and wife came
and offered some tiffin which he took, washed his hands and
resumed his inimitable posture. We sat still in silence for some
time and took leave after prostrating to Sri Ramana Bhagavan.

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K. K. Nambiar

PEOPLE WHO VISITED Sri Bhagavan during his life time,
could not have failed to observe the characteristic pose in which
he reclined on his sofa with eyes closed and his head supported
with his left arm, particularly at the time of Vedaparayana and
so on.

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Some of us devotees sitting around used to watch him
intently during such periods. On several occasions I used to
mentally pray to him that on reopening his eyes, he should
bestow a look at me and I must say I was never disappointed.
So, it was crystal clear to me that prayers to Bhagavan need not
be vocal and he felt, knew, and answered the inner prayers of
all his devotees.

Conversely, there were also occasions when I sat at the feet
of Sri Bhagavan and intently meditated on his form with closed
eyes, and most often when I opened my eyes, Sri Bhagavan
appeared to be watching me. It is a great comfort even now to
recall the experience of those exquisite moments which stand
out so vividly in my memory. Time hasn't effaced even a fraction
of those vistas.

XIV

P.T. Muthuswami

MY JOY FOUND no limit when I had the darshan of Bhagavan
Sri Ramana Maharshi on the 8th of June, 1947 at 9.20 a.m.
Apart from Ashram inmates, Indians and foreigners, there used
to be a stream of visitors both in the morning and the evening.
Some visitors, with the permission of the Ashram authority,
used to take snapshots of Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi.

In my heart of hearts I was deeply thinking whether I
could be so fortunate as to have a photo taken along with Sri
Bhagavan. A good and pious idea indeed! But, the question of
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It so happened that a rich and a pious soul with a band of
devotees from Andhra, came to the Arunachala temple and then
to Sri Ramanasramam. They had the darshan of Sri Bhagavan
in the morning and they arranged for a group photo to be
taken along with him in the evening.

Sri Bhagavan stood in front of the small gate towards the
eastern side, facing Arunachala Hill. Another devotee and myself
were observing all this very keenly from a very respectful distance.
One of the devotees seeing Sri Bhagavan standing, had very wisely
brought a stool from the Ashram, upon which, gurudev sat. The
photo was about to be taken when the sarvadhikari, in hurrying
up to the spot, saw me and another devotee standing, and asked
us to follow him. We both immediately followed him and joined
the group photo. The photo was taken. My happiness was beyond
expression. I have a copy of this eventful photo with me. This is
how 'kripd of Bhagavan works miraculously.

Bhagavan can be compared to the saptha rishis of the ancient
times. Those who came in contact with such a great personality,
an embodiment of supreme Self-hood are really blessed. They
should consider themselves very fortunate.

Those who lived at Sri Ramanashram knew full well how
punctuality used to be observed in every activity of the Ashram.
Even breakfast, lunch, tea and supper used to be served precisely
at 7a.m., 11a.m., 3p.m., and 7.30p.m., respectively.

At the ringing of the bell, Sri Bhagavan would go to the
dining hall from the main darshan hall. The devotees would
follow him with great reverence. He used to sit in the middle of
the dining hall and of all the devotees sitting in rows.

Different varieties of delicious dishes used to be served
systematically and briskly by some of the devotees. Every variety,
each in small quantity, used to be served to Bhagavan. He used

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to mix up the food, vegetables, chatnys and other things all
into one paste and keep it ready.

When serving was finished Sri Bhagavan used to ask,
"Finished?" meaning whether serving was completed.
Sarvadhikari replying in the affirmative used to prostrate before
him. Sri Bhagavan would then cast a benign glance all round
and would nod his head signifying to commence eating. Perfect
silence would be prevailing in the dining hall, although the
number present would be more than a hundred. Sri Bhagavan
would leave the plantain leaf after his meals, in such a clean
manner, as it was placed, before meals were served. Not even a
particle of rice would be left on it.

The very life of Sri Bhagavan was itself sacred scripture.
He was moving Veda and Upanishad. His teachings were through
silence. Who could have understood his immutable silence, the
very nature of one's own Self!

XV

N. N. Rajan

BHAGAVAN SRI RAMANA is a guru to all those who have
faith in him. He is a rare combination of bhakti and jnana.
Some devotees feel that they are led through jnana towards
Self-knowledge. Each individual is helped or taught by him
either through silence or sometimes by words according to the
needs of that person. Therefore, one is not aware what another
gets by way of help from the guru and that becomes clear when
the devotees compare notes of their experience.

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Often Sri Bhagavan clears the doubts in the minds of the
devotees even before they put questions to him. Devotees having
some problems which they themselves could not solve come
there with an ardent desire of asking Sri Bhagavan for a solution,
but often, and to their amazement, they themselves find the
solutions of the problems when they sit in his presence.

Such a method of teaching is nothing short of a miracle in
its subtlest form. Miracles, as generally understood, are
something spectacular and many persons are under the
impression that the greatness of a saint or sage is directly
proportionate to the number of miracles he performs. That
way of thinking is not correct. Sri Bhagavan says that the greatest
miracle is attainment of Self-knowledge and all other spectacular
performances are of the world, hence illusory! He does not admit
that he performs any miracles, but things do happen which we
interpret in such a way.

In this connection, it would be interesting to narrate my
experience. Once I met an old friend Mr. K. A. in Poona. In
the course of our conversation, he told me that in 1919, he was
informed by some devotees that a peacock and a cobra played
with each other in Skandasram when Sri Bhagavan was residing
there. To see this, he and a friend of his, decided to go there and
verify what they had heard.

They arrived at Skandasram in the afternoon and sat there
for a couple of hours hoping to see the bird and the snake, but
they did not appear. They felt disappointed and returned home
the same day with the belief that people circulate stories that are
not correct. I too had heard about the story of the peacock and
the snake at Skandasram, and I believed it because I had no cause
to doubt the intention of those that told me about it. I tried to
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greatness of a saint, which according to him have a value, and he
put forward very strong arguments to support his own case.

Mr. K. A. is a well-read old man, and the conversation
initiated a struggle in my mind whether to believe or discard as
untrue what I had heard. My mind was very uneasy for a couple
of days and it calmed down when it occurred to me that the
peacock and the snake could not have obliged Mr. K.A. and his
friend during the very short stay they made at Skandasram.

Sri Bhagavan's talks are very instructive and can be easily
understood by those who listen to him. He talks about his own
experience in very simple language. He generally speaks in Tamil,
Telugu or in Malayalam. He knows English but seldom speaks
in that language. People who do not know the Dravidian
languages ask questions in English and his replies are given in
Tamil which are then translated into English by an interpreter
for the benefit of the questioners. When he finds that the
translation is not correct he suggests appropriate English words
to the interpreter. He writes and composes in the three Indian
languages mentioned above and in Sanskrit too. Most of his
works have been translated into English and other languages.
From the study of such spiritual literature much benefit can be
derived, but one who is earnest in the quest of the Self, gets
abiding inspiration by personal contact with Sri Bhagavan. Since
he knows many languages, it is possible to converse with him
and get more benefit than from reading books alone.

I have had opportunities to talk to Sri Bhagavan and one
of them is mentioned here. One day I went to see Gurumurtham
and the garden near it. These two places are well known to
those who have read his biography. It is in this garden that
Bhagavan's uncle recognised him as his nephew Venkataraman,
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the two places I returned to the Ashram and told Sri Bhagavan
that the place now is more or less an open ground and is not a
garden as described by Sri Narasimhaswamy in his book Self
Realization. Sri Bhagavan immediately began to describe how
the garden was then and proceeded further to describe his life
during his sojourn there. He said that he was taking shelter in a
lamb pen which was hardly high enough for him to sit erect. If
he wanted to stretch his body on the floor, most of it was out in
the open. He wore only a kaupina and had no covering over
the rest of his body. If it rained he remained on the wet and
sodden ground where sometimes water stood a couple of inches
deep! He did not feel any inconvenience because he had no
'body sense' to worry him. He felt that sunrise and sunset came
in quick succession. Time and space did not exist for him! He
then tried to describe the state of his awareness of the Self and
his awareness of the body and things material. To him the sun
of absolute Reality made the phenomenal world disappear and
he was immersed in that light which dissolves diversity into the
One without a second!

It is not possible to express exactly the thrill felt by all of
us who were listening to him. We all did feel as if we were
transported into that condition to attain that which we are
striving for. There was a deep silence in the hall for some time
during which everyone present felt peace and happiness. It
occurred to me then that Bhagavan, while narrating any incident
of his life, takes the opportunity to teach us, and I told him that
when he spoke we felt as if it was easy to experience the Self and
even as if we had glimpses of it. We asked him exactly how one
has to proceed to be in that state of continuous awareness which
he had described. Sri Bhagavan, with his sparkling eyes, looked
at me benevolently, raised his hands and said,

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"It is the easiest thing to obtain. The Self is always in you,
around you and everywhere. It is the substratum and the support
of everything. You are experiencing the Self and enjoying it
every moment of your life. You are not aware of it because your
mind is on things material and thus gets externalised through
your senses. Hence you are unable to know it. Turn your mind
away from material things which are the cause of desires, and
the moment you withdraw your mind from them you become
aware of the Self. Once you experience the Self, you are held
by it, and you become 'That which is the One without a

When he finished his words I again felt in the same way as
I felt on the first day I met him in 1923 — that Sri Bhagavan is
a big power house and his power or grace overwhelms us,
whatever our ideas may be and leads us into the channel flowing
into the Self. It became clear to me that we can have the
knowledge of the Self if only we take the path into which a
realised person or guru directs us.

In conclusion I wish to say that one should constantly
meditate that one is not the body or the mind. Unless the mind
is in contact with the senses, we cannot get any report from our
ears, eyes etc. We must therefore still the mind by disconnecting
it from the senses and thus get beyond them to experience the
Self. What we learn from sense perception is only relative
knowledge. Knowledge of the Self can be learnt only by sitting
at the feet of one who has realised it; what others tell you is
mere talk. Bhagavan Sri Ramana is one of those Masters who
has realised the Self and like all other Masters who preceded
him, he helps us proceed rapidly to attain Self-knowledge.

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XVI

Madhavi Ammal

Srimathi Madhavi Ammal, a staunch devotee, was
fortunate in having many opportunities to talk to Sri
Bhagavan freely and appeal to him direct for upadesa. Sri
Bhagavan made things easy for her in many ways, one of
which was talking to her in her native Malayalam. He gave
a patient hearing to her tales of woe which were many. This
is visible in a film on Sri Bhagavan which is screened
occasionally at the Ashram. The devotee seems to have almost
wrested the upadesa from the Guru by her perseverance
according to the following narrative of hers.

I KNEW FULL well that Sri Bhagavan gave no formal upadesa
(initiation) but I kept on asking for it whenever an opportunity
presented itself. Invariably Sri Bhagavan used to reply "Who is
the Guru and who is the sishya (disciple)? They are not two.
There is but One Reality. It is in you and It can neither be
given nor taken. But you may read books for intellectual
understanding."

On March 12, 1934 after prayers at the Shrine of Sri
Mathrubhuteswara I went to the old hall. Only the attendant
Madhava Swami was with Sri Bhagavan. When I made my usual
request Sri Bhagavan laid aside the newspaper he was reading and
sat mpadmasana, quite absorbed. I then recited a (general) hymn
of praise to the Guru in Telugu and also Aksharamanamalai in
Telugu (the hymn on Sri Arunachala by Sri Bhagavan). Sri
Bhagavan turned to Madhava Swami and said, "She has prayed
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will give the initiation and also that Sri Bhagavan and Sri
Arunachala are not two. Sri Bhagavan resumed his state of
absorption and I had my persistent request for upadesa. But he
continued to sit motionless. Finally I begged of him, "Am I not a
competent person to receive upadesa? Sn Bhagavan should himself
tell me about this. Even if Sri Bhagavan confirms this how is it
that I adopted him as my Guru immediately on hearing of him
(she was just told that a Rishi lived at the foot of the Hill)? Will it
all be in vain?" Immediately on my speaking thus I found a bright
light emanating from Sri Bhagavan's holy face, and the effulgence
filled the whole Hall. I could not see Sri Bhagavan's body but
only the brilliance. I shed tears in profusion. The whole incident
could have lasted just two seconds! I prostrated to Sri Bhagavan.
There was a smile on his face but no movement otherwise. After
a while Sri Bhagavan turned to me as if to ask, "Are you rid of
your mania?" Yes, I was. He then took a piece of paper, wrote a
sloka (verse) on it and gave it to me saying, "You can make use of
it in meditation."

This is the sloka:

I adore Guha the Dweller in the Cave of the Heart, the
Son of the Protector of the Universe, the Pure Light of Awareness
beyond thought, the Wielder of the weapon ofjnana Sakti and
the Remover of the ignorance of blemishless devotees. l

And again he smiled graciously.

This was wonderful upadesa indeed by a Master rare to
see. My Master taught me the great truth that there is only
ONE. The proper Guru is one who shows what is. This was but
a practical demonstration of the saying

"The Master's face reveals Brahman. You attain Brahman
through Grace."

eg so

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Recollections

K.R.K. Murthy

WITH A VIEW to record Sri Bhagavan's voice and
preserve the same for posterity, someone raised a
discussion on the sound recording machines in the presence of
Bhagavan. Sri Bhagavan agreed with what they said, regarding
this wonderful machine. Seeing that Sri Bhagavan was very
favourably disposed towards the same, they wanted to pursue
the matter further and fix up a date for recording Sri Bhagavan's
voice. At that moment Sri Bhagavan replied, "My real voice is
silence; how can you record that?" In this connection he narrated
the story of the saint Thandavaraya, who by his dynamic silence
stilled the minds of several people, for three full days.

Once when someone was expressing that all sensations
near his hip were not being felt for some time, Sri Bhagavan
quickly remarked, "How nice will it be if the whole body
becomes like that? We will be unaware of the body."

One attendant of Bhagavan was reading to Bhagavan in
the night. The attendant heard snoring sounds and stopped
reading thinking that Bhagavan was asleep. Immediately
Bhagavan questioned him as to why he stopped. Again the
attendant continued and similar snoring sounds proceeding
from Bhagavan made him stop again. But Sri Bhagavan was
quite alert and asked him to continue. Is it not a job to find out
when Bhagavan is inattentive?

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Once Sri Bhagavan said, "If you remain quiet you do the
greatest service. One who is abiding in Atma nishtai is always
doing greater service {sishrusha) to the guru, than one who does
some service physically." Guru is one who shows the way to
Atma nishtai (abidance in the Self) and the disciple is one who
follows.

"If one wants to commit suicide, even a small implement
or knife is sufficient. For murdering others, bigger ones are
required. Similarly for oneself, one or two words are sufficient
but to convince others, books after books have to be written."

"This Ashram is a place where people can stay and improve
and not remark or criticise. In the beginning people come here
with the best of intentions to secure the grace of the swami.
After a time, they begin to comment, 'This is not right, that is
not right', and engage themselves in some kind of activity and
run after power and position and, as it were, forget for what
they have come here."

"Always it is safer to use cheap and ordinary items as no
one then cares to cast a greedy eye upon them."

"One who does the work without the feeling of doer-ship
escapes misery and unhappiness; work then becomes more a
pleasure and not exacting."

— Sri Bhagavan

eg go

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Our Natural State

A 'Pilgrim*

The author of this article is unknown but the incident
must have taken place some time after 1946 when the answer
to D. S. Sarma's question was first printed. The quotation
was first printed in Vedanta Kesari in January 1947 (Vol.
33, No. 9, P. 327)

I WAS ON MY long cherished pilgrimage to Bhagavan Sri
Ramana. On the train I was chewing the cud of doubt. In
the December and January issues of the Vedanta Kesari, I had
read the answer Maharshi gave to the question put to him by
Prof. D.S. Sarma as to whether there was a sadhana period in
the life of Sri Bhagavan previous to his enlightenment. Sri Dilip
Kumar Roy had put the answer in a poetical garb under the
caption, "My yoga" and Prof. Sarma had given his question
and Maharshi's answer under the title, 'Sahajasthithi'. I reproduce
below the answer of Sri Bhagavan,

"I know no such period of sadhana. I never performed
any pranayama or japa. I know no mantras. I had no rules of
meditation or contemplation. Sadhana implies an object to be
gained and the means of gaining it. What is there to be gained
which we do not already possess? In meditation, concentration
and contemplation what we have to do is only not think of
anything but to be still. Then we shall be in our natural state."

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This indeed was an intriguing situation for me. I had read
in the 'Life and Teachings of Sri Ramand of the severe sadhana
he did in the lonely rooms of the big temple at Tiruvannamalai
and in the caves on the hill. Now here is Bhagavan himself
denying it all! And more than that, how can illumination come
without sadhana?. That was something against the word of the
scriptures. However, I consoled myself with the thought that at
the Ashram, I might have the chance of placing my difficulties
before Sri Maharshi himself.

It was one of those beautiful mornings in Tiruvannamalai.
After my daily ablutions and duties I was ready for the darshan
of Bhagavan. As I approached the Maharshi's room I could feel
the peace that was radiating from his room. I entered the room
and then came my first shock. I expected to see something
glorious, a face surrounded by a halo, etc. I didn't find any of
these. Has he not said, I was reminded, in his answer that Self-
realisation does not mean that something would descend upon
us as something glorious? Has he not said, "People seem to think
that by practising some elaborate sadhana the Self would one
day descend upon them as something very big and with
tremendous glory and they would then have what is called
sakshatkaram. "

None of the biographies state that Bhagavan did any
sadhana after coming to Tiruvannamalai. I might have
interpreted Bhagavan's period of silence and solitude as a period
of sadhana, although it has been clearly stated both by Bhagavan
and the writers who have written about him, that no sadhana
was taking place during this period.

That winning smile that accompanied his greeting me
meant more than Self-realisation. He beckoned to me to sit
down and I sat there for more than two hours not knowing

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the passage of time. I realised then that silence is more eloquent
than words. I dared not break the silence to raise my own petty
doubts.

Later, though, I communicated my wish to place my doubts
before the Maharshi and the consent came by midday.

When we reassembled before Sri Bhagavan at three, I was
given the typescript of the question and answer to read and I
read it aloud. I had framed my question thus:

Question: "You have said here that you know no such
period of sadhana; you never performed japa or chanted any
mantra; you were in your natural state. I have not done any
sadhana worth the name. Can I say that I am in my natural
state? But my natural state is so different from yours. Does that
mean that the natural state of ordinary persons and realised
persons are different?"

Answer: "What you think to be your natural state is your
unnatural state. (And this was my second shock that shook me
from the slumber of my pet notions) . With your intellect and
imagination you have constructed the castles of your pet notions
and desires. But do you know who has built up these castles,
who is the culprit, the real owner? The T who really owns them
and the T of your conception are quite different. Is it necessary
that you put forth some effort to come into the T who owns
these, the T behind all states?"

"Would you have to walk any distance to walk into the T
that is always you? This is what I mean by saying that no sadhana
is required for Self-realisation. All that is required is to refrain
from doing anything, by remaining still and being simply what
one really is. You have only to dehypnotise yourself of your
unnatural state. Then you have asked whether there is any
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realised persons. What have they realised? They can realise only
what is real in them. "What is real in them is real in you also. So
where is the difference?"

"Even then, some may ask", the Maharshi continued,
reminding me so vividly of those Upanishadic rishis, "where is
the conviction that one's Self is sakshatah right, that no sadhana
is required at all for Self-realisation? Well, do you need anybody
to come and convince you that you are seated before me and
talking to me? You know for certain that you are seated here
and talking to me."

"When we read a book, for instance, we read the letters
on the page. But can we say that we are reading only the letters?
Without the page of the book where are the letters. Again we
say that we are seeing the picture projected on a canvas. No
doubt we are seeing the picture, but without the canvas where is
the picture?"

"You can doubt and question everything but how can you
doubt the T that questions everything. That T is your natural
state. Would you have to labour or do sadhana to come into
this natural state?"

eg so

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A Spiritual Torch

Paul Brunton

THE WORLD SELDOM recognises a prophet at his true
worth during his own lifetime, but the Maharshi has been
more fortunate. His repute has begun to ripple out and is destined
to go right around the world.

He has made it possible for us to understand what seems
to exist today only as a mere echo of the words of the great
spiritual teachers of former ages; the blessed nirvana of Buddha,
the kingdom of heaven of Jesus, the liberation of Sri Krishna,
and the supreme good of the early philosophers.

The Maharshi enjoys that divine condition and
demonstrates in his own person this unique attainment. While
metaphysicians argue vainly about the reality of our world,
scientists throw wet blankets around the ardours of religionists
and the average man meekly looks on; this serene Sage knows
the eternal reality, experiences the everlasting bliss and expresses
the highest Truth in his teachings. Withal, he
radiates these things to every sensitive person who comes within
his orbit and to every humble and teachable soul entering his
sanctified presence.

His doctrine is as old as the Hill of Arunachala itself, yet,
being self- found as the result of his own overwhelming spiritual
illumination and not as the result of studying other men's books,
it comes to us as fresh in presentation as the latest words of the
pundits of western science.

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If you can plumb the mind's depths, he teaches, you will
eventually arrive at a point where both the thinking intellect
and personal self seem to disappear, becoming reabsorbed by
the hidden element out of which they were created. That element
is none other than the absolute Being, the partless Reality, the
one Self underlying, the birth and death of mortal men and
material worlds.

The Maharshi's practical course of effort for discovering
this reality is extremely simple, so simple, that our modern
over-active minds may turn away unsatisfied and seek
complicated elaborate yoga disciplines and yet it is extremely
subtle. It is as effective for the devotional type of person as for
the intellectual.

Set up a mental current of self-questioning, teaches the
sage, attempt to ferret out what you really are, and to trace the
living being who thinks and feels within your body. Watch your
thoughts in the process and then endeavour to pin them down
to the stillness out of which they arise. If you persist and apply
yourself to frequent meditation on this topic, you will ultimately
track thought to its origin, Self to its lair and consciousness to
its primal partless state.

The personal sense of T will collapse and disappear, being
replaced by the impersonal sense of That, the absolute spirit
which breathes life into us all, which not only maintains the
existence of your mind and body but also the minds and bodies
of all creatures.

This technique of Self-enquiry is really more simple than
the ancient systems of yoga, and should therefore be easy to
practise. Because of its subtle nature, however, and of our
numerous tendencies towards excessive mental and material
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overcoming that difficulty which I know and of which the
ancient Upanishads often remind us, is to seek out the society
of the Brahman-knowers, the spiritually illumined, and to sit at
their feet, as the same texts poetically put it.

The Maharshi, in his modesty, will hardly ever refer to this
fact, but those of us who have basked in his spiritual sunshine
have found the way to the spirit made easier. For he continually
broadcasts telepathically the divine atmosphere which has now
become his very nature. In effect, he mysteriously communicates
his spiritual calm to our troubled souls.

This investigator of the soul's domain has solved stubborn
questions which have puzzled the thinkers amongst men since
reason first evolved. Western scientific psychology is heading
straight for the explanation which he gives of that apparent
mixture of beast and angel called man. The Maharshi's method
of psychoanalysis is far removed from the queer, muddled
method of Freud, whose materialistic and sexual emphasis caused
him to miss the divine.

The reward which waits for those who practise the
technique advocated by the Maharshi is nothing less than nirvana
itself, at the most, and mental tranquillity at the least. Those
who think that the nirvana of the sage is a kind of never ending
boredom should spend a few months in his society. The
experience will correct their mistake and make good their
ignorance.

When I first travelled around India interviewing her holy
and learned men, I was amused to note how their numerous
theories and explanations contradicted each other. The trouble
was that the dust of so many generations has gathered upon the
sacred texts and scholarly books that the real meaning of these
volumes has been overlaid.

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Scarcely one of those who granted me audience could
speak from personal experience, and most could only quote
the opinions of others. But the Maharshi's teachings flow out of
his own original teachings, realization of Truth, and to that
extent he stands solitary as the peak of Arunachala itself. He
illustrates perfectly those words of the great yogi, Patanjali, 'The
seer abides within himself, for he ever dwells within that sacred
centre wherein God speaks to man'.

Even while I write, a grey squirrel hops into the Ashram
hall, plays purposelessly for a while, and then squats contentedly
under the Maharshi's divan. You are as safe there, brother squirrel,
as on your own sheltering tree, for the sage's attitude towards
you is no different from your Creator's. There is nothing but
love in his heart towards all creatures and even if, perchance
you were to bite him, he would not hit you in return.

Since that day when I first found him, absorbed in the
mysterious trance of samadhi, I have travelled in many lands
but always my thoughts turned towards Tiruvannamalai as the
Muhammedan turns his face during prayer towards Mecca. I
knew that somewhere in the wilderness of this world there was
a sacred place for me. Since that day, it has become a sacred
place for many others who have never left Europe and America.
For at the sage's feet, I picked up a spiritual torch and carried it
to waiting souls in the lands of the west. They welcomed the
light with eagerness. There should be no virtue to be accredited
to me for that, for whatsoever benefit has accrued to Western
seekers comes from the torch which was lit by the Maharshi
himself. I was only the unimportant "link boy", the humble
carrier. And now that I have returned to the ever luring Hill of
the Holy Beacon, I pray the gods of destiny that they may keep
the captive here for many years.

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Bhagavan Treated
for Eczema

T.K.S.

SOMEWHERE ABOUT 1935 a doctor friend of mine visited
the Ashram and stayed with Bhagavan for over six weeks. He
was deeply pious and devoted to Sri Ramanuja Sampradaya. His
devotion to Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi was equally great.
He was a great congress worker. I remember that he was a good
friend of Swamy Ramananda of Hyderabad, for I saw him in his
company when the Swamiji visited Bhagavan at the time of the
Government of India's police action against the Nizam's State.
Later this doctor himself became a minister of the state and was
in charge of the finance portfolio.

The doctor's visit synchronised with the occasion when
Bhagavan had an attack of eczema for which he was being treated
by the local doctors. This doctor being more qualified than
others took the lead in treating Bhagavan. The treatment went
on for about a fortnight. Patches of white ointment were seen
all over Bhagavan's body. After a fortnight, the disease seemed
to get under control. The doctor was happy and congratulated
himself that he had the opportunity to treat Bhagavan with
success.

Lo! His elation was short lived. The disease burst out again
with redoubled vigour. The doctor said to me that it was a lesson

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to him to curb his ego and continued the treatment with great
humility and prayerfulness, praying to Bhagavan that he must
effect the cure himself and that he (the doctor) was but his
instrument.

The divine patient now seemed to make steady progress
and gave consolation to the doctor that his prayer was being
heard. The doctor oscillated between elation and curbing of his
ego according to the disease as it decreased or increased. All
along this course of treatment and from the time the doctor
friend arrived at the Ashram, I had the pleasure of his
acquaintance and of talking to him about Bhagavan. We used
to sit until late in the night and talk and talk about Bhagavan,
so absorbed in our conversation that we had no sense of space
or time.

It was the month of December and Bhagayaris jayanthi
was arriving. I used to talk to my doctor friend about the
speciality of jayanthi darshan, for on the jayanthi day
Bhagavan had a special glow of light about him and his starry
eyes shed a special lustre and those around experienced the
ambrosia or the elixir of life. It is for experiencing this light
or bliss of being that devotees flocked to him from near and
far. Though this experience was obtained on normal days
too, it was very intense on particular occasions like jayanthi,
Mahapooja and Karthikai days, as also it was when great souls
met him.

It is of this special favour to devotees that I was telling my
doctor friend. I used to call it the special grace of Bhagavan on
the. jayanthi occasion.

It was at this time that Bhagavan was putting the eczema
ointment over his body. What could be the nature of this jayanthi
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ask me often, "Mr. Iyer, how will Bhagavan give special darshan
to his devotees with these white paints and patches on him? I am
sorry that I shall not have the fortune of having it. Why should
he have this disease at this time when I am visiting him?"

I used to reply, "Wait and see if he will be Bhagavan your
patient, or the Bhagavan of my description dispensing special
grace on the jayanthi occasion."

The jayanthi day came. There were the usual decorations,
gathering of devotees, pujas, music etc. Bhagavan was seated in
a specially decorated pandal. All the same he was to my doctor
friend still his patient Bhagavan and not the Bhagavan of my
description. I was not sorry that Bhagavan was going to belie
my expectation and that of other devotees who were accustomed
to have the jayanthi gift of Bhagavan. (They used to call it
Bha.gzva.ris jayanthi gift). I was only sorry for my doctor friend.

It was 9 a.m. on the jayanthi morning. All eyes were riveted
on Bhagavan. There were the longing prayers of the souls
gathered around Bhagavan. Suddenly there appeared the special
features of Bhagavan on his face and eyes. The nija mouna bhava,
its fullness expressing itself as Atma Rama - Muditha vadana
and Dakshinamurthi. The Bliss of his Being ebbing over his
countenance beautifying it, true to the words of
Dakshinamuthi's names: Sundara, Sundara, Sundara, I am the
perfection of beauty of the inner Self. I am T. Ahamevaham.

The peace of his Being permeated the atmosphere and all
those that were gathered around, keeping them enthralled in
the grace that was his. The peace that passeth all understanding.
The unborn (Ajayamana) was revealing himself through a form.
Bhagavan was Bhagavan telling us without telling Tat Twam Asi
(That Thou art).

" Tat Twam Asi, Tat Twam Asi" nithyam.

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I whispered to my doctor friend to tell me if Bhagavan
was his patient Bhagavan or Jayanthi Ramana Bhagavan. He
could only nod his head in acceptance of my remarks. He was
all spellbound and in wonder. He remarked later, "Mr.
Sundaresh, I have lived to see this great marvel. Who would say
he is like any of us? Yet he condescends to be one of us and that
is our great fortune. My patient is my darling and God."

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Sri Ramana

Major A. W. Chadwick (Sadhu Arunachala)

The author was a well-known and ardent devotee of
Sri Bhagavan, who stayed at the Ashram for over a quarter
of a century without any thought of return to England. He
used to spend many hours in meditation adhering strictly to
a regular time-table. He was a model of steadfast sadhana
which he kept up after Bhagavan s Mahasamadhi till the
end of his life in 1962.

RAMANA MAHARSHI WAS UNIQUE in that he was an
^ out and out advaitin. There were no half-measures with
him. Now to be an advaitin of this description is extremely
difficult. While for most of us, it is all intellectual gymnastics,
for him it was his life. At the early age of sixteen he had realized
the Self, and had never swerved from it or come down to a
lower function ever after. When he was asked about his
movements in the temple and his period of mounam, if his
state had not become more stabilized as a result of this sadhana
he emphatically stated that, "No change had occurred, nothing
new since then had ever happened. It's the same now as then."
But for himself he saw nothing wonderful in it. It was the
natural state and it was really strange that others should find
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Self", he repeatedly said, "nothing but the Self. How can you
be anything else? There are not and cannot be two selves, one
to know the other. Just be yourself!"

Put like this, of course, it sounds easy but experience teaches
us another tale. Every word is true, but vasanas are so persistent
and desires of such long standing that they get in the way and
prevent the pure vision. Habits are deep within us and refuse to
be rooted out.

Countless are the number of existences lived in the past
with which we have been associated. Just to sit quiet and forget
them even for a moment seems impossible. Rather does it seem
to cause those long forgotten existences to bubble up and fill
the mind with their inanities.

Yet sitting in his presence the thing became so transparent
that one was convinced for the time being, that all troubles
were ended, and one was forced back on oneself in spite of all
obstacles. And this was the wonder of his presence.

It was not in the few words he set on paper or the verbal
instructions he gave to sincere enquirers that his real teaching
lay but in his silent presence. Then questions would drop away
unasked, difficulties of meditation vanished and the mind
became still. It was unbelievable how easy it suddenly became.

Not only the effect of his presence but the shining example
of himself, left indelible marks on those who had the good fortune
to spend some time with him. There was no use in saying it could
not be done. Here was one who had done it. One might tell oneself
that the state could be nothing but one of blankness and convince
oneself that it was not to be desired but here was he, exhaling bliss
which overflowed out of its superabundance to even the meanest
of us sitting there with him. It was marvellous! Was there ever
another like him? What silent power! And what a fountain of hope!

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Sri Bhagavan and the
Mother's temple

Major A.W. Chadwick (Sadhu Arunachala)

BHAGAVAN WAS DEEPLY interested in the construction
of the shrine built over his mother's samadhi. He attended
every function in connection with it, placing his hands in
blessing on the various objects that were to be enclosed in the
walls. At night, when no one was about, he would walk round
and round the construction consecrating it. That he should take
such a demonstrative part in anything has a very deep
significance. It was extremely rare and has been doubted by
many, but I myself was an eye-witness to these things and can
vouch for their truth.

He took a personal interest in the cutting of the Sri Chakra
Meru in granite (pyramidal form), which was installed in the
completed temple and is regularly worshipped. This is about
one and a half feet square and proportionately high. At the
time of the kumbabhishekam on the penultimate night before
the sacred water was poured over the images, he personally
supervised the installation in the inner shrine. It was an extremely
hot night and with three charcoal retorts for melting the cement
adding to the heat. It must have been intolerable inside the
airless cave of the inner shrine. Yet for approximately one and a
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On the last night of the function he went in procession,
opening the doors of the new hall and temple and passing
straight up into the inner shrine, where he stood for some five
minutes with both hands laid on the Sri Chakra in blessing. I
happened that night to be at his side the whole time. This was
unusual, as I deliberately avoided taking a prominent part in
such things, preferring to watch from the back.

Strangely, something made me keep by him on this
occasion and on account of this I was able to understand his
deep interest in the temple and especially in the Sri Chakra. It
was because of this knowledge that I was instrumental, after
Bhagavan's passing, in persuading the Ashram authorities to
institute the Sri Chakra pujas six times a month.

The explanation for this unusual action on Bhagavan's part
may be found in the necessity of Siva always to be accompanied
by Shakti. The world would stop otherwise. On the only occasion
when such zpuja was performed, shortly after the dedication of
the temple during the life of Bhagavan, he refused to go for his
evening meal, but insisted on remaining a witness of it until
the end. Someone remarked how magnificent it had been and
that it would be a good thing if such pujas could be performed
regularly, "Yes, but who will take the trouble?" asked Bhagavan.
Trouble is being taken now and it undoubtedly has the blessings
of Bhagavan.

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The Immutable
Atmosphere

N. O. Mehta

DILIP KUMAR ROY and myself reached Tiruvannamalai
at about 7 p.m., 17th February 1949 after a tiresome and
dusty journey. Our discerning hostess, a Parsi lady, was rightly
more concerned about our having the darshan of Bhagavan, as
the Maharshi is universally called there, and consequently we
promptly went to the prayer hall.

To our pleasant surprise we found Tiruvannamalai a
substantial town with good roads, and electric lighting. The
Ashram is one and a half miles beyond the town, just at the foot
of the beautiful Arunachala Hill, so sacred and so powerfully
evoked in some of the wonderful verses written by the Maharshi
years ago. The prayer hall is a nice, clean, fair sized building
which could perhaps accommodate 100 to 150 people without
difficulty. We went into the hall, but either by habit or by some
sort of inhibition or training, we did not prostrate ourselves in
the traditional fashion. We only made a deep bow and took our
seats. The critical eye noticed the scrupulous cleanliness of the
hall, the intensely devout mien of the people and the utter
simplicity and grandeur of the entire atmosphere.

Bhagavan himself, lean, of medium height, wheat
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folding wooden barrier to keep the fervent worshippers from
touching his body. It is on this sofa that the Maharshi spends his
time either sitting or reclining whether by day or by night. Close
to the couch is an incense burner, which is going on all the time.
There is one more burner with incense sticks at the foot of the
couch. The purifying fumes are always rising in the air. Sometimes
the Maharshi himself is stocking the burner and putting in more
and more incense in the bowl. Just on the side of the couch is a
high stool with a time piece, a table lamp and a few bottles of
medicine. In front of the sofa is a small book case with a few
books in English and in Tamil, principally of the Maharshi's own
writing. I counted five wall calendars hung at the odd corners
including one containing a portrait of Jawaharlal Nehru.

People were squatting cross legged, some with eyes shut,
some eagerly looking at Bhagavan, but all absolutely silent.
People were coming in and going out after doing the prostration.
All this homage left the Maharshi untouched, or was it only
my illusion, for those wonderful eyes seemed to take in
everything even though they had a faraway, distant look.

Prayers from the Upanisbads were being recited by three young
disciples. I felt the magnificent rhythm of the Sanskrit language
more powerfully than I have ever felt it before. I immediately
realized how the great mantras and the verses of the Vedas and the
Upanisbads must have sounded in a bygone age at the morning
and evening prayers in forest hermitages. The recitation was
wonderful, the intonation accomplished and egoless. One was
immediately hushed to devout silence. The prayers were wound up
with the invocation to Bhagavan Ramana himself.

How is one to describe the atmosphere? 1 have referred to
the trifles because though they attracted my attention on the
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morning. All that I felt was, that I was face to face with a Reality
which transcended all that I had dreamt of him. Here was a
great sage whose darshan was undoubtedly a privilege. I
instinctively felt that here was India at its highest, for here was
the deepest realization of the Reality transcending all mundane
factors and bringing peace which passes all understanding. Let
me, however, get along with trifles, for even they may have
some usefulness.

At 7.30 p.m. was the evening meal and some thirty to
forty people sat down to a simple meal, irrespective of race or
rank, with the Maharshi occupying a corner. Rice and curry are
served, some pulses and sometimes little vegetable delicacies on
a plantain leaf. The Maharshi is the most careful diner of all,
for he leaves no particle of surplus food on his platter. Food is
served to all servants and masters by the very people who render
service to the Maharshi, the same who look after the Ashram
and who chant those wonderful verses from the Vedas and the
Upanishads at the morning and evening prayers. Here was truly
the hermitage of a saint where nothing mattered but an unceasing
effort to know and feel the eternal Brahman.

The Maharshi finishes his meal quietly and slowly, but the
diners leave the hall as they please, and so far as the Maharshi's
presence for the day is concerned, it is all over with the
completion of the evening meal. There is a radio set in a corner
of the prayer hall. The Maharshi is interested in everything
including the feeding of monkeys, peacocks and squirrels.

After the meal we left the Ashram to go to our
accommodation across the road. There are some charming little
cottages, which have been built by the people who have been
regularly coming to have the darshan of Bhagavan and with
some luck one can have one of these cottages. However, the

creature comforts to which we were used no longer mattered.
We were in a world totally different from the one we had left
behind. The values were also different and all that was important
now was to get up in time for the morning prayers at 4 a.m.

It is difficult to reproduce the atmosphere of the morning
prayers. The lights are still on. The Maharshi is holding his hands
over the incense burner, the disciples chant the Vedic prayer in a
firm and resonant voice. The stately rhythm of these prayers
creates an amazing atmosphere of peace and sanctity. For more
than forty minutes the recital continues in an unbroken melody
and at the conclusion, a few verses are recited in adoration of
Bhagavan himself.

The prayers over, there is an hour to get ready for the
morning coffee. The low lying Arunachala Hill looks singularly
beautiful in the light of the dawn and one is aware of that
harmony between man and nature which is so essential to
balanced life. As one strolls out of the Ashram one is aware that
Tiruvannamalai is a town of sacred memories, of temples small
and big, and of graveyards dedicated to the memories of the
departed. There are shrines, some modest and some more
pretentious, built all around the Hill, but the greatest monument
of them all is the superb temple of Arunachalam.

It was interesting to learn that the custom of burial was and
still is not uncommon among certain classes of people in the south.
Unfortunately however, the memorial stones are scattered on the
periphery of the town and are in a state of complete neglect, as is
also the case with some beautiful mandapams and temples of all
sizes. It could not have been the decline of the devout spirit so
much as the weakening and disintegration of economic life which,
once so prosperous as to have built the great edifices, is now no
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because perhaps they have not been able to keep pace with the
march of time. In the whole of Tiruvannamalai the living centre is
the modest Ashram of Bhagavan, for here the spiritual lamp stays
burning, capable of igniting the fires in the hearts of those who are
still wanting or are prepared to receive the illumination.

It was fortunate that the next day of our halt at the Ashram
was the sacred day ofMaba Shivaratri. Very early in the morning
crowds of people were on the march around the sacred Hill of
Arunachalam and in the Ashram itself worship was continuous
for all the twenty four hours. The great temple of Arunachalam
was illuminated but the resources of the people were far too
attenuated to permit adequate lighting. One day when the
people of India are again strong and economically prosperous
these temples will perhaps, be revived into centres of inspiration
and light, and their vast mandapams might be restored to their
proper use and status.

We attended the evening prayers on the eve of our departure.
There could be no farewell, for Bhagavahs presence would never
be forgotten. We bade mental farewell to the Ashram for we
were going to leave for Pondicherry early next morning. As we
were about to leave, a friend said that we could not possibly leave
the Ashram without taking the permission of Bhagavan and saying
goodbye to him. We therefore repaired to the Ashram to intimate
our departure to Bhagavan just as he was going out of the dining
hall. We felt like young children going to their elders for a blessing.
Our reward, however, was immense, for Bhagavan vouchsafed to
us a penetrating glance of immeasurable beatitude which, even
now, is one of the most abiding memories of a sacred pilgrimage.
It is astonishing how Bhagavan's presence and his usual, apparently
humdrum activities cast such a magic spell over all those who
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Bhagavan Ramana

Maharshi as seen by a

Bengali Devotee

Jagannath Chattopadhyaya

TO A BENGALI who has been accustomed to hear the
Lord's name chanted with fervour and devotion,
accompanied by dancing and sankirtan, as introduced into
Bengal by Lord Gouranga more than four hundred years ago,
Bhagavan's method of enquiry in absolute stillness of the mind,
presents a sharp contrast. In the life of Bhagavan I am confronted
with a towering personality, the like of which I have never seen
or heard of or come across in books.

He never ran down any religion or the traditions sponsored
by a religion. For instance, the Hindu caste system has become
the target of criticism by preachers and reformers but Bhagavan
would never attack it outright. When asked whether we should
ignore caste rules he said, "Not in the beginning. Observe them
to start with. They serve as a check on the vagaries of the mind
and it is thus purified. On the same subject he says, "Differences
always exist, not only in human beings but also in plants, animals,
etc. This state of affairs cannot be helped. You need not notice
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runs through the diversity. The Self is the same in all. There is
no difference in spirit. The differences are external and
superficial. Find the unity and you will be happy. "1

I myself am a disciple of Sri Sitaramdas Omkarnath
Maharaj, the strict follower of sanatana dharma, the eternal
dharma based on the Vedas and Upanishads, to which foreigners
have given the name 'Hinduism'. He is also an upholder of our
varnashrama dharma or caste dharma. I therefore very much
appreciate the Maharshi's respect for every religion. Once, for
instance, he told a Muslim devotee to try to understand and
follow what the word 'Islam' means — 'the total surrender of
the ego'.

Bhagavan's courageous message, reminding us of our
heritage of the rishis of old, gives us faith and courage despite
the gloom of present day materialism, to seek liberation from
bondage to the non-self, the fake ego, which causes the sorrows
and frustrations of life.

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Remembering Ramana

N. N. Rajan

I

Miracles and Bhagavan

IT IS COMMON to see people flock to those who exhibit
occult powers and perform miracles like curing ailments,
floating on water, sitting buried under earth etc. but Self-
realisation and miracle mongering are poles apart. The jnani
does not care for miracles. To the jnani the control of the senses
leading to realisation of the Self is the only aim. This is really
the greatest miracle, and to achieve it is the jnani's goal.

The great jnani that he was, Bhagavan Sri Ramana always
revelled in the natural state of supreme bliss. He did not wish to
perform miracles. In fact, he warned people against it. This
does not mean that he had no powers. He had them in
abundance, as witnessed by many, only Bhagavan never liked
to exhibit them.

He behaved as any ordinary man would. Regarding the
manifestation of powers seen by devotees, it might be due to
his infinite compassion that the miracles happened and he might
not have been particularly intent on them.

One evening, while I was sitting outside Sri Bhagavan's
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his face as he leaned forward from his reclining position. It
looked as though he was calling me to say something. I was
impelled to respond to the gesture by getting up and going
near him but he did not tell me anything. I resumed my seat
only to find, in a couple of minutes, another jerk and a similar
expressive movement in him as before. This time also I was
stirred and when I went nearer there was no further indication.
I took my seat again but now became restless. I could not resist
the urge to leave the place at once with the expectation of some
urgent matter demanding my presence. I prostrated to Sri
Bhagavan and I left the hall without a word.

A major train accident had happened at my headquarters
station about nine miles off. I had been forewarned by Bhagavan
in a strange manner as recorded above and due to his grace, I was
free from the blame of not being on the spot in the emergency.
Obviously Bhagavan's warning was quite in advance of the actual
happening. The way he did it is most noteworthy. There was no
public demonstration or publicity. An act of grace to a devotee, in
his own unique way and with no means of others knowing that a
miracle was actually performed. This is typical of our Bhagavan.

II

His Divine Excellence

"SRI RAMANA MAHARSHI has kept India's spiritual glory
alive in our generation. He has in his own way made the name
of India respected by wise and enlightened men spread all over
the world "

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Thus spoke Sri C. Rajagopalachari when declaring open
the Pathala Lingam Shrine, once the abode of Sri Ramana
Maharshi.

Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi encapsulated the whole
of the Vedas and Upanishads into a simple formula — his famous
'Who am I?' enquiry. He was too humble to claim any originality
for this. Such enquiry goes beyond the realm of seemingly
impenetrable mysteries. But by the grace of Sri Ramana his
followers unmistakably reach the goal.

During the period of his illness Sri Maharshi appeared
visibly unaffected in spite of the ailment which gave him
excruciating pain. The doctors and other devotees were baffled
by the utmost unconcern demonstrated by Sri Maharshi for
the cruel ailment. The total detachment with which he looked
on his suffering body was unique. By this he demonstrated
practically for our benefit that only the body suffers and the
Atman (Self) has no share in it.

His radiant face did not show even the least trace of pain.
In fact his eyes sparkled with more divine brilliance than usual.
Despite the pain he was rigidly attending to his daily routine,
like going to the bathroom, attending to important letters, etc.,
without deviating from his characteristic punctuality. "Let the
disease run its course and let the body suffer, but I am ever
immersed in unbroken Bliss" — such was his attitude.

"A man established in the Self is liberated while in the
body, the fate of the body does not matter": this is the Vedic
truth. Sri Ramana had entirely forgotten all consciousness about
his occupancy in the human frame and automatically the
authorship had no existence at all. He was full of bliss indicating
exuberance. The following episode, which occurred during the
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An old teacher of Sri Bhagavan came to see him. He was
87 and very feeble. Nevertheless an overmastering desire to see
the God-man whom he had once taught in second form, urged
him on to Tiruvannamalai. In Bhagavan's presence, he recalled
an incident from that time with great emotion. Once he had
asked young Venkataraman to stand up on the bench for a
minor misdemeanour. But Venkataraman gazed at him for a
while with such steadiness and power that his (teacher's) will
withered rapidly and he reversed his decision.

It was a touching sight to see the old teacher meet his Seer-
pupil. Then the teacher asked Sri Bhagavan whether he
recognised him. Sri Bhagavan smiled broadly and graciously
and answered: "Why not?" The teacher was visibly moved at
this and he again asked Bhagavan about his health. Sri Bhagavan
replied that he was feeling all right. Throughout this very moving
but short interview Maharshi displayed such graciousness and
cordiality that neither the old teacher nor those who were close
by felt that there was anything wrong with the Maharshi.

These things make us feel that Bhagavan Sri Ramana
Maharshi is a perfect divine incarnation, whose divine excellence
was lying dormant till he left his home.

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The Fortunate Boy

"SEIN"

BHAGAVAN SRI RAMANA MAHARSHI is well known
to all as a great Saint. But only a few know of his
philanthropy and humanitarianism. Still fewer are those who
experienced his paternal and maternal affection.

Of all these one boy alone had the most enviable
opportunity of sleeping with Bhagavan and enjoying such
paternal treatment. One and only one had that golden privilege.

This was in 1920. Bhagavan had come to Skandasramam
from the Virupaksha cave and a small batch of devotees had
gathered round him. The greatness of the Saint echoed all over
the world. Devotees from all parts of India were coming for his
darshan. While males enjoyed the privilege of staying in the
Asramam up the hill with Bhagavan the whole day ladies were
not allowed to remain there after sun-set.

Maharshi had a younger brother and sister, his elder brother
having passed away prematurely. This younger brother Sri
Nagasundaram Iyer who was working as a clerk in Tiruvengadu
temple had a small son. Fortunately for Sri Ramanasramam to
be and unfortunately for his family he took sannyasa when his
wife died leaving a two year old boy uncared for. When both
the parents left this child an orphan, Maharshi's sister, popularly
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him up with unstinted love, affection and care. It was not only
because she had no issue of her own but also because this boy
was the only descendant of their whole family.

This lad was taken twice or thrice a year to Tiruvannamalai
to see Bhagavan and his father (of the poorvasramd) , henceforth
known as Sri Niranjanananda Swami, by Athai and her husband,
who were living in the far South. They were provided with a
house near the hill at Tiruvannamalai. Every morning Athai
would go up the hill and return to town in the evening, leaving
the boy behind at Skandasramam.

When at first Athai hesitated to do this fearing to cause
any kind of inconvenience to the much loved boy, Bhagavan
said that he would be well under his protection.

In the night the boy would eat from the sacred hands of
Bhagavan and Bhagavan would make him lie down beside him,
cover him with a blanket and lull him to sleep. He bestowed on
him all care that any sincere mother is capable of. Early in the
morning he would take the boy to the spring, clean his teeth
with powder, and wash his face. Athai would rush up in the
morning. Bhagavan with the lad seated on a culvert would tell
the child, "There comes your Athai. See in what hurry she runs
up to see you." As soon as she came up, Bhagavan would tell
her, "Take your boy, see, he is safe and sound."

This abundant affection for the boy did not in any way
prevent Maharshi from being strict with him. The following
incident makes it clear that Bhagavan gave the boy a practical
lesson which till now he has not forgotten.

At Skandasramam lived a monkey named Nondi, which
was the pet of all. Maharshi had ordered that whatever food was
served to his followers should also be served to the monkey, and
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separate for its return. In such a case, the food would be kept
near a window inside the cave and the shutter closed but not
bolted. This was the custom.

On one of his periodical visits to the Asramam one day,
the boy had enjoyed the sweet dishes served to the devotees. He
had a little more than the usual share. The monkey being absent,
its share was kept near the closed window. The boy, having had
his share, went up to the window and began to eat out of the
monkey's as well. Suddenly, the monkey came and opened the
window only to see the boy eating its share. It gave the boy a
blow on his cheek. Shocked and terrified, the boy cried out and
devotees tried to console him. Bhagavan came to the spot,
understood the situation and told the boy: "You deserve it. Why
did you want his (monkey's) share. You have had enough already.
You ought to have been contented with that." Instead of
appeasing the beloved child, Bhagavan put him right. The boy
became silent and heeded Bhagavan's words.

"Do not touch the property of others. Be content with
what you have. Share equally what you have. Divide it with one
and all around you. Help the needy. Be not blind when a wrong
is committed before you. Correct it if possible, or at least speak
out for the right." These are some of the golden truths the young
boy was able to grasp from the words of the Maharshi that day.

That blessed boy is Swami Ramanananda (Sri T.N.
Venkataraman, former president of Sri Ramanasramam, the
only descendant of Maharshi's family) .

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Lest We Forget ...

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Dr. V. Srinivasa Rao

AMONG THE FOREMOST DEVOTEES, Dr. V. Srinivasa
. Rao found in Sri Bhagavan the greatest solace and support
in his life. He was born in the former native state of Pudukottai
and is happily still with us at the age of eighty-seven(inl972). He
was intimately associated with the growth of the Ashram for many
decades. Childlike by nature and outspoken, his sincerity and
frankness gained him easy access and familiarity with Sri Bhagavan
who treated him like a pet child.

Born poor and orphaned when hardly four years old, he
grew up to be self-reliant. He took his degree in medicine and
surgery, and prompted by the good wishes of the doyen of his
days, Dr. Singaravelu Mudaliar, he entered Government service.
He was medical officer in several district headquarters hospitals
and retired in 1 940 as the superintendent of the Royapettah
Hospital, Madras. After this he spent a good deal of his time in
the Ashram in a life of devotion and service to Sri Bhagavan.

To begin with, Dr. Srinivasa Rao had no interest in a spiritual
life and seemed more an agnostic, if not a downright atheist.
Through the friendship of spiritually highly evolved people like
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Bhagavan. Before taking leave of Sri Bhagavan he asked him,
"Will I come again for your darshanT Sri Bhagavan with a tender
and compassionate look patted him on the shoulder saying,
"What will happen is sure to happen." That was all! He felt
somehow thrilled in the core of his being by his touch and the
gracious reply which strengthened his faith and surrender. Since
then remembrance of Sri Bhagavan was constant.

Sri Bhagavan directed his attention specifically to Upadesa
Saram among his works and emphasised ekachintana (fixing the
mind on one thought — of the One) as essential for the mind to
get free of thoughts; and that constant remembrance of God is
better than a recital of hymns or silent invocation. On one
occasion he told Sri Bhagavan, "It is said that one should
contemplate on God Vishnu from head to foot. Is that the correct
thing to do?" Sri Bhagavan reminded him, "It is all One from
head to foot." Yet again he discussed the efficacy of Rama Jap a
and the like and asked Sri Bhagavan, "Why not do Ramanajapa
instead of Rama Japa?" to which Sri Bhagavan gave his assent.

After 1940 Srinivasa Rao had the unique opportunity of
staying in the proximity of Sri Bhagavan rendering some
personal service or other. He treasures the privilege he had of
massaging Sri Bhagavan's limbs and of ministering to him during
his bodily ailments as a doctor. His simple but total love and
attachment to Sri Bhagavan's person generated many happy
incidents. Once Sri Bhagavan's knee caps and legs did not
function owing to stiffness and Srinivasa Rao with folded hands
implored him to permit his massaging for a few days only. Sri
Bhagavan would not agree saying, "If allowed to do so you will
continue endlessly." But he beseeched him like a child and Sri
Bhagavan yielded but said it would be strictly for ten days. Sri
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Srinivasa Rao was actually massaging his legs SriT. P. R.'s father
who arrived just then, entered the old hall and perceiving the
doctor massaging the legs of Sri Bhagavan repeated a Sanskrit
sloka and exclaimed, "Oh, Raoji, do not give up what you are
doing. You need no other sadhana for your salvation." Sri
Bhagavan burst out laughing and said: "Well, well; I have been
counting these days and waiting for this last day and you have
come to recommend continuance!" Leaving his massaging, the
doctor stepped before Sri Bhagavan and went on doing obeisance
imploring Him to listen to the elderly gentleman if not to him.
Sri Bhagavan yielded for another ten days!

During the two years preceding Sri Bhagavan's Maha
Nirvana the doctor gave whole-time attention and assistance to
Sri Bhagavan's health and comfort in collaboration with the
team of medical men who devoutly rendered service during the
last illness.

He happily spent his days remembering Sri Bhagavan and
his memorable days with him, and deriving all the solace needed
from his writings and utterances, which he revered.

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G. Lakshmi Narasimham

SRI G. LAKSHMI NARASIMHAM (known as ' Narasinga
Rao' at the Ashram), after taking his B.L. degree stayed at Sri
Ramanasramam for three years from 1930 to 1933, along with
his mother and sister Lakshmi, serving Sri Bhagavan. It was
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Lakshmi Narasimham's marriage also took place at
Tiruvannamalai and when the new couple came to do
namaskaram (prostration), Sri Bhagavan remarked: "Now, your
name (Lakshmi + Narasimham) has become meaningful!"

Sri Niranjanananda Swami (also known as Chinnaswami,
Sri Bhagavan's brother) was the Manager of the Ashram then
and his office was near Bhagavan's Hall. Like others Narasinga
Rao also was meditating in Bhagavan's Hall. Chinnaswami asked
him to assist him in the Ashram correspondence. Getting
Bhagavan's approval for it, Narasinga Rao began going straight
to Chinnaswami after bowing to Bhagavan. Later on this earned
the humorous remark of Bhagavan: "Oh! He belongs to
Chinnaswami, not to the Hall group!"

Chinnaswami was a strict and conscientious taskmaster.
He spared no pains in keeping an exact account of money
received and spent. He looked upon Bhagavan not as his brother
but as God Himself, and so considered it his first duty to serve
Bhagavan's devotees, accommodating them and attending to
their wants. The temple, the big dining hall and well furnished
accommodations are the results of his labour of love. Actually
seeing Chinnaswami's one pointed spirit of service, G.L.N.
dedicated himself to serve him to the best of his ability,
surrendering himself thus to Bhagavan. Saraswati Ammal and
Lakshmi used to do their bit of service in the kitchen. From
their experience too they were led to conclude that whatever
Chinnaswami did had always the distinct approval of Bhagavan.

Gradually all the members of Narasinga Rao's family
became attached to Sri Bhagavan and the Ashram, by bonds of
devotion and reverence. They all regarded Chinnaswami as a
true instrument of Bhagavan. His eldest brother, the late
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away in 1962, he diligently served the Ashram in the legal and
other spheres. Sister Lakshmi and brother-in-law, B. S.
Ranganadham, are great devotees of Bhagavan. His third elder
brother, the late Satyanarayana Rao, a teacher at the Mahant's
High School, Vellore, from about 1925, was the first to be drawn
to Bhagavan and it was his influence which brought other
members of the family to Bhagavan. He was deeply devoted to
Bhagavan and was blessed with the proximity and touch of grace
of Bhagavan during his last illness within the Ashram premises.
His fourth brother, the late Subba Rao, a teacher at Nellore,
used to assist with his Scout troup during Bhagavan's Jayanti
celebrations. These celebrations and the taking out of Bhagavan's
picture in procession, started by him, continue up to this day at
Nellore.

When G. L. N. came to the Ashram, he did not know
even a letter of the Tamil alphabet. Impelled by Bhagavan's grace
he picked up enough knowledge of Tamil to read and understand
Sri Bhagavan's works in the original. Thus it was nothing but
Bhagavan's grace that enabled him- to translate into Telugu
Bhagavan's Five Hymns to Arunachala and Forty Verses on Reality.

Chinnaswami intuitively hit upon some devotees to help
him and trusted them completely. For instance, when he went
to Rangoon in 1936 to personally select and purchase special
teak wood for the construction of Sri Matrubhuteswara Temple,
he put Narasinga Rao in charge of the Ashram during his absence
of over a month. During the life-time of Bhagavan and
Chinnaswami and even after, right up to the end, Narasinga
Rao had been a devoted servant of the Ashram.

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How 1 Came to
Bhagavan

Roda Maclver

I HEARD ABOUT Sri Bhagavan for the first time in 1939
from a friend who showed me his photograph. I was very
much struck by his eyes and wished to go and see him. My
desire to go to Tiruvannamalai to Sri Bhagavan's abode could
not be fulfilled until 1942. A friend, who had just finished
building a house in Tiruvannamalai invited me to stay with her.
I eagerly accepted the invitation. When I arrived I was indisposed
for a few days and could not go to the Ashram. I heard that Sri
Bhagavan was in the habit of going for a walk on the hill of
Arunachala every day at regular hours, so I went there and waited
on the path. On the crest of the hilly path a head emerged like
the rising sun and then I saw the whole majestic tall figure,
Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi! Slowly he came towards me,
his attendant a few steps behind. He stopped for a few moments
before me, smiling and looking at me graciously. My heart was
beating fast and I could not utter a word. I cannot describe
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During the next two years I was visiting the Ashram
constantly. Then in 1944 one day I went into the hall. Sri
Bhagavan was reading some papers. I sat down and looked at
him. Suddenly he put away the papers and turned his luminous
eyes on me. I could not stand his gaze so I closed my eyes, tears
streaming down my face.When I opened my eyes he was still
looking at me. My heart was flooded with joy and an inner
calmness! Later I went to see a friend of mine, Sri Munagala
Venkataramiah, 1 and told him in detail about this occurrence
in the hall. He said that I was very fortunate to have received
initiation from Sri Bhagavan. There was no doubt about it!

Next morning when I was in the hall somebody asked Sri
Bhagavan what was the use of sitting before him. Does he give
initiation? Sri Bhagavan replied that initiation can be given in
three ways: by silence, by look and by touch. When saying "by
look", he looked at me. Then I remembered what I was told the
day before about my experience and had no doubt that I had
received initiation from Sri Bhagavan, my most revered Master!

After a month's stay I returned to Bombay, and there was a
complete change in my life. Worldly pleasures ceased to attract
me and I wanted to be alone as much as possible. I decided to
leave Bombay and settle down in Tiruvannamalai but did not
know where to stay. It was difficult in those days to get
accommodation but I knew Sri Bhagavan was guiding me and so
I did not worry much. He would arrange everything. And it so
happened that two days before leaving Bombay I met my husband
to be. He told me to go and stay in his house in Tiruvannamalai
and so I left happily. Soon after, with Sri Bhagavan's blessings, we
got married and this house became my permanent home.

Later known as Swami Ramanananda Saraswati, compiler of Talks with
Sri Ramana Maharshi and author of other books.

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By Bhagavan's grace I am now permanently settled here
and do not intend to leave. He still helps and guides me as
before and often hears my prayers. His Presence now is even
more powerful than when he was in the physical body.

My love for Sri Bhagavan sustains me and is of the greatest
importance in my life!

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M. S. Nagarajan

SRI M.S. NAGARAJAN, a staunch devotee of Bhagavan,
comes from Mambattu, a village in the Polur Taluk of the
North Arcot District of the state of Tamil Nadu. Even as a
young boy he used to accompany his parents when they came
to Tiruvannamalai for the yearly Deepam festival, at which
time and on similar occasions, his father, who was a devotee
of Bhagavan, used to take him to the Ashram. Thus he came
to know Bhagavan in his childhood. When he was ten years
old, his friend, who was a nephew of Echammal, spoke to
him about the greatness of Bhagavan. He and this friend used
to practise dhyana and yogic asanas (sitting postures) every
day in the early morning. In the evening they meditated on
Bhagavan. Sri Nagarajan used to have frequent visions of
Bhagavan and Lord Murugan in his dreams. At about this
time Ranga Rao, an old devotee of Bhagavan, now no more,
had set up an ashram at Polur named Indra Ashram, to which
other devotees of Bhagavan used to go and talk about Bhagavan
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15 years old Ranga Rao brought him to Sri Ramanansramam.
Here he was allotted the work of doing puja, and helping in
the bookstall etc. But what he valued most was the privilege of
cutting up vegetables and grinding the pulses and coconut
gratings for chutney in the kitchen with Bhagavan. But most
of the time he was in the hall attending to some minor work
or other. He had thus the opportunity of listening to the replies
which Bhagavan gave to the questions put to him by visitors
and devotees. As a result of this he became a firm believer in
the path of Self-enquiry taught by Bhagavan.

At the end of six months Sri Nagarajan went home but
soon returned and stayed on for four years. Jobs were offered
to him but he was not interested in them since the acceptance
of a job would mean parting from Bhagavan. But one day a
letter came from his mother informing him that a job had been
found for him. This letter came to the hands of Bhagavan along
with the Ashram post. After reading it Bhagavan said,"Look
here, a job has been found for you. Go and accept it
immediately. "Tears came into the eyes of Sri Nagarajan at the
thought of parting from Bhagavan. But Bhagavan said again,
"You can go on Wednesday and join duty on Thursday."
Unwillingly he left the Ashram. Thereafter he came to the
Ashram as often as he could get leave.

While Sri Nagarajan was employed at Sattur from 1955
to 1958 he organised a Ramana Mandali where Bhagavan's songs
like The Marital Garland of Letters were sung and devotees
meditated every day. Talks were given periodically at this Mandali
— Bhagavan's Jayanti and Aradhana were also celebrated in a
fitting manner. Sri Nagarajan also established a school named
Sri Ramana Vidya Mandiram Elementary School at Sattur in
memory of Bhagavan.

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After holding several important posts in the firm of
Burmah Shell, Sri Nagarajan has now retired. Since then he has
lived for some time in Tambaram and later joined the Ashram
to render his service.

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A Seeker

THIS IS OFFERED as homage to Sri Ramana and as testimony
to the truth that all paths lead to the same Peak and that without
Grace there is nothing, neither "light" nor "darkness", neither
"regress" nor "progress"; Grace is All.

Born into a non-religious Jewish family, I was raised in a
small Protestant town in the southern United States. At twenty
I found myself in a university in the Northeast and extremely
unhappy. Till then God had meant nothing to me; but abruptly
things changed. Some Higher Intelligence began hammering
me over the head with the fact of Its existence and by moving
me through coincidences in which the whole universe seemed
to converge in direct answers to my innermost questions of the
moment.

That summer I read an autobiography of a yogi. It
electrified me, literally: after reading it I lay relaxed before
sleep, wondering if yoga were to be part of my path. An
oscillating sound came to me and raised my mind inwardly;
suddenly there sounded an incredibly beautiful herald of
trumpets followed by a flash of brilliant light which illuminated
my whole being.

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Needless to say, I took this as a "yes" to my question, and
that fall I took initiation from a disciple of an enlightened Indian
yogi. By the next summer I felt ready to go to India. I wasn't
able to leave till autumn.

This Master, called Baba, lived up to all my expectations,
and more. He showered his grace upon me; my prayers for
greater devotion were being answered. But then something
happened which I cannot detail. Here through his words, actions,
and arrangement of my "external" circumstances, he indicated
unmistakably that I was to leave his mission, perhaps never to
see him again physically. So I left.

Before departing from India a friend and I visited other
ashrams. The message I got was: all paths are one; and the Guru
is within, so seek within. I went halfway across the world to
find someone to save me, but those capable merely referred me
to a mirror.

Thus I returned to the States, feeling exalted by a wondrous
journey — it was a perfect circle of experience — but also
somewhat confused as to how to proceed. I was reading
Krishnamurti and trying to Be, but I didn't feel comfortable or
secure in a practice which said, "Make no effort." I was praying
to Jesus. Shortly after my return, I had met a devotee of Jesus
who asked if I had accepted Him in my heart. I quickly answered,
"Yes"; but upon reflection I realized that was untrue. So I was
praying very fervently to Jesus, that He enter my heart.

At the same time I was praying to my first Guru ("my"
Guru's first form). I had come to feel that I could be satisfied
with nothing less than absolute and eternal Realization. It felt
almost blasphemous to ask so much, but what else could I ask?

So all this was going on, and at the height of it Baba came
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others. He asked if I had been practising a certain mantra.
Anxious to please him, I blurted "Yes". He said sternly, "No,
you haven't," and looked away. I began to weep, my head against
his knee. Then something made me look up at him. Smiling,
he said simply, "Yours is the path of the Heart."

Upon awakening I thought he might have been referring
to the occasional feelings in the centre of my chest that were
accompanying my practice of trying to BE with all things. Or
maybe he meant something in reference to my prayer to Jesus.
I didn't know, and nothing was made clear.

By late spring I was feeling pretty miserable. No changes,
no breakthroughs. Some friends and I had attempted to establish
a community; egoism aborted it. I was often on the verge of
tears. One weekend I visited some friends on a farm, people I
had met in India. But rather than feeling any satsang, I felt a
loneliness, even paranoia, that I thought I'd left behind long
ago. After two days of this misery, I picked up a little pamphlet,
"Who am I?", with a picture of the slender young Ramana. By
reading it I was able at least to regain my equilibrium.

The next night, at a friend's apartment in Montreal,
Quebec, I came across The Teachings of Bhagavan by Arthur
Osborne. By now quite interested, I read parts of it and then
tried the sadhana the Maharshi recommended. After fifteen or
twenty minutes of asking mentally, "Who am I?", and
concentrating on the right side of my chest, suddenly, from the
depths of my Heart something opened up in me, a piercing
sensation followed by a wave of bliss. The bliss passed, and the
piercing sensation diminished over the next few days — but
the feeling of the Heart remained.

Since then It has never left me — though sometimes I
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consciousness. Shortly after Its advent I came to see that this is
the path of the Heart, and that I shall have to find no other
forms for my Guru. And then it dawned on me that my prayer
to Jesus had been answered. For as it is true that no one other
than Sri Ramana vibrates at the Core of my Being, so also it is
no one other than Jesus, and no one other than Baba.

"Ask, and ye shall receive; seek, and ye shall find." "Earnest
efforts never fail." What else is there to say? Full realization has
not dawned, but whether moments or lifetimes intervene, it
cannot fail to come. Patience and perseverance are necessary, as
Bhagavan has said. It may take long years of practice to reach
the Goal.

Yet the Grace he has bestowed upon me compels me to
conclude on a different note. For Bhagavan again says we are
the Self, ever and always; and Jesus says be alert, for you don't
know when the Bridegroom will arrive. And indeed, young
Venkataraman experienced the truth of this latter statement
most dramatically, at the moment of his death and the arrival
of the Bridegroom, Arunachala. So we should be patient and
persevering, but we shouldn't give a moment's thought to "the
long years ahead" and other such poison. For "the thought that
you are not realized is the obstacle to Realization." If we don't
feel we know Reality, ever and always, then we must at least feel
continuously that its lightning flash is imminent. Such an
attitude naturally allows sadhana to become the all-consuming
flame it should be, and thus "hastens" the Coming. For, again
as Venkataraman realized, no one walks that final infinite
distance to the Peak of Arunachala — but rather, in a way too
inscrutable for the mind to comprehend, and at a speed far too
fast for the ego to withstand, one is brought to the Heart-Summit
by the Mountain Itself.

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Bhagavan's Solicitude
for Devotees

Kunju Swami

An old and well-known devotee of Bhagavan describes
some instances of Bhagavan's solicitude for his devotees,
especially for women and old people.

BHAGAVAN WAS ALWAYS very considerate towards his
devotees in all matters. When he was living at Skandashram
on the eastern slopes of the hill, he used to wake up at 3 o'clock
in the morning. He would not get up immediately but recline
on the bed. We too would wake up at the same time and sit in
meditation near him. Bhagavan's mother used to sing some
devotional songs from within. Bhagavan's routine was to go
out at half past four and return by five. We would then begin to
recite the Aksharamana Malai (The Marital Garland of Letters).
That was the only song which Bhagavan had composed at that
time. I learned it by heart by merely listening to the chanting
of the other devotees. The recitation was over by six o'clock
which was the time for Bhagavan to go for his bath.

There was a large flat stone at the spot where now there is
the low wall on the eastern side. Tooth powder and water were
kept on it for Bhagavan's use. In all weathers he used to sit on it
facing the east and clean his teeth. His body was glowing in the
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him from sitting there, but without any success. Nor did he tell
us the reason for sitting there always. It was some time afterwards
that we came to know of it.

An old woman named Saubhagyathammal, living in a house
near the foot of the hill, and some of her friends had made it a
daily practice not to take any food until they had had darshan of
Bhagavan and Sri Seshadri Swami. They used to come up to
Skandashram every day for this purpose. One day
Saubhagyathammal did not come. If any of his regular devotees
were absent on any particular day Bhagavan never failed to make
enquiries and find out the reason. So when the old woman came
the next day he asked her why she did not come on the previous
day. She replied, "I had Sri Bhagavan's darshan yesterday." "But
you did not come yesterday", said Bhagavan. "Bhagavan knew
that this humble devotee was too feeble to climb the hill and so
he made it possible for her to see him from a place close to her
house", was the reply. She explained that she had seen Bhagavan
while he was sitting on the stone and cleaning his teeth and said
that she was henceforth going to have his darshan everyday in the
same way. From that time onwards Bhagavan made it a practice
to sit on that stone for nearly half an hour daily. Later on when
Bhagavan took up his abode at the foot of the hill it was also
chiefly out of consideration for his aged devotees who found it
difficult to climb to Skandashram. After the passing away of his
mother he occasionally came down to her samadhi. Aged devotees
eagerly awaited these opportunities to see him. And so when they
begged him to remain below he began to live there permanently.

It was the practice of Bhagavan's devotees to take his
permission before proceeding to circumambulate the hill and
to prostrate before him on their return. Many came to the
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the evening and then proceeded immediately to their homes in
the town. Bhagavan advised such devotees to break their
circumambulation in town in the evening and to complete it
on the following day when they came to the Ashram as usual.

When women devotees were ready to return to town at
dusk he would always make certain that none of them went
alone. If any of them found no company he would ask someone
to go with her and leave her at her house.

There were some devotees employed in Madras who used
to come every weekend to Tiruvannamalai and return to Madras
in time to go to their offices on Monday morning. Sometimes
some of them were so reluctant to part from Bhagavan that
they continued to overstay their time. They would go as far as
the railway station only to return to the Ashram on some pretext
or other. Bhagavan, therefore, used in such cases to send someone
with them to the railway station and see that they actually got
into the train and left for Madras. He did not like that anyone
should neglect his duties!

When a devotee came late in the evening after every one
had taken his meal and gone to bed he was not allowed to go
hungry on this account. Bhagavan always saw to it that some
food was kept for such late-comers and that they had their meal.
When such a visitor arrived Bhagavan simply looked at some of
us. That was enough for us to take him to the dining hall and
give him his meal!

Bhagavan never started to eat before all those who were
present were served. The beggars waiting at the gate are even
now given their food before inmates and visitors are served. No
exception is made to this rule even on crowded occasions like
the Jayanthi and the Aradhana. All these instances will show
how considerate Bhagavan was to others!

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Reminiscences

A. Venkateswara Sarma and Smt. Sala

SRI VENKATESWARA SARMA, a native of Keelapasalai
Village, Ramnad Dt., is an old devotee of Sri Bhagavan,
who along with his wife, Smt. Sala, equally devoted to Sri
Bhagavan, lived in Sri Ramana Nagar. Both are closely related
to Sri Bhagavan.

For over a decade he studied the Kavya (poetical literature
in Sanskrit) gaining mastery in the same and also became an
adept in the science of astrology by training he had for years at
Vidyalaya in Kerala. In his early days while staying at Kandanur,
he had a remarkable experience. He saw the portrait of Sri
Bhagavan in his majestic standing posture with a penetrating
look which not merely seemed but was really felt as directed
only to him and which thrilled his whole being. This experience
provoked a great urge to have Sri Bhagavan's darshan
immediately.

He started the very next day and arrived atTiruvannamalai,
his luggage consisting of a panchangam (almanac) in one hand
and an umbrella in the other. That was in 1920. He climbed up
the hill to Skandashram, and recognising Sri Bhagavan who
was seated then under a nelli tree he hastened to prostrate at his
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first sloka of Sri Dakshinamurthi Ashtakam. "Look, look at the
visitor who has come — Subbu's son, is it not?" So exclaimed
Sri Bhagavan, turning to his mother who was there. The mother
gave him a hearty welcome and made him feel at home.
Delighted by the stay with Sri Bhagavan that night, he was guided
to perform giripradakshina (circumambulation of Holy
Arunachala) next day. He expressed an ardent desire to stay
with Sri Bhagavan for good and pleaded that he did not want
to marry but wished to remain with him and serve him and do
pujas. The mother would have none of it, he had duties to
perform, she reminded him and an uncle's daughter awaited
marriage with him. He was then 22 years old. Sri Bhagavan
consoled him, "What does it matter if you a\opuja or get married
or whether you are here or elsewhere?" And so he left!

Since then Sri Sarma was coming to Sri Bhagavan from
time to time, often staying for a month or two and benefitting
by Sri Bhagavan's utterances and his silent influence with
devotion and piety.

Though a successful astrologer by profession, especially in
the branch ofprasna (astrological forecasting on the basis of the
exact time of the client's question), Sri Venkateswara Sarma felt
the futility of leading a bread-earning life and hence came to
Sri Ramanasramam in 1 939, along with his wife, and lived with
Sri Bhagavan's sister's family. In 1946 they took up abode at
Adi Annamalai, four miles away from the Ashram on the
circumambulation path, after duly informing Sri Bhagavan.
They went round the hill daily and sometimes twice a day and
thus had darshan of Sri Bhagavan on the way.

Sri Sarma compiled a short history of Sri Bhagavan's
life consisting of 120 slokas in Sanskrit, known as Ramana
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and corrected. He also composed songs in Tamil and
presented them to Sri Bhagavan, who used to correct them
only sparingly. Such corrections were not only grammatical
in content but also vitally enriched them with spiritual depth.
For instance, in the following verse: "Those who are caught
in the mouth of a great tiger are certain to die in this world;
but all those, caught in the glance (drishti) of the great tiger
adorning the slopes of Arunachala, known as great Ramana,
get merged with natural ease in the eternal happiness,
discarding fear of even the Lord of Death," Sri Bhagavan
put in the word with natural ease \iyat) in the place of daily'
(nidham) of Sri Sarma's!

Since 1948, he settled with his wife and only son in
Tiruvannamalai town. The son passed away four years later.
Both parents feel they survived that shock only by
Bhagavan's Grace. They continued to render service at the
Shrines of Sri Bhagavan and the Mother, assisting in the
daily routine — perhaps as a fulfilment of his former
sankalpa (desire) to do puja to Sri Bhagavan! He felt: "Sri
Bhagavan is ever present in my mind and heart, in jagrat
and swapna and his manifest Grace only is sustaining us in
all circumstances and at all times!"

II

M. S. Nagarajan

SRI BHAGAVAN HAD a unique method of expounding
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words were never premeditated but came spontaneously, they
were also apt, as the following incident will show.

It was in 1 932, I think, when I was in charge of the daily
puja at the Mother's shrine, that a devotee known as P.W.D.
Ramaswami Iyer arranged for a special food offering of sarkarai
pongal (a kind of rice-pudding) and vadai (a small round cake of
blackgram fried in oil) .They were to be offered at the time of the
ushah puja (puja conducted before day break in the month of
Margasira (December-January)). I had many things to do and
there was no one to help me. So I got up very early, at about half
past three, and after taking my bath in the Pali Tirtham, removed
the old flowers from the shrine, swept and cleaned the floor and
lit two fires, over one of which I placed the pot of rice for the
pongal and over the other the pan of oil for the vadai. I then sat
down to grind the black gram which I had soaked in water
previously. By the time the dough was ready, the oil was sufficiendy
hot. I had not actually prepared vadais previously at any time.
But I took some dough and tried to spread it out on the leaf in
the form of a neat round vadai as I had seen others do, but it
would not come out properly. I tried again and again but it was
of no use. I then got annoyed and threw the dough in disgust
back into the vessel. The next moment I noticed some movement
behind me. When I turned round I saw, to my consternation,
Sri Bhagavan standing behind me and watching my efforts to
make vadai. I was naturally agitated but he said quiedy, "It doesn't
matter. You have added too much water while grinding the black
gram. Now make round balls of the dough and fry them. They
will then be bondasl" I did accordingly.

When the bondas were served to the devotees at breakfast,
as usual, Ramaswami Iyer said to me angrily, "Look here. Did I
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I was afraid to say anything and so merely looked at Sri
Bhagavan who immediately turned to Ramaswami Iyer and said,
"What does it matter? If the cakes are flat and circular they are
vadais, if spherical, bondas. The stuff is the same and the taste is
the same. Only names and forms are different. Eat the prasadam
(food offered to a deity) and don't make a fuss." Everyone was
astonished at the ready and apt reply of Sri Bhagavan.
Ramaswami Iyer could not contain his joy! He exclaimed,
"Wonderful, Wonderful!" Later in the day, when he saw me, he
said, "I say, you are a lucky fellow. Sri Bhagavan himself is
supporting you."

The world consists of names and forms. These are naturally
many, but what lies behind them is one and the same. Names
and forms are not real although we think that they are. Brahman
which underlies them is real, but we forget it. What wisdom lay
in Sri Bhagavan's words!

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How 1 Came to the
Maharshi

Swami Paresananda

Major General V. N. Parameswaran Pillai, O.B.E.,
retired from service as G O. G, Travancore-Cochin State Forces
in the year 1950. Even while in service he had a deeply
religious bent of mind and he used to visit holy places and
personages. After retirement he made a pilgrimage to all holy
places in India and to Kailas-Manasarovar.He was initiated
by Sri Sivanandaji Maharaj of Rishikesh when he visited
Trivandrum in 1950. Sri Swami Purushottamanandaji
Maharaj ofVasistha Guhagave him sannyasa diksha in 1958.
Since then he is known as Swami Paresananda. He had his
own Ashram at Kanyakumari, Neyyathinkaray and
Trivandrum.

IT WAS in the year 1936 that I had the good fortune of having
darshan of Sri Bhagavan. I had heard about him before, and
was longing to go to Tiruvannamalai but the opportunity never
came till then. This is how it came about.

I was then a Captain in the Travancore State Forces and
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the Royal Mother had been to Madras from where they paid a
visit to Sri Ramanasramam on the counsel of the Dewan, Sir
C. P. Ramaswami Iyer, who was a devotee of Sri Ramana
Bhagavan. I came to know of this when Their Highnesses
returned to Trivandrum and was wondering whether it was not
my bad luck that I was not taken as A.D.C. on that tour. In the
meantime, one morning, my friend Sri I. S. Narayana Pillai,
the Controller of Stationery, who was a devotee of Maharshi,
informed me over the phone that he was starting for Sri
Ramanasramam the next day and asked whether I would like
to join him. It was his general practice to inform me whenever
he went to some place of pilgrimage and I had accompanied
him to many places. But this time I was not confident of getting
permission from His Highness at such short notice and I replied
that I would not be able to go with him.

Mysterious indeed are the ways of Bhagavan! A few hours
later, when I reported for duty at the Palace, His Highness said,
of his own accord, that if I also wanted to visit Sri
Ramanasramam I could go. Yes, His Highness knew very well
that I was fond of visiting religious places and saints. This sudden
and unexpected permission made me speechless for a few
seconds. I felt it was all due to Bhagavan's grace.

Sri I. S. and I reached the Ashram the second day. My
companion was a frequent visitor, so everyone knew him. He
introduced me to the Sarvadhikari, Sri Niranjanananda Swami
who made arrangements for our stay. Then we proceeded to
the hall for Sri Bhagavan's darshan. Bhagavan was reclining on
a couch, turning to one side. The hall was almost full with visitors
from various parts of the country and from the west. As we
entered the hall, the scene brought to my memory, slokas from
Dakshinamurti Stotra. I felt Dakshinamurti Himself was

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reclining on the couch. I. S. took me to a vantage point, sitting
where we could see the Maharshi without any obstruction.
Bhagavan noticed us. After a while he sat up and beckoned me.
We did not know whom he was summoning and, as I was a
stranger, my companion thought he was being called and he
got up. Bhagavan signalled ' No '. Others enquired whether
this or that person was meant by pointing to some persons
sitting nearby but the answer was in the negative.

At last I was pointed out and Maharshi nodded assent.
Everybody was surprised and became curious about me. I was
also surprised. I approached him immediately, placed the flowers
and fruits I had brought, and prostrated before him. He
beckoned me to come nearer and gazed at me for a while and
smiled. Then he told his attendant "Bring that book." It was
brought and Maharshi presented it to me. It was a Malayalam
translation of Maharshi's Tamil work, Gitasaram. I was
overwhelmed with joy and devotion. After a few seconds
Maharshi took the book from me, made some corrections in
his own hand and then handed it back to me touching my
hand, I considered myself highly blessed to receive Maharshi's
Grace in this manner.

Then it was time for the midday meal. We were also invited;
so we entered the dining hall. Maharshi asked me to sit in the
opposite row, just facing him and I did so. While eating, he
enquired tenderly,"How is the preparation?" and so on. I replied
that everything was very nice. Again he said,"Take enough rice,
curry, etc. Eat slowly", and so on, and asked the servers to serve
me more curry etc. Throughout he was talking to me only in
the dining hall and this made others wonder who this favoured
one might be. As for me, I had had various such experiences
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in past lives. "Omnipresent and Omniscient as he is, Maharshi
understands the heart of every one", this belief of mine was
confirmed.

My friend I. S. was a regular visitor to the Ashram but
Maharshi had never spoken to him. When I received such
favours from him, it was natural for I. S. to feel that there was
something lacking in him. Maharshi could easily understand
this. The same day he presented a book to I. S. also and made
him feel deeply gratified.

More than thirty-seven years have elapsed but the whole thing
is still green in my memory. And the book that Maharshi gave me,
corrected in his own hand, is still with mel keep it as a treasure.

II

Sunyata

Sunya Baba — Emmanual Sorensen in his
purvashrama — refers to himself always in the third person
in the article.

IT WAS IN THE YEAR 1929 that Poet Rabindranath Tagore
and his secretaries (Arya Nikam and Amiya Chakravarti) met
him and I befriended him at Dartington Hall in Devonshire,
England. And it was the Poet's casual invitation to the
simple, 'uneducated' gardener to come to Bharat 'to teach Silence'
to the ebullient Bengalis, which called him here. He discerned
in the simpleton's Being a quality of Sunya-Santi-Silence and
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appreciated in India. The invitation gave the sadhu-type the
needed push or pull, to venture forth simply and solitarily into
India, and the proposed 3 or 4 months' stay stretched into 45
years of Himalayan ananda-grace.The solitary pilgrim in
Consciousness had come ' Home'. In India he read the Vedas,
the Upanishads and the writings of genuine Masters.

He heard of Sri Ramana Maharshi while in Kashmir and
Tibet from Lamas, and later from Paul Brunton and Dr. W. Y.
EvansWentz. After spending several years in the Himalayas and
other sanctuaries, he came to Sri Ramana Maharshi in the year
1936 for the first time and was introduced to the Maharshi by
Paul Brunton. He also came three times or more later at a few
years' intervals. He had no problem, no disease, and no quest
and so asked no questions. Maharshi, however, did ask him
some questions which he has now forgotten.

But the first darshan of the Maharshi remains an
unforgettable experience, especially Sri Ramana's casual, as it
were, statement ' We are always aware'; and this made a most
powerful impact on him. It resounded in his consciousness
like a chime and continued to linger in his memory like a
mantra or an echo of Sri Arunachala or Dakshinamurti. He
also remembers some passages mentioned from the Bible: the
phrase, 'I AM THAT I AM', 'Be Still and know that I am
God', 'Know ye not that you are Gods?' and the words Jesus
exchanged with Nicodemus.

He found Ramana Maharshi's was pure advaita-experience,
and his chief language, radiant Silence, to which only mature
souls familiar with solitude could easily respond. When Ramana
was questioned by officious officials and was later asked if it had
tired him, he said: "No; I did not use my mind". He was
mind-free and ego-free.

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As for Sunya, there was from babyhood no sense of guilt,
no sin-complex and no ego-pitiful grievance against What Is.
Very little friction, imposition or conditioning, and so no
ego-importance. Affectionate detachment from forms and
things, is natural in the conscious awareness that there is no real
division, no real detachment in the Reality we ever are, ego-free
and death-free. There is no ambition to 'become' this or that
and no reaching out for power or self-possessions, security. Yet,
there is intuitive Light- awareness, a flair for essence, wholeness
and esoteric grace-awareness; a secure contentment in the
fundamental all-Rightness of things and happenings as Siva Lila,
Self-interplay

III

Satya Narayan Tandon

IT WAS AT THE END OF 1944 that I first heard about
Bhagavan Ramana Maharshi. I was sitting with a religious
teacher, when a visitor said: "Maharshi is Mount Everest and
others mere hillocks." Since then I had a persistent urge to have
darshan of Sri Bhagavan.

In the summer of 1946, when I was sitting in the presence
of Paramsant Mahatma Raghuber Dayal, a Sufi saint, a
fellow-devotee who had been to Tiruvannamalai began to speak
about Sri Bhagavan, the Ashram and his experiences during his
stay there. Chachaji, (as we used to call the saint) who had
listened attentively to his devotee's narration, spoke very highly
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his darshan. But I did not get the opportunity for it — one
hindrance or another always came in my way.

Early in April 1950, when I was planning to go to
Arunachala, my younger brother, Sri Jagatnarayan, told me that
he along with a friend was to leave for Tiruvannamalai the same
evening. To me this was a bolt from the blue, as we both could
not leave the station simultaneously. I could not speak out my
mind, and he left for Tiruvannamalai. He was fortunate to have
Sri Bhagavan's darshan — standing in a queue. He stayed there
for a few days and on the return journey somewhere near
Nagpur, got the information that Sri Bhagavan had shed the
body.

My younger brother again went to Sri Ramanasramam in
1956. On hearing from him about the Ashram and his
experiences there, the longing to visit the Shrine was aroused
afresh.

It was late in 1957 at the insistence of my wife, that my
longing to visit the shrine of Sri Ramana Maharshi was fulfilled.

Since 1957, Sri Bhagavan has been graciously pleased to
call us to his Shrine of Grace practically every year.

An accident that occurred at Allahabad Railway station on
the morning of January 23, 1972 is worth recording.

With my younger son, his wife and one of my grandsons,
I was coming back to Kanpur from Allahabad by Howrah-Kalka
Mail. After locating our berths, I was talking on the platform
with people who had come to see us off. I could not hear the
whistle of the electric engine, and the train began to move. I
caught hold of the handle of the compartment to get into it.
But I lost the grip and fell on the track. In the meantime the
train had gathered momentum. When my son, who was at the
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fellow-passenger told him that he saw an old man falling down
while trying to get into the compartment. My son immediately
pulled the chain, but the train stopped only two furlongs away.

As soon as I fell on the track, I saw the face of Sri Bhagavan
repeating like a mantra, "Don't lift the head." Where I was on
the track I cannot say. But I saw the wheels moving faster and
faster.

When the entire train had moved beyond the place where
I was, I got up though my head and left eye-brow were badly
wounded, so much so that my woollen coat had become
drenched. The guard who was in charge of the train said that
eight bogeys had passed over me and that it was a miracle that I
had escaped death. It was all his benign Grace that he saved this
body, for what purpose is known to him only. For the first few
days after the wounds had been stitched and I was in great agony
and pain, I was kept under sedation but I felt Sri Bhagavan
sitting by my side and at times moving his hands over the wounds
that had been stitched.

My cap and spectacles that had fallen on the track were all
received by my people without any damage whatsoever. The
same glasses and the same frame I used for years thereafter.

May this head remain at his Lotus feet for the rest of my
days on earth.

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Awareness Absolute

Visvanatha Swami

IT WAS AT Skandasramam on Arunachala that I first met
Bhagavan Ramana (in January 1921). He was standing on
the open space in front of the Ashram building facing the
entrance as I approached. The very sight of him was thrilling;
something very subtle, seemingly with its centre in that body
shone forth unlimited engulfing everything else. Needless to
say I felt swallowed up by it. I stayed for a week with Bhagavan
in that atmosphere of utter purity and serenity. I heard from
him how he came to Arunachala, irresistibly attracted and swept
off his feet by a tremendous benevolent force; how he was one
with it deep down within his heart almost oblivious of his body
and surroundings; and how only later on he gradually regained
the use of his senses and mind and was able to look about and
commune with others when they approached him.

Subsequently too, when I had come to Bhagavan for good,
the effect of his proximity continued the same way and I may
say that there was no necessity for any sadhana in particular on
my part. Along with a few other inmates I had my share in the
work of the Ashram in the elevating company of Bhagavan and
I studied his few works, devotional and philosophical, and heard
his replies to various questions put by visitors. But the most
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company of Bhagavan. As Bhagavan says in the Supplement to
the Reality in Forty Verses: "If one associates with Sages, where is
the need for any other rigorous sadhana?. No one looks for a
fan when there is the pleasant southern breeze."

The climax of my spiritual experience in the proximity
of Bhagavan was during his 'last' moments. As I stood in that
small room along with a very few others, everything became
shadow enveloped by one indivisible Pure Awareness, the one
and only ever-present Reality. And so there was not the least
feeling of any separation from Bhagavan or the least vestige
of sorrow on that account. Not only that, there was a positive
ecstasy and elation of spirit which is nothing but the Natural
State of the Self.

All those who approached Bhagavan with spiritual
earnestness have had this experience of direct contact with the
Divine at the very first sight of Bhagavan. Ganapati Muni, the
great poet and tapaswin, saw an adept (a Siddha Purusha, a
Perfect Being) in Bhagavan, the moment he first beheld him by
chance on the Hill in the Ashram of Jataiswami. The scholar
became a disciple. Venkataramanier of Satyamangalam saw
Bhagavan as a clear manifestation of the all-pervading Supreme
Self and sang his five superb Hymns in Praise of Ramana.
Humphreys saw Bhagavan as a glowing centre of Divine
Radiance. Achyuta Dasa, Narayana Guru and so many others
seeing Bhagavan recognised his unique spiritual greatness.
Pascaline Mallet, a French lady, who stayed with Bhagavan for a
few months sang in a poem in praise of Bhagavan: "One Light,
One Life, One Love, shining through Thee, we see." And Grant
Duff (Douglas Ainslee), the cultured scholar and poet, says in
his preface to Bhagavan's Five Hymns to Arunachala: "I was in
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of the senses and was merged in the Absolute Self. I do not
need any proof of the divinity of Ramana Maharshi, just as I do
not need any to prove the existence of the Sun."

What is the secret behind the common experience of
Divine Glory which so many intelligent devotees have had in
the presence of Bhagavan? Here is the answer given by Ganapati
Muni in his remarkable hymn of Forty Verses in Praise of
Bhagavan: "Bow down to the holy Guru Ramana who reaching
the hidden source of the ego within has effaced all differentiation
and shines forth as the One Self of all beings with various mental
propensities and who is resplendent as the One Reality
transcending the body and the entire world-manifestation." "I
bow to Sri Ramana, the Great Teacher, the remover of all sorrow,
who established in the Eternal Abode of Pure Awareness dispels
the ignorance of earnest seekers, who though seeing and moving
within the world stands as the Supreme Being transcending it."

Whatever is seen is non-self and the Seer alone is the
unchanging Self. When we take to Self-enquiry holding on to
this fundamental principle of Vedanta, the physical body, the
life-current operating in it and the mind are eliminated as
non-self. Even the intellect, the highest known principle in man
with its reasoning faculty, has to be discarded as non-self as it is
only the faculty of one behind it, claiming it as his. Who is he?
He cannot stand by himself and so he disappears. What then
remains as the source of the elusive I-sense in us is the ultimate
Self, which is ever there as the Ground of all that appears and
disappears, of all perception in the waking and dream states
and non-perception of anything in deep sleep.

Though the truth of the ultimate Self is explained within a
few steps like this, the enveloping power of a mysterious force
of darkness known as avarana in Vedanta is such that it gets

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eradicated only after a vigilant self-enquiry constantly carried
on. The inherent tendencies (vasanas) of the mind based on a
phantom ego get annihilated only after a continuous earnest
attempt to abide at the Heart, the Source. So, Sankara says in
his Vivekachudamani that liberation (mukti) is nothing but the
complete eradication of the ego with all its vasanas. Bhagavan
says in his song on Atma Vidya that Grace is needed for the
dawn ofjnana as well as earnest aspiration and devotion on the
part of the seeker to deserve it. When earnest effort and Grace
meet, then there is the achievement of the highest spiritual
aspiration of man, viz., spontaneous inherence in the
ever-present Self.

The Self is Pure Awareness, unalloyed Awareness itself,
whereas the mind is awareness of this and that. The mind cannot
stand for a moment without an object, because it is by its very
nature a subject-object phenomenon. It disappears when it is
divested of objects, unable to stand by itself. And there, the
Self, the one indivisible absolute Awareness shines for ever as
stated in Sri Ramana Gita (Ch. vii, v. 5): "When the ego which
is but a phantom of the Self totally disappears, what remains is
the real Self alone in all its plenitude and perfection." This is
jnana and this is mukti (liberation).

For one established in it thus, the subject-object phenomena
may appear and disappear but he will remain for ever unsullied
as Pure Awareness, since nothing has any existence apart from
it. This is known as Tanmaya Nishta. Being the Self is Awareness
of the Self.

From a relative standpoint, the proximity of such a Sage,
normally established in the Self under all circumstances of life,
serves as an eye-opener for those in the clutches of delusion and
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The operation of the Spiritual Force of such enlightened Ones
is not limited to the lifetime of their physical body. It continues
for ever and those who think of them, surrender themselves to
them, study their life and teachings and try to follow them do
get into the ambit of their Grace, non-different from Supreme
Divine Grace. This is the experience of so many spiritual
aspirants who had not met Bhagavan during his lifetime but
devoted themselves to him on hearing of him or coming to
know of him somehow or other. The enlightened Ones who
are themselves timeless belong to all time and by their very
nature shed light on the path of seekers and help them in ever
so many ways.

Ultimately one sees that one has no existence apart from
Pure Awareness, that there is no world apart from it and that
there is no other God than Pure Awareness. Blissful Awareness
is the sole Reality. Manifestation as the Many is nothing but its
Lila. Every one, in manifestation, has to play his part knowing
at heart that it is all nothing but Lila, the only Reality being
Absolute Blissful Awareness.

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Sri Bhagavan's
Bodily Health

K. Lakshmana Sarma

AN INEVITABLE CONSEQUENCE of Bhagavan's state
l. as zjivan mukta, permanently established in the egoless
State, was that he could not claim any rights, even the right to
choose what shall be done or not done to his body, because
from his point of view, that body was not his. Also, he was so
full of compassion, that he could not bear to hurt anyone's
feelings. Anyone that came to him offering edibles or medicine,
was sure of its being accepted, though he did not want it. Once
he said, "Nature cure is right. But...." And he did not complete
the sentence.

Yet he showed his real view of drugs by implication. "When
a quantity of a drug had to be taken for a certain period, he
would take only one dose and would never take a second; that
is, he would not follow the prescription as one who believed in
the goodness of the drug would do, so as to benefit by it.

The same was the case when an operation was proposed.
He submitted to the operation only to please the person who
wanted to do him good.

On the last occasion, when a number of doctors and
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remove the cancer he was having, he first very gently suggested
that it was not necessary. He did that because he knew the future,
that the end was near. The doctors did not take the hint. They
insisted on operating and hence Sri Bhagavan submitted to the
operation without an anaesthetic. The operation lasted for nearly
three hours and produced a severe shock, from which the body
never recovered.

When all these medical efforts had failed, a number of
devotees came to him and prayed to him to use his spiritual
powers to heal the disease. Bhagavan replied, "I did not want
any treatment. It was you that wanted it." After a brief pause he
added, "In two more days it will become all right". What he
meant was that the end would come then. And it came exactly
as he said.

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Treatment to Sri
Bhagavan - An Account

Dr. Shankar Rao

Dr.Shankar Rao, a retired D. M. O., who was attending
on Sri Maharshi almost from the start of his illness, details in
this article an intimate and vivid picture of the Maharshi's
ailment and the way he bore with it.

TO HAVE SERVED Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi as a
doctor for over a year is no ordinary privilege and no
ordinary experience. It was an education of the highest type, a
training of a unique character. It provided me with vivid glimpses
into the human as well as the superhuman and godlike
personality of Sri Maharshi.

For one whole year I watched the ailment sapping the
strength and vitality of the physical frame of Sri Maharshi with
cruel success. It failed to affect his detachment and composure
and I found for the first time that this disease with its brood of
pain and suffering had somehow met with an ignominious defeat.
This will be borne out in the following account of the history
of the ailment which culminated in the Maharshi shaking off
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I first came to Sri Ramanashram in the second week of
December, 1948. At that time Sri Bhagavan had a small nodule
under the skin behind the elbow about the size of a split pea.
When I asked him about it he said that it might have been due
to a fall he had some three months back. On pressing, it used to
be painful. Within a month it grew to the size of a small marble.
Sri Bhagavan used to feel pain whenever he put his elbow on
any hard surface and so I suggested its removal. It was removed
on 9th February 1 949. The wound completely healed up during
the course of a week.

In the first week of March, it was again noticed to be
growing. About the middle of March, Dr. Raghavachari of
Madras came with his assistants and removed it completely,
together with a good deal of surrounding tissues and also the
skin over it. A microscopic examination revealed that it was a
sarcoma.

Sarcoma is a malignant tumour of the flesh which occurs
generally in young people, while older ones get cancers which
are growths from the skin or mucous membranes. These
malignant tumours are not enclosed in sheaths or capsules like
simple tumours. Even small microscopic cells anywhere in the
tissues surrounding the tumour could start to grow into another
tumour. Some cells may be carried through the blood vessels to
other parts of the body and produce similar secondary tumours.

The wound, after the second operation, did not heal and
after a few days, a new growth appeared and this started bleeding
profusely. Doctors and radiologists came from Madras and
applied radium to afford temporary relief. They advised that
amputation of the limb, a couple of inches above the tumour
alone could cure the disease. The consensus of opinion amongst
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Bhagavan also said that it was not necessary. The idea of
amputation was given up.

The tumour growth subsided a little as a result of radium
treatment but in July 1 949 it again began to grow. Some of the
devotees wished that ayurvedic treatment should be tried and a
local ayurvedic physician started treatment. Sri Bhagavan's
health deteriorated, sepsis set in and the tumour continued to
grow very rapidly.

Surgeons from Madras were again requested to come. They
advised an operation as the only remedy and the tumour together
with the white area of tissues all around were removed with a
diathermic knife. Radium was then applied. This was on 14th
August.

The result appeared to be very favourable in as much as
no tumour growth appeared for three months and even scrapings
taken from the raw surface of the wound were reported to be
negative. Early in December 1949 however, there was a
suspicion of a small nodule appearing in the middle of the arm,
several inches away from the site of the original tumour growth.
Then again doctors from Madras came and having diagnosed it
as a secondary growth and that too a very small one, they
expected to remove it easily.

On 19th December the growth was operated on but when
the deeper tissues were cut into, for removing the tumour, it
was found that the growth had spread deep into the muscles.
A much larger operation became necessary and in spite of
this, the surgeons felt that the chances of recurrence could
not be ruled out.

As the surgeons had given up hope of a cure, homeopathy
was tried. By about the middle of February, the tumour again
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as the homeopath who was treating Sri Bhagavan was unable to
prevent recurrence, an ayurvedic physician from Malabar was
sent for and he started treatment. This too having been
unsuccessful, Kaviraj Jogendranath Sastry from Calcutta was
invited by one of the devotees to treat Sri Bhagavan. During all
this period the general health of Sri Bhagavan continued to
deteriorate and the tumour growth increased rapidly.

By about the 2nd of April I felt that the end was near. On
the night of Sunday the 9th of April the pulse became very
feeble and gradual deterioration of the functions of the heart
brought about exhaustion. Sri Bhagavan who, until that day,
had been able to walk to the adjoining bathroom could not do
so and was confined to bed.

Since February the blood pressure of Sri Bhagavan started
dropping. A fortnight before the end it was 88/48, the lowest
point reached being 66/36. The expected end came at 8.47 pm
on 14th April.

Sri Bhagavan's attitude towards his body was one of complete
detachment. Disease and pain left no impression on his mind. If
he allowed himself to be treated for the ailment, it was more
because his devotees wanted it than because he desired relief. His
attitude was always supreme indifference to bodily ailments.

So he was an ideal patient implicitly undergoing any
treatment that was decided upon by his devotees. Whenever he
allowed any change in treatment his only concern was that there
should be an agreement amongst his devotees about which
particular type of treatment should be given a trial. As far as he
personally was concerned, he did not care.

To everyone who was by his side, the way in which he
bore with pain, which was at times of an extremely excruciating
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was a wonder. On one occasion during the later stages of the
ailment when he was having shooting pains down his limb, a
gentlemen who had come for his darshan bowed down and said
that he was leaving Tiruvannamalai. Sri Bhagavan gave him his
usual gracious look and smile as if there was nothing wrong
with him at the time. And it was only after the gentleman left
that Sri Bhagavan admitted that the pain was severe and allowed
himself to be treated for it.

The tumour in the later stages of his illness grew to such
proportions that even medical men who were used to those
sights were shocked when they saw it. When it was being dressed,
Sri Bhagavan used to look at it and often make jokes about it.
He even helped the doctors to adjust the bandage.

On one occasion when the skin around the tumour was
being cleaned with rectified spirit, some of it bathed the rest of
the arm and fell on the body also. Sri Bhagavan jokingly said
that he was having a spirit bath and quoted the last stanza of
Atma Bodha by Sri Shankaracharya. It was not only a joke but
also carried with it a profound spiritual teaching.

One night when there was heavy bleeding from the tumour
as it was being dressed, two or three bhaktas couldn't conceal
their emotion. He looked at them and said, "Where will 1 go?
And where can I go?" And whenever he said T, with emphasis,
he always meant the Atman.

Some time ago when treating the tumour it was suggested
that Sri Bhagavan should have a sun bath and the tumour was
exposed to the sun for a few minutes. To prevent flies, some
incense was put in an oven and placed just below the chair
upon which he sat. Sri Bhagavan jokingly said that we were
offering worship to the tumour to go away by burning incense
and waving lights {dhoopam and deepam) before it.

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One of my friends took photographs of Sri Bhagavan one
afternoon. During the night when we both went together and
I was dressing the wound, Sri Bhagavan referred to the photos
and gave a profound spiritual discourse using the science of
photography as an illustration. Said Sri Bhagavan,

"When taking a picture the silver salts are coated over a
film in the dark and when the film is exposed in the camera,
you get an impression caused by light outside. If the film is
exposed to light before you put it in the camera there can be no
impression on it. So is it with our jiva. When it is still in darkness,
impression can be made on it by the little light that leaks in.
But when the light of knowledge has already flooded it, there is
no impression of external objects to be obtained." In a similar
fashion, he used to entertain his medical attendants with jokes
interspersed with profound spiritual education.

Throughout the period of illness, his desire not to embarrass
his medical attendants in whatever system of medicine they
belonged, resulted in a perfect code of medical etiquette that could
not be excelled. When he was having treatment of a particular
system of medicine such as ayurveda or homeopathy, if any one
suggested a remedy for the intense pain he was having, he would
always refer him to the doctor that was in attendance and ask him
to get his consent. On one occasion when the surgeons who operated
on him had confessed that nothing short of an amputation could
cure Sri Bhagavan, a devotee of many years' standing, brought an
eminent physician of another system of medicine. This gendeman
saw Sri Bhagavan and had a talk with him. Sri Bhagavan received
him with his usual gracious smile and the new physician believed
that Sri Bhagavan wished him to treat him.

It was characteristic of Sri Bhagavan — and this was
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went to him, he returned with a feeling that the Master had
poured his grace on him alone and that he was the most loved
amongst his devotees! I knew this and therefore took this
physician to Sri Bhagavan and asked him to obtain his consent
for the treatment. Sri Bhagavan smiled at this and said, "Do
you know doctor so and so who is now treating me? Have you
had a talk with him and what did he say?" The gentleman was
nonplussed and had to go.

To watch Sri Bhagavan and listen even to his day-to-day
talk was an education to those who were near him. There was
no need to read books on religion or philosophy. His whole
philosophy and the philosophy of ages were in Sri Bhagavan's
life. For his life was an exposition of the highest philosophy. He
did not lecture. He did not write books for the edification of
learned scholars outside but by living the life of perfection, he
gave to those that came in contact with him, a greater education
than any books could provide. With the passing of the greatest
spiritual personality of modern times, the world has lost a living
teacher, a guru in its highest sense.

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The End was Peaceful

Eye-witness Account of a

Medical Officer Who
Attended on Sri Maharshi

Lt. Col. P.V. Karamchandani

How Shri Maharshi responded with spontaneous
quickness to sincere requests and prayers, even during his last
moments, is here detailed by a reputed physician who skethes
the sombre yet touchingly majestic setting of the Masters
mahanirvana.

THE EXTRAORDINARY PRIVILEGE of attending on
Bhagavan Sri Maharshi during the last two months came to
me rather unexpectedly and without any planning on my part.

About fifteen years ago while I was working in Trichy a
friend from North India wrote to me asking particulars about
Tiruvannamalai and Sri Ramana Maharshi. I wrote back saying
that I had neither seen nor heard about the town and the sage
and that I was interested in neither.

In December last year I was posted to North Arcot and
very soon after, a medical officer came to me, invited me to visit
the hospital at Tiruvannamalai and also added that the occasion
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casual mention of Tiruvannamalai evoked memories of my
friend's query, I had no impelling urge to go to the district town.

Official work however, took me to Tiruvannamalai after
some months. When my inspection work was over, it was
suggested to me that I could pay a visit to the Ashram. I agreed.
I went to the Ashram and there saw Sri Bhagavan.

Before I saw Sri Maharshi, I had been told that he was
four times operated on, for sarcoma. When I examined him, I
found a small ulcer in his arm above the elbow. At the upper
end of the ulcer there was a swelling. I couldn't be certain as to
whether this was the tumour growth coming up again after the
operation or whether it was ordinary inflammation. I suggested
penicillin to eliminate this doubt. Penicillin was not given and
in course of time it proved to be a tumour growth.

I was called again to Tiruvannamalai only after six weeks.
When I saw Sri Bhagavan this time, I found a big growth almost
covering the upper left arm except for a two inch space in front.
This growth was bleeding and losing serum, thereby directly
depleting the system of bodily fluids. Added to this there was
pain, which was exhausting the body. More than haemorrhage
and loss of serum, pain was the distressing feature.

The variety of tumour that Sri Bhagavan had was spindle
shaped sarcoma, probably arising from the sheath of the ulnar
nerve. This is a very painful tumour with its speciality of shooting
pain. In medical language we call it lacinating pain but Sri
Bhagavan described it as something like insects creeping up and
down the arm! He bore with this pain as though the body did
not belong to him. Whenever I asked him whether there was
pain, Sri Bhagavan said that it was nothing.

Within this period I came again and found the tumour
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some sensation of pain in the impregnable and imperturbable
personality of Sri Bhagavan. I could only illustrate this by one
tiny incident. A few days before Sri Bhagavan's departure
someone touched the cloth on the tumour and there appeared
an expression of pain on his face. The attendant who touched
the cloth said that he touched only the cloth on the tumour and
not the tumour itself. To which Sri Bhagavan replied that the
cloth bore the weight of mountains!

I came to see Sri Bhagavan at about midnight on the 13th
instant. I found him resting with closed eyes. When he opened
them, he asked all the attendants to clear out of the room. He
repeated this half a dozen times and this was interpreted as
delirium. But I examined him and found him to be fully conscious
and not at all delirious. I asked the attendants to obey Sri
Bhagavan's instructions by going out of the room. Throughout
the night I sat with him. There was respiratory embarrassment
(Cheyne Stoke breathing as we call it). Pain was very intense
because even the least movement brought forth evidence of pain.

I left in the morning and came back in the evening, just
two hours before Sri Bhagavan's last breath. This privilege of
being by his side at that time was something which I prayed for
but which I little expected. When I entered his room, Sri
Bhagavan's eyes were closed. He was propped up on his bed and
breathing was very hard. The lips were parched and I gave him
some drops of water. I thought that a little fruit juice would be
better. I asked him, "Bhagavan, shall I give you some orange
juice?" I repeated the question twice and each time Sri Bhagavan
shook his head to mean 'no'.

Then a strange thing happened. I stood beside him
prayerfully repeating the question within my mind. Suddenly,
Sri Maharshi nodded his head to mean yes' and opened his

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mouth. I gave him three teaspoons of juice. Each time he opened
his mouth and swallowed the juice. This was the last nourishment
that Sri Bhagavan had. This was at about 7.45 pm.

At ten minutes to eight, Sri Maharshi's pulse was still
perceptible. A big crowd of devotees was sorrowfully waiting
outside expecting and fearing that the last breath would be taken
at any minute. I felt that it was not a question of minutes and
to relieve the prevailing tension, a bulletin was issued to the
effect that there was no immediate danger to life. This relieved
the assembled devotees a little. At twenty five minutes to nine,
the pulse was still perceptible and the breathing was very hard
and laborious. It was distressing beyond words to see that mighty
personality suffering such pains. I asked within myself why such
a great soul should undergo such agonies. Had he taken on
himself the karma of others? If he should suffer such pains what
about others? Could not Sri Bhagavan relieve himself of the
pain? Thoughts like these weighed in my mind as I stood
watching Sri Bhagavan.

As though to provide an answer to my suffering, the picture
changed and changed suddenly. The pulse disappeared and breathing
became slow and easy, a very unusual feature at such a time and
stage. The breathing became slower and slower till it completely
stopped at thirteen to nine. The last breath was as easy and slow as
any other previous breath. We were able to decide the last breath
only from the fact that there were no breaths after. The jerk, the
struggle and the gasps that usually announce the last breath in the
case of ordinary people were not there in the case of Sri Bhagavan.

And so slowly and smoothly Sri Bhagavan secured his
release from his physical encasement. That was the end.

No. How could that be? Sri Bhagavan has no beginning
and no end.

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Aradhana Day

Major Chadwick

(These articles were written to commemorate Bhagavaris
third AradhanaJ

ON MAY 1 1TH the Ashram celebrates Sri Bhagavan's third
Aradhana, when one will be carried back to that momentous
night three years ago when he passed. One can still see the tense
crowds seated in rows under the veranda of the new hall, waiting,
waiting, waiting till the last breath should be breathed and the
one they all loved so much should once and for all relinquish his
body. Most of us felt it would be a happy release. We prayed he
might be spared any further suffering. The sickness and pain had
been so long drawn out, it was an agony to watch the loved one
being slowly wasted away by the malignant disease.

Doubtless he was zjnani and was beyond all suffering, he
was dwelling in the bliss of the Self, but suffering there undoubtedly
was, though he himself would have asked, "To whom is the
suffering?" It is a mystery beyond my comprehension. Vaguely, I
sense that if one is liberated, one is free from all pain as the Self is
all bliss. Behind even suffering there must be a special bliss for
such. It is only a surface appearance, though very real and painful
for the onlooker.

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Swami Ramathirtha used to say that when he had high
fever he experienced the most ecstatic bliss during meditation,
more so than when he was in normal health. At first people felt
lost, they had relied too much on the personal form, though
Bhagavan himself had repeatedly warned them, "You attach too
much importance to this body."

Still it was only natural that this body should be missed,
although as time went on, the loss became gradually less keen.
His presence was felt so strongly in the Ashram, and daily the
feeling of this actual presence grew. A visitor remarked to me
lately, "One does not miss the presence of Bhagavan in the
Ashram, he is there just as he was before." And this is true. He is
there and he is surely working and the Ashram will grow in
strength and renown as time goes on. There have been dark
days since that night three years ago,but those days are now
past. The Ashram takes on a new life. There is a new feeling in
the air and the stagnation is over. The school has been revived
and pujas are performed so carefully and enthusiastically that
the whole place rings with the vibrations thus set up.

I went away never to return, but he brought me back. And
now I thank him every day that I have been allowed to take part
in this renaissance. It is thrilling to the core to feel it happening.
One should have known that it was bound to be like this all the
time. How could anything happen to the place he had sanctified
with his presence for so long? The whole of India was blessed by
his life, how much more so the place in which he made his home.

I have one piece of advice to offer to one and all. Do not
believe the stories you hear about Sri Ramanasramam because
you can always test the truth of such tales for yourself without
relying on hearsay. It is very easy. Come and see for yourself.
You will not be disappointed.

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II

Mouni Sadhu

THREE YEARS AGO the sad news of the departure from the
physical body of Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi came to me
and his other devotees scattered throughout the world. I do not
wish to praise or compare the great Being at whose feet the
Almighty allowed me to abide.

For how could we, from our lower level of consciousness,
describe exactly this Being whose mission was to give us
something of his infinite light? And for adequate assessing of
his greatness, one must at least be on the same level of spiritual
glory. All that I can do is try to convey, what I found in my
own heart, when I received news of his departure.

The light from those luminous eyes of Sri Bhagavan, was
for ever engraved on my memory when leaving the Ashram.
And now the account of his death lies before me. Does it mean
that those eyes cannot any more radiate their silent initiation?
That the light of eternity has been really extinguished? That
would be ridiculous, I know this light is not a material one,
though it was conveyed through a material body. This is a
mystery but not a paradox. I found in my heart no urge to
discover that mystery through the mind. I feel that the fact was
so, even though unexplainable by the thinking process. So his
death did not deprive me of his reality.

I was sitting quietly, as in preparation for meditation, but
this time, the usual process was changed. Perhaps he saw that
the human heart, not yet free from all its weaknesses, needs
sometimes some consolation. And then, instead of a void, the
well known and beloved picture arose before me.

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There were most mysterious and inspiring evenings at the
Ashram, when the beautiful hymn "In praise of the Lord of the
Universe" {Five hymns on Arunachala) was sung in the hall. Sri
Bhagavan evidently loved the hymn, for there would appear a
peculiar expression of other than human beatitude and delight
on his face. I felt that the hearts of those who were present in
that blissful hour of evening contemplation were deeply attuned
to it. Perhaps his penetrating inner sight saw the beneficial process
in it, and his silent blessing was the answer. How can we fathom
what is unfathomable? And now I experienced once again, as
with all those others who were present, the same beautiful melody
heard before with my outer ears. It was as if I reviewed a film.
There was no sadness any more. Could it be otherwise? The
true legacy of the Master could never be less than joy this sublime
and silent joy of Being, untroubled by the waves of the
surrounding illusory world or maya. This was his peace which
he bequeathed to us.

Later came letters from devotees from other continents.
My distant friends gave their own accounts of how the tragic
news affected them. They tried their best to console
themselves and me, saying that the physical departure of the
Master could not break our spiritual link with him. And yet
the ink in the last paragraphs of such letters was often blurred
as from fallen tears.

It is said that love was the force that created the Universe.
Perhaps it is. But to me the force of such unselfish love as his, is
just that power that purifies our hearts, when all other methods
prove useless. No occult training nor any other method can
give the disciple the true peace which the Master gives.

Sri Maharshi was a centre of love such as this, to his
disciples. He left us his love and where else in the world could

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be found a purifying power such as this to bring peace to our
hearts?

The anniversaries of the mahasamadhi of Sri Bhagavan
will come one after another and one year will see the last one
for me on this earth. But at the last moment he will be with me,
as with every one of you who knew him, if you keep to the end,
his legacy of love.

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Bhagavan is
Everywhere

S.G. Devaraj

I HAD SEEN Bhagavan's pictures and heard about him, but
was not particularly drawn to him until 1975. One afternoon
in September of that year in a busy street in an American city, I
saw a man walking ahead of me with a bag on his back on which
the Sankskrit word AUM was embroidered. Prompted to talk to
this man, I invited him to have a cup of tea in a nearby restaurant.
I asked him how it happened that his bag bore the Sanskrit word
AUM. He opened the bag and took out the book Talks with Sri
Ramana Maharshi and a few other books about the Maharshi.
We talked for a while and this north American told me, "I was an
ordinary person like the rest here in this country. I had a job and
a good income, a car and friends and relatives. Everything was
OK but I was worried about my possessions being stolen and I
had to make sure that my apartment was properly locked. I was
worried all the time about losing my possessions. Somehow I got
some books about Bhagavan and read them and then things started
changing. Now this bag is all I have. I do not have a place I call
mine. I do not have a job. If I need money I work for a few
hours or for a day and what I earn could get a meal with no
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Bhagavan. I keep reading them again and again, but each time I
learn something new."

It was this strange encounter with an unknown person in
a city far away from Arunachala, who gave up all his possessions
except the bag on his back, that prompted me to make a trip to
Bhagavan's Ashram. We reached the Ashram around 3p.m. on
the 25th anniversary of his mahanirvana. Putting our bedding
and luggage in a room and getting a copy of the Ashram
schedule, we went up the Hill to Skandashram, drank the spring
water, spent a few minutes in the room there and returned in
time for the evening meal at the Ashram. During our 1979
visit, my daughter, looking at Bhagavan's picture in the old
meditation hall and said to her mother, "Amma, I see light in
those eyes". In April of 1982, I was planning to visit India to
bring my family back to the US to join me. In the same city
where I met the strange person who gave up all his possessions
except the bag on his back, circumstances brought me into
contact with another American just a couple of days before I
was to start my trip to India. My new friend, learning of my
trip to India, wanted me to go to Tiruvannamalai and meet his
friends (whom he named) in the Ashram!

This encounter with a total stranger was for me a blessing
and a welcome to this home by Bhagavan Himself. Since the
first trip in 1976, Sri Bhagavan made it possible for me to come
to his feet no less than six times. Not only that, he made it
possible for me to go to Madurai and spend some time in the
spot where he had his realisation. What I was at the time of my
first trip and what I am now, only I know and he knows. At
present I am far, far away, physically, but again and again he
makes his presence felt in innumerable ways. HE IS
EVERYWHERE.

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Bhagavan Sri Ramana
is Personally
Present Here

Swatantra

(Sri Bhagavan is very much alive! His continued
Presence at Sri Ramanasramam is sure to be felt by sincere
seekers of Truth, stresses the author of this article.)

BHAGAVAN SRI RAMANA is personally present here. To
demand proof is like wanting proof that the sun is shining
overhead. His presence is known or 'seen' by those with eyes to
see. For others even a positive proof would be useless.

If a few phenomenal incidents are cited to prove his
personal presence here, the logical mind may well dismiss them
all as too fantastic or merely imagination. A man of faith could
accept the facts on hearing them but would that instill
conviction of Sri Ramana's presence as a living reality?

For those who come to visit Sri Ramanasramam, I would
like to offer my advice. Please do not come like a tourist merely
with an idea that you are going to sight — see an Ashram. Even
if it bears the name of one of the greatest Rishis of modern
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at various shrines, receiving prasadam and vibhuti only to go
back satisfied that you have 'done' with another holy place.

Of course, visiting holy places does have great effect, but
that in itself is not enough. It may be enough for the uninitiated,
but seekers of the Truth require a sense of holy presence, such as
can be experienced at Sri Ramanasramam.lt is a fact that
Bhagavan is here.

Towards the end of his bodily manifestation, he said, "They
say that I am going, but where can I go? I am here".

Once when someone wrote a booklet criticising Sri
Ramanasramam, Sri Bhagavan remarked that the author had
done a great service to the cause of Truth. When asked for an
explanation, he said that this book would keep away the insincere
and superficial people and only the sincere Truth-seekers would
continue to come. In the same way the Maharshi himself has
done a great service to the cause of Truth by withdrawing himself
from the physical plane. He has made himself unavailable to
the worldly eye, while to the seeker with spiritual sight his living
presence is very much here.

Om Namo Bhagavathe Sri Ramanaya!

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How 1 Came to
Bhagavan

Muhammad Abdulla

I WAS BROUGHT UP in rather religious surroundings and
grew up a religious man. Later when I went to college and
abroad my outlook changed. I became an agnostic if not a
downright atheist. This condition lasted till my late thirties. All
this time, off and on, I tried to regain my faith but to no avail.
Somehow the idea of an anthropomorphic God did not appeal
to me. I could not see any reason why God created the world.
If He wanted to prove Himself to Himself, it seemed rather a
poor reason. To create the world as a puppet show and enjoy it
as a spectator also seemed ungodly and rather cruel.

Many questions troubled me. What is God? What is life?
What is it all about? Scriptures did not satisfy me for they demanded
faith to begin with, which I did not have. I studied psychology but
there was nothing beyond the unconscious mind. I turned to
dialectical materialism but then again I found that its adherents
were at loggerheads on trivialities. Turning to existentialism, I found
it too morbid and depressing. Finally I turned to metaphysics and
mysticism and that is where luck favoured me.

While I was searching for a clue to my problem, by chance
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of Day by Day with Bhagavan. I was not particularly interested
when I started reading it, but as I progressed my indifference
gave way to astonishment. Well, here at last there was someone
who was reaching me. I read on with great enthusiasm and
finished the book with a thirst for more. I placed an order to
the Ashram Book Depot for all the books about Bhagavan. I
had never waited more eagerly for anything than the book
parcel. When it came I studied everything from cover to cover
drinking deep from this source of true wisdom.

For a couple of months, I was immersed heart and soul in
the teachings of Bhagavan. Here at last, all my questions were
answered, all my doubts cleared. When I had imbibed his
teaching, I planned a visit to the Ashram.

Now I must say a word or two about the visits to the
Ashram. There is something in coming to and going from
this place. Some mysterious force takes charge of you the
moment you decide to go there. I met by chance an old
devotee, Prof. K. Swaminathan, who is in charge of Ramana
Kendra in New Delhi. He encouraged me to make the visit.
I left New Delhi and arrived at the Ashram two days later. It
was 2.30 p.m. I sat in the meditation hall facing Bhagavan's
picture. He seemed so much alive. Such a kind and
benevolent smile! I could not move my eyes away from him.
I had no idea of the time when suddenly the dinner gong
was sounded at 7.30 p.m.

I lived in the Ashram for a month, and meditated morning
and evening. I found to my surprise that the problems which
seemed monumental gradually receded to the background. The
past became shadowy. Yesterday's desires made no sense and made
me laugh. Apprehension for the future dwindled to nothing. I
felt happy.

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A month was quickly over and I travelled back with a
heavy heart. I had only one prayer when I took leave of
Bhagavan. I wanted to come again. I also prayed to Bhagavan
to help me maintain the peace I had found for a long time.
Both my prayers were answered. I came again and again.
Bhagavan never forsook me in my hours of trials. I never let go
of Bhagavan nor does he let go of me!

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Ramana's Universal
Philosophy

Dr. M. Hafiz Syed

I

Ramana Maharshi's Spiritual
Philosophy of Life

IT IS ONLY the sage who has realised the Truth Eternal that
keeps the flame of spiritual wisdom alive. He is the perennial
source of inspiration to the earnest aspirant on the path of
spiritual development. Without him the world would not have
had the light of the spirit to dispel the darkness of material
existence.

Of such wisdom is sage Sri Ramana, who embodies in
himself the Truth that is beyond time and space, who stands
supreme in the realm of spiritual attainment and who is the
true benefactor of the whole of the human race. In him we see
that glorious realization which at once, includes and transcends
all religions through the revelation that the only true religion is
the religion of the heart. His teachings give the clearest expression
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which, every earnest aspirant treads the path of inward spiritual
development. To such an aspirant the Maharishi's teachings are
a revelation of that Truth Eternal which ever resides as one and
is identical with himself.

The nature of the world — Reality — whatever it be —
is no hurdle to one who follows the path pointed out by the
Maharshi. His insistence is not so much on deciding the
unreality of the world as on discovering the Self. In one of
the books published some years ago by the Ashram, the
Maharshi brings out his point of view in a striking manner in
reply to a question as to whether the objectivity of the world
is not an indisputable fact of sense perception and whether
this objectivity is not itself proof positive of the world's reality.
Here is the Maharshi's answer: "The world, which you say is
real is really mocking you for seeking to prove its reality, while
of your own Reality you are ignorant." Even if we are of the
world, the Maharshi wants us to see things in their proper
perspective. Discussions about the Reality or otherwise of the
world, should be of secondary importance to the earnest seeker
whose one aim should be to seek the Self, the T of which he
can have the least doubt and the quest whereof, can alone lead
him to the one that alone is real.

That Reality requires no proof, for it is Self-evident. It
requires no proof, for it is Self-existing (Svata-siddbd) . It requires
no scholarly exposition, for it is Self-luminous (Svaprakasd) .
What is required is not the proof or refutation of anything, but
the poise in and the realization of the ever-existent, unchanging
Self or the Atman.

It would be interesting to note in this connection what the
Maharshi says regarding the true nature of sleep, for this will give
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relation to life as we know it. One is not really enveloped in
ignorance, says the Maharshi, when one is actually asleep. Sleep
is not a state of non- existence nor mere blankness as we suppose
it to be. It is a pure state. And what we call the waking
consciousness does not necessarily contribute to true knowledge.

It is really a state of ignorance, because as a rule we are
forgetful or unaware of our real nature. The Maharshi uses a
striking paradox in order to impress on us the all-comprehensive
nature of pure consciousness. He says, "There is full awareness
in sleep and total ignorance in the waking state," and adds,
"The Self is beyond both knowledge and ignorance." To put it
briefly, sleep, dream and waking are only different modes of
our higher consciousness.

ETERNAL AWARENESS: What then is realization? What
is the relation between our life experience of ignorant existence
and the state of realization which is all-embracing? The
Maharshi's exposition on this point is most illuminating.
"Realization", he declares, "is here and now. It is nothing to be
gained afresh. The Self is not 'reached', you are the Self."

Most of us are prone to think we have not yet realized the
Self, that we are ajnanis, but the Maharshi reminds us that this
is merely our own thought about ourselves and that is the real
obstacle in the way. It is not some objectified Self that is declared
to be eternal. Our awareness of the Self is itself eternal. They
are one and identical. In the words of the Maharshi there has
never been a time when we are not aware of That, the Self. It is
the never-ending, timeless state and it is in It that we live, move
and have our being.

CLEAREST DEFINITION: Elucidating further the same
point Maharshi says that the happiness the mind feels when
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inherent to the Self. On these occasions it is verily into the Self
that one dives. But the association of ideas is responsible for
foisting the inherent bliss in us on things extraneous, because
the plugging into the Self was unconsciously done. If you do so
consciously with the conviction that comes from experience
that you are identical with that happiness which is verily the
Self, the only Reality, you call it realization. That is the most
realistic definition of Self-realization, and shorn of all mystery
it is the clearest one you can have on the subject.

A SHACKLE: Answering the question from the particular
point of view of the individual who has to do some specific
work, the Maharshi reiterates in his own words what Sri Krishna
taught five thousand years ago. "Work performed with
attachment is a shackle, whereas work done with detachment
does not affect the doer who may be said to be in solitude, even
while he is free from attachment and has no desire."

Just as renunciation is not retirement into the forest, solitude
is not seclusion from life. The Maharshi considers that solitude is
related more to the inner working of the mind of man than in
keeping away from the active life of the outer world. Solitude is of
the mind, not of the body. It is the attitude of supreme serenity
with which one views the flow of events in life and does not signify
from the highest point of view living in seclusion and retirement.

One of the finest definitions of renunciation ever given is
vouchsafed to us by the Maharshi, who says, "The Self alone is
permanent. Renunciation is the non-identification of the Self
with the not-Self. When the ignorance which identifies the Self
with the not-Self is removed, the latter ceases to exist and that is
true renunciation."

This definition, so simple yet so profound, is at once concise
and comprehensive.

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One enquirer was puzzled as to what would be the effect
of his daily actions, right or wrong, in afterlife. The ideal Vedantin
that the Maharshi is, his answer is pregnant with meaning,
revealing to us an insight into the philosophy of life as taught
by the ancient rishis. "The Self of man has no beginning and
no end. It is never born and It never dies." If this truth is
accepted, no question of birth and death can arise. What is
subject to birth and death is the earthly vesture of man, whose
essential being is deathless.

WHAT IS MIND? To the aspirant on the path of
Self-realization, there is no question so puzzling and so vital as
that of mind control. Many are the methods and remedies
suggested and most of them have been practised with varying
degrees of success, but Maharshi's solution to this age-long problem
is all his own and sheds new light on this apparently hopeless
problem. The Maharshi says that, as a matter of fact, there is no
mind to control, if the Self is realized. The Self shines when the
mind vanishes. In the realized man the mind may be active or
inactive, but the Self alone exists. For the mind, body and the
world are not separate from the Self. They cannot remain apart
from the Self. Can they be other than the Self? When one is
aware of the Self and has fully established oneself in it, one has no
reason to worry about these shadows which cannot in the least
affect the serenity of the immutable Self.

In order to have a clear grasp of the Maharshi's unique
teachings on this point, the question has to be considered in a
little more detail. According to him the problem of mind control
ceases to be a problem when the mind seeks its source within.

What is mind? Does it exist apart from the thoughts that
come and go? What is the T with which the mind identifies
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the endeavour, made here and now, to gather in and converge
the mind at its source, to attune it to the Self which is the support
of all thought activity. This is the most natural, direct and
immediately effective method of controlling the mind. Every
other conceivable practice has this fundamental defect, namely
it tries to control the mind by sustaining it. These other methods
of practice retain the veil of the mind and can therefore never
reveal the Self. When one dives within, seeking the source of
thought and has a glimpse of the Self, one knows the true nature
of the mind as nothing but an unreal manifestation of the one
Reality, the Self.

NO SUCH THING: The two essential aspects of this
question of mind control, which the Maharshi seeks to impress
on the earnest aspirant are (1) that from the true and ultimate
point of view of the one Reality — the Self — there is no such
thing as the mind, and (2) that the endeavour to control the
mind on the contrary assumption that there is really something
called the mind to be controlled, is bound to prove futile.
Because the mind, considered as real, will never allow itself to
be controlled, just as the thief will never allow himself to be
caught by turning himself into a policeman. Under the
pretentious garb of a policeman, he would elude his own arrest
all the more effectively. Even so, if we give the mind the garb of
reality we would never be able to control it. The Maharshi,
therefore, expects us to disregard all limitations, which pertain
only to the mind, and plunge headlong into a dauntless search
for the real Self in us. When our attention is fully riveted to the
Self as the source of thought, the mind is subdued and controlled
quite naturally and without any effort.

This in short, is the direct and right way to what is called
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of mind deserves fullest consideration and sincere efforts if we
have failed in trying other methods of mind control.

II

Testimony of Islam to Bhagavan's
Life and Teachings

THE GREATNESS OF Ramana Maharshi's unique life and
teachings consists in the fact that he was unacquainted with the
scriptures of the world and yet after his Self-realization the
knowledge of Infinity was open to him. To quote a line from
Patanjali's Yoga Sutra, "When an unlettered person's mind is made
one-pointed, the inner and outer knowledge is revealed to him.
He comes in direct contact with the supreme Source of his Being."
The devotees of Ramana are acquainted with his simple
and uneventful life. He lived a plain life to the end. He was
without any pose or pretensions. Not only that he was a great
teacher and lived in a high plane of his own but he was utterly
human in every day life. He had love and sympathy for every
living creature as a true Brahmin should have. He mended his
own stick, took part in the cutting of vegetables and cooking
some food now and then. His sense of unity and equality of
mankind was so great that he never accepted anything prepared
for himself but had it distributed equally to all persons present
in his hall. Men of every race, caste, creed, sex, high and low,
rich and poor, visited him and to him all were alike. He never
showed any preference to men of position or looked down
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So was the Prophet of Islam. He believed in the brotherhood
of man and treated all men alike. He used to say to his followers,
Ana mislakum, that is "I am one like you". To him Jew or gentile,
Muslim or non- Muslim were alike. Whenever a non-Muslim
visited him when he was sitting in his mosque engaged in prayer
he would at once rise up from his seat, spread his own cloak and
seat him respectfully. He mended his own shoes and patched up
his own worn-out garment. Nothing was left in his household
for the morrow. All that he received during the course of a day
was distributed to the needy and the poor. He often said Alfaqr
fakhri, that is to say, 'poverty is my pride'. He took keen interest
in the welfare of human beings and used to retire to a cave for
spiritual meditation. Thus we see there is a close similarity between
his life and that of our beloved Maharshi.

We all know how Maharshi repeatedly enjoined us to
surrender completely to God's will and be at peace with all,
sink and bury our differences. In fact once he said, "Burn them
and turn to the abode of peace, your own heart." Islam is derived
from the root Salama which means peace, tranquillity and finally
surrender of oneself to the Divine. 'The word Islam', says
Deutch, a German writer, 'implies absolute submission to God's
will'. Hazrat Ali, the fourth Caliph, the son-in-law of the Prophet
said that "No one can have any conception of God unless he
knows his own Self." Thus confirming Bhagavan's repeated
teachings in all his well known books.

One mystic poet says, "What I have done with myself, no
one has ever done it for himself. Within my own house (body)
I have lost the owner of my house (that is my own self)". Does
it not bear testimony to Bhagavan's inspiring words?

Further it is said in the Quran, "We are of God and to
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indicates whence we came and whither we are going. Man's
inherent divinity is expressed in these unequivocal words of the
Quran. "God breathed His own breath in the nostril of man.
Man was created after the face of God."

In the Ghaznavids and Early Saljuq's period there was a
great philosopher-poet Nasir-e-Khusrau, who was acknowledged
as a mystic of a great order. In his poem Raushani nama on
Self-knowledge he writes, bearing full testimony to Bhagavan's
well-known teachings:

Know yourself; for if you know yourself

You will also know the difference between good and evil.

First become intimate with your own inner being,

Then become the commander of the whole company.

When you know yourself, you know everything;

When you know that, you have escaped from all evil.
You don't know your own worth, because you are like this;

You see God Himself, if you see yourself.

The nine spheres and seven stars are your slaves,

Yet you are your body's servant: that's a pity!

Don't be fettered to bestial pleasures

If you are a seeker of that supreme blessedness.

Be a real man and abandon sleep and fasting;

Pilgrim-like, make a journey into yourself.

What are sleep and fasting? The business of brute beasts;

It is by knowledge that your soul subsists.

Be wakeful for once: how long have you been sleeping?

Look at yourself: you're something wonderful enough.

Reflect now; regard from where you've come

And why you are now in this prison.

Break the cage; depart to your own celestial station;

Be an idol-breaker like Abraham, Azar's son.

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You were created after this fashion for a purpose;

It will be a shame, if you neglect that purpose.

It is a shame for an angel to take orders from a devil;

It is a shame for a king to be servant to a doorkeeper.

Why must Jesus be blind?

It is wrong for Karun to be one-eyed.

You have snakes coiled over your treasure:

Kill those snakes, and be free of pain.

But if you feed them, you will become fearful,

You'll have nothing of that boundless treasure.

There's a treasure in your house, yet you're a beggar;

You have a salve in your hand, yet your heart is wounded.

You are asleep; how will you reach journey's end?

You weave charms, and are heedless of the treasure. Quick,
break the charm and take the treasure:

Take a little pain, and rid yourself of pain.

Jalaluddin Rumi, prince of mystics, quoted by R.A.
Nicholson in his Rumi, Poet and Mystic, says:

Jalalu'1-Din was asked, "Is there any way to God nearer
than the ritual prayer?" "No," he replied, "but prayer does not
consist in forms alone. Formal prayer has a beginning and an
end, like all forms and bodies and everything that partakes of
speech and sound; but the soul is unconditioned and infinite:
it has neither beginning nor end. The prophets have shown
the true nature of prayer. . . . Prayer is the drowning and
unconsciousness of the soul, so that all these forms remain
without. At that time there is no room even for Gabriel, who
is pure spirit. One may say that the man who prays in this
fashion is exempt from all religious obligations, since he is
deprived of his reason. Absorption in the Divine Unity is the
soul of prayer."

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"When a fly is plunged in honey, all the members of its
body are reduced to the same condition, and it does not move.
Similarly the term istighraq (absorption in God) is applied to
one who has no conscious existence or initiative or movement.
Any action that proceeds from him is not his own. If he is still
struggling in the water, or if he cries out, 'Oh, I am drowning',
he is not said to be in the state of absorption. This is what is
signified by the words Andl-Haqq, 'I am God'. People imagine
that it is a presumptuous claim, whereas it is really a
presumptuous claim to say Andl-'abd,' 'I am the slave of God'
and 'Andl-Haqq,' 'I am God', is an expression of great humility.
The man who says,Andl-abd 'I am the slave of God,' affirms
two existences, his own and God's, but he that says Andl-Haqq
I am God' has made himself non-existent and has given himself
up and says, 'I am God,' i.e. 'I am naught, He is all: there is no
being but God's.' This is the extreme of humility and self-
abasement."

These two quotations bear fullest and clearest testimony
to Bhagavan's teachings as embodied in his books Self Enquiry
and Who am I? and others.

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Bhagavan Sri Ramana,
The Light Divine

Dr. T.M.P. Mahadevan

(Excerpts from a speech delivered on a Jayanti

IT IS DIFFICULT to speak on Advaita. It is more difficult to
speak about Bhagavan. I am not going to speak as an
intellectual, nor as a professor of philosophy, I am going to speak
to you as one would to his brothers and sisters. I think I will
succeed in expressing at least a little of what I feel about Bhagavan
only when you forget my personality totally. It is only when the
speaker's individuality completely recedes into the background
that the Advaita can be understood at all; and Bhagavan Ramana,
as I am fond of saying, is pre-eminently an Advaita avatara.

Today is the most blessed day for us, who by a stroke of
good fortune, have come under the protective wings of our
Bhagavan. The ardra day has been an auspicious day in the Hindu
calendar. But it has been made more auspicious because Bhagavan
chose to be born on that day, and this year his birthday has come
on the eve of another holy day, Makarasankranti. We will be able
to appreciate the greatness and grandeur of the life and teachings
of Bhagavan if we ponder for a moment over the significance of
these two great festivals — Ardra and Makarasankranti. Ardra
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very name Andhaka means the 'dark' and the 'blind', and
'Andhaka' is an allegory for ajnana, avidya, ignorance or maya.
It was on the Ardra day that the Lord vanquished Andhaka in
order that the world may be saved, in order that humanity may
see the face of goodness. The myth of the conquest of Andhaka
signifies the victory of the forces of light over those of darkness,
of vidya over avidya, of the supreme good over all that is evil.

After killing the demon Andhaka the Lord danced his
cosmic dance, the expression of supreme joy, which alone sustains
the Universe. It is in commemoration of this great event that
the image of Nataraja is taken out of the temples in procession
on the Ardra day. In the year 1879, on this auspicious day the
Nataraja image of the temple atTiruchuli was being taken into
the temple at the conclusion of the procession. It was at this
moment that Bhagavan Ramana was born. So, it is significant
that our Lord chose the auspicious day of Ardra for making His
advent into this world.

Makarasankranti, again, marks the dawn of the day of the
gods — the beginning of Uttarayana. Students of the Mahabharata
will remember that the great Bhishma lay on a bed of arrows
awaiting the dawn of Uttarayana. Today the gods are awake. They
have begun to have another bright day. The month proceeding
Makarasankranti is also a holy month for us Hindus. The month
of Mirgasirsha is to the gods what the Brahmamuhurtam is to
humans. Therefore we prepare ourselves during this month for the
dawn of the divine day by rising early in the morning and singing
the praise of the Lord. In the south, especially in the Tamil area,
even today we find groups of devotees rising early in the morning
and singing the praise of God in the villages and towns, singing
and awakening those who slumber and who will not otherwise
hear the call of the divine.

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The drama of bridal mysticism as portrayed in the
Tiruppavai of Andal and the Tiruvembavai of Manikavachakar
is the great drama of the communion of the soul with God. And
it is this consummation that is sought to be achieved by observing
the vrata (penanace) in the month of Mirgasirsha. This year after
that preparatory penance we have today entered the path of light,
the path of divine light. It is supremely significant that we should
be thinking of Bhagavan 'the light divine'. Bhagavan Ramana is
the supreme and eternal light, which alone can save us from
degradation and spiritual death. I am reminded of a mantra of
the Isavasya Upanishad which describes in graphic terms the lot
of those who are killers of the soul.

Those who are slayers of the Self go to demoniac worlds
of blinding darkness enveloped in ajnana. If we do not want to
share the fate of the soul-killers, we must turn our eyes away
from those regions of blinding darkness and take to the straight
path of spiritual light emblazoned before us by Bhagavan Sri
Ramana. So on this auspicious occasion may we meditate on
Bhagavan as the light divine.

The symbol of light as representing spiritual illumination
is as universal as religion is. In mysticism and in spirituality
there is no better symbol of the spirit than light. In Christianity
the symbol of light is employed to denote the heavenly Father
and the heavenly Son equally. One of the pictures that impressed
me when I was young and continues to fascinate me is that of
Jesus Christ holding a lighted lantern in one hand and knocking
at the door of a house with the other, bearing the inscription,
"Behold the light of the world."

The Buddha has been described as the light of Asia.
Zoroastrianism thinks of God as the luminous Fire. The Konarak
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devotion of the Hindu for the symbol of the sun. One finds
there various aspects of the solar principle expressed in beautiful
sculpture. Sun-worship is not foreign to India. The sun cult
(Saura-mata) is one of the oldest forms of Hinduism. In the
mantras of Rig Veda we have different aspects of the solar
principle adored and we come across names of various solar
deities. The Gayatri mantra signifies a grand mode of meditating
on the principle that is behind the sun. The adored principle is
the worshipful splendour of the solar deity.

The supreme splendour of the solar deity we invoke and
meditate on every day so that our intellects may be purified
thereby. To characterise the Vedic deities as the personification
of natural phenomena is not to understand what the ancient
seers and saints saw in their inward turned vision. It was not the
physical phenomena that they worshipped, but the spiritual
principle behind nature. They also discovered that the same
principle pervades everything, objective as well as subjective.
Between the external and the internal there is correspondence
in principle. For instance, all Upanishadic text identifies the
god that is in the sun with the principle that is in the right eye.
What is in the macrocosm is identical with what is in the
microcosm. We find this truth expressed exquisitely in the form
of a prayer in the Isavasya Upanishad.

No poet of mean order, no worshipper of the natural
phenomena could have composed this grand verse. The spiritual
principle behind the solar phenomena is recognised here, and it
is this spiritual principle that is prayed to in this verse. Consider
the grand closing of this mantra, where there is a Mahavakya
uttered: yosavasan purusah soham asmi. The principle that is
yonder, miles and miles away, in the sun is the same principle
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significance of sun-worship expressed. Then we are told that the
consummation of such worship is the realisation of non-duality,
the realisation of abedha, non-difference. The symbol of light is
not an empty symbol. It is sublime in its significance. Sri Ramana
represents the supreme light of spirituality which knows no
distinction and which knows no difference.

The birth of Bhagavan is itself a manifestation of that
spiritual illumination. In order to lift us to the spiritual heights,
in order to attract us to the supreme goal, he incarnated himself
as a human being, and lived and moved in our midst. We know
that Bhagavan as a student did not belong to the extraordinary
type. He was not brilliant, nor even studious. But how this
ordinary lad received illumination all of a sudden cannot be
explained. How this could happen passes our understanding.
The little candle of our intellect cannot illumine the self-effulgent
sun. To attempt to understand the secret of Bhagavan's life is
bound to end in failure. All that we can do is to meditate on
him as the light eternal, the light supreme.

Look at another marvel. Some relative of his who came to his
uncle's house in Madurai one day said that he was coming from
Arunachala. But what Arurnachala was, what it meant, our
Bhagavan did not know. Yet this word acted like a magic spell and
drew him out of his uncle's house to that Hill which is no ordinary
Hill, but which is the Hill of spiritual light. The Hill which represents
spiritual light drew unto itself the light that was born in Tiruchuli.
This light travelled to 'The Hill of the Holy Beacon', and what
appeared as two lights were recognised to be one.

The story about Tiruvannamalai (Arunachala) is itself
significant, as are the festivals connected with Bhagavan's birth.
The Creator Brahma and the Protector Vishnu are said to have
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to teach them a lesson Lord Siva appeared as a column of light
without top or bottom. Brahma and Vishnu could not discover
the limits of the light-column. It is this limitless light that
Arunachala represents. Bhagavan found in Arunachala the light
supreme, which he himself is.

Bhagavan did not leave the precincts of Arunachala after
his arrival there. Why should he go anywhere? When the world
was ready to go to him, why should he go to the world? The
world should go to the guru. There is no use of the guru going
to the world. Because if he goes to the world he would only be
misunderstood. Even Sri Krishna had to confess that he was
not being understood by the people.

"Because I have taken birth as a human being people do
not understand me. On the contrary, they scold me, they abuse
me, they revile me."

The world knows only to revile things! Even Arjuna,
Krishna's own cousin and dear disciple, could not understand
the magnificence of the supreme Master. The Lord had to reveal
his cosmic form in order to drive sense into Arjuna's head.
Arjuna repents for his past behaviour and says, "Out of familiarity
and not knowing your greatness, I have called you, ' O Krishna,

Yadava, O friend.' Please forgive me for whatever disrespect

1 have shown towards you." Because of his easy accessibility Sri
Krishna was not understood by the world. The world seldom
understands the guru who goes to it.

It is only when the world has learned to go to the guru
that the world will feel inclined to listen to him. Sri Ramana
had no need of going to the world whilst he lived in Arunachala.
The world, even the western world went to him. Why did this
happen? Bhagavan was the light transcendent which cannot be
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be attracted to it tomorrow. Light does not require darkness for
making it acceptable. Only darkness does. You need not paint
light because it is all luminous. Without advertisement, without
any drum beating, without any concerted propaganda, the light
that was at Arunachala spread far and wide, and it is on that
light that we should meditate. We saw before our eyes the grand
manifestation of that majestic light. We saw the grandeur of
that spiritual light before us. If we could not see it, it was our
fault, and not that of the light. In order that you may understand
light, the light need not speak to us. It is only when there is
darkness that you require the help of speech in order to identify
the things around, but when there is light and when your eyes
are all right you need not be told what is around you.

And so, for the most part, Bhagavan Ramana kept silent.
Silence was his mode of communication. Today people all over
the world are striving hard to find out new means of
communication. But in spite of the many devices, communication
becomes more and more difficult. Here, without any verbal
communication for the most part, the blessed Lord, seated or
reclining on his couch in the corner of the old hall in the Ashram,
was communicating not only with those who sat before him, but
with devotees who were even far away. Though most of us may
not understand for the moment the language of silence, we are
sure to understand it eventually. Our Bhagavan did not move
out of Arunachala and seldom did he speak. Even his speech was
of a quality that is far different from the speech that we are
accustomed to. His speech was scarcely distinguishable from
silence. Some of us had opportunities of watching the grand silent
drama that was being enacted constantly in that auspicious hall.
People came, strangers came with long lists of questions to test
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doubts forgot all about them. They forgot to question because
there was no need to ask. What they had come for had already
been fulfilled.

The most remarkable feature about Bhagavan's form was
his eyes, extremely penetrating and profoundly fascinating.
Once you had come within the range of those beaming eyes,
there was no need for any other sadhana. Once those eyes had
rested upon you there was no more fear or worry for you. The
very first European to see our Master, Humphrys, who sent
reports to a magazine in England, has made this statement:
'For half an hour I looked into the Maharshi's eyes, which never
changed their expression of deep contemplation.' This was
written as early as in 1911. Those of us who met the Master
much later could testify that the brightness of those eyes did
not diminish at all, not even on the last day of the his earthly
existence.

Last summer in Honolulu some American professors of
philosophy happened to look at the picture of the Master that
appears as frontispiece in the book Ramana Maharshi and His
Philosophy of Existence. Many of them wanted to have copies of
this book even before reading what was written there, just because
the face of the Master fascinated them, enraptured them. All of
them, without exception remarked about the remarkable eyes.
From those eyes, light shone forth from which no one could
escape. Bhagavan out of compassion for us, who cannot
understand the language of silence, did sometimes speak, but
not for the sake of speaking as most of us do. He wrote not for
the sake of writing, because he was no writer at all. He spoke
and wrote because he wanted to save us.

There is a fine sloka in the Aankaradigvijaya where
Vidyaranya offers obeisance to Dakshinamuthi and Sankara:

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"Rising from his seat beneath the banyan tree, and breaking
His silence, Dakshinamurti, out of compassion for humanity
which is being burnt in the forest-fire of samsara, took form as
Sankara who moved about constantly and spoke profusely. The
silent Dakshinamurti became the speaking Sankara. The
unmoving began to move."

Bhagavan Ramana struck a compromise between the
silence and stasis of Dakshinmurti and the speech and movement
of Sankara, because today we require the message of both atchara
and chara, mauna and vak. Bhagavan Ramana spoke and wrote
in order that we may understand him. The path of light that he
has expounded in what he has written and spoken is the same
path of light which has come from the ancient sages and seers
of the Upanishads. The light ofjnana is what we ought to strive
for and gain. It is this which can save us. And this is the central
message of Bhagavan, the light divine. What is this light? It is
the light ofAtma vichara, the light of Self-enquiry This light
can be gained by anyone, any human being, no matter what
his beliefs are, or where he is born. The Upanishads set forth
various modes of Self-enquiry Only our Bhagavan has made
Self-enquiry easy for us, and has simplified it so that all of us
can adopt it and follow it and gain what it alone can give us.
And also he has given us a technique by which we can register
quick results. He rediscovered for us the heart that is on the
right side of the chest. By fixing the attention on this heart, the
spiritual heart, the path of enquiry, a discovery made in Vedanta,
our Bhagavan has given to us out of compassion.

It will be interesting to note that the great Upanishadic
sage Yagnavalkya in one of his teachings to King Janaka employs
the significant phrase, 'hrdyantar-jyotih', in describing the self—
the Atma, the light which is within the heart.

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One day when the Sage walked into the king's court, the
king put to him a question. It was: "What serves as the light for
man?

The Master began by saying that "the sun is light for man."
"During daytime it is by the light of the sun that we work".

Then the king asked, 'When the sun has set, what is man's
light?" "The moon", came the answer. "We do work with the
help of the light of the moon; when the sun has set, the moon
acts as the light for us."

"But what happens during the absence of moonlight?"
asked the king. "What serves as the light then?" "Fire!" said the
master. "You may light a fire, you may burn a lamp and work
with the help of the light it gives."

"And when fire goes out, what has one to do? There is no
sun, moon, or fire!"

"In such a situation speech can serve as the principle of
illumination. For instance, when we go through a dark region
where no light is there, we clap our hands or we speak in order
to hearten those who may follow us", continued the master.

"When speech, sir, is also not there, what serves as light for
man?

The final reply of the Master came, "The Self. The Self,
Self luminous light."

What happens to us when we dream? There is not the
external sun, nor the moon, nor fire, nor even speech, and yet
there is experience. The Self of the dream state is therefore called
taijasa (made of light) . In the absence of any light there is
experience, there is luminosity. The Self is of the nature of
consciousness. It is that which shines in the recesses of one's
heart. This is the great teaching of Vedanta and Bhagavan. So
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It is only when we turn to the light of the heart that we shall be
saved. The great danger that confronts the modern man is that
he believes in the omnipotence of the light of the mind. He
scans space. He wants to travel through it. He wants to know
what is on the other side of the moon. He wants to colonise the
planets and the stars if he can, all with the help of this light of
the mind. He has not opened the door of his heart, and so he is
threatened by what he has created by the light of his mind.
What man has created now dominates him like a Frankenstein
and threatens him with utter destruction.

What does Bhagavan teach us? He does not want us to
shut out the light of the mind. "With the help of the mind, he
says, "let us enter the region of the heart." When you turn to
the light of the heart, you will know that the mind shines only
by borrowed light. The original light is there. It is that resplendent
light which is the supreme Self. It is this which is called
Hrdyantar-jyotih (light within the heart).

Bhagavan found its location on the right side of the chest.
It is not the physical heart which is on the left side, it is the
spiritual heart. Not that it is there physically. The surgeon's knife
cannot exhibit it. It is the spiritual heart which Bhagavan Ramana
located on the right side of the chest, so that we may meditate
on it and gain progress in the path ofjnana. How should one
enquire? Bhagavan has given us a wondrous method. It is the
simple enquiry of 'Who am I?' Bhagavan Ramana held that the
word 'Aham', is the most sacred of all mantras, more sacred
even than the Pranava itself. It is more efficacious than all the
mantras. This again is a true discovery of Bhagavan. It is true
that the Pranava is the sound-symbol of Brahman. But what is
easier to understand is l Abam'(l). You may deny everything else
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Aham is often meant to signify the non-Self. Even the T
thought is not the real T. It is the pseudo T. In order to
overcome this, it has to be used in a judicious way. One must
trace the T thought to its source. When this is done, with
constant and persistent inquiry, the distinction between the
thinker and thought is found to vanish and then the Self which
is pure experience will be realised. This path is the same as the
asparsa-yoga. taught by Gaudapada. It is the path that leads to
non-duality, the path which takes us away from the non-Self.
Ordinarily, man runs along the mental current, goes out through
the sense-channels and gets lost in the external world. But one
in a million, the hero, dhira as the Upanishads call him, has the
strength to go against the current, swim in the reverse direction,
and reach the source of the mental current. This is the path of
vichara which is easy and yet difficult. Seemingly easy, even a
child can pursue this course at the beginning, but he cannot
gain its end if he chooses to remain childish all the time. It is
true that anyone can take to it but he must pay the price for it.
The price is dispassion. This does not mean that one must neglect
one's duties. When sadhakas asked Bbagavan,"Is it necessary
that one should leave one's house, change the colour of one's
clothes and go to the forest," Bhagavan used to say, "No, it is
wrong to think that you will become a new man by simply
leaving home. If you go to the forest your home will haunt
you, it will follow you. Can you leave your mind behind, your
sense organs or your body? What binds you is not your family,
or home, but your mind. How to renounce the mind? To
renounce does not mean sitting in a place closing the eyes and
thinking 'I have renounced.' That is not true renunciation.
True renunciation is to become mindless. How is this to be
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with the help of the mind itself. Catch the thief with the help
of the thief. Through Atma vichara, we get to the end where
there is no mind at all. If you cannot do this, if you do not have
the strength to follow this method," says Bhagavan, "surrender
yourself to God. Absolute self-surrender is bhakti. "In Bhagavan's
hymns on Arunachala we have a glorious philosophy of
devotion. The quintessence of this philosophy is to negate
yourself in the Lord and you will find fulfilment. Let God
pervade your being then you will be saved. Even this is difficult
for many of us. We worship God with commercial spirit. We
seek earthly benefits from Him.

A sanyasin went to the palace of a king in the hope of
receiving alms. The king was engaged at the time in worshipping
his chosen deity. His prayer was, "Give me this, give me that."
The sanyasin was listening to this prayer; and after a while he
rose to leave the palace. The king came out and asked him why
he was leaving. The sanyasin said, "I came to beg but I now find
that you are a greater beggar. How can I beg of you when you
yourself beg for this and that in your private shrine?"

We go to God for gaining selfish ends. There are phalasrutis
which say 'If you recite this prayer, you will get your desires
fulfilled'. I am not condemning or criticising this, but I want
you to understand the significance of the phalasrutis. When a
phalasruti says, 'If you recite the Vishnu-sahasra namayour desires
will be fulfilled', this is only with a view to making people turn
God-ward and recite His name. But when once you have tasted
the sweetness of the name you will not care for the earthly benefits.

When you go to God therefore, what you should do is to
surrender yourself to Him completely. But this too is difficult.
And so what should one do? We must resign ourselves into the
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celebration like this. If we can surrender ourselves, especially
those of us who have seen him and have heard him speak, we
shall be saved. Even others can follow this course because he has
not gone away from us. It is not that he is no longer with us.
Even now he guides those who go to him. The reality which is
the Self shines within those who go to him. Even today he will
guide us provided that we seek his guidance.

Bhagavan has declared in two short lines the entire teaching
of Vedanta:

Ekam aksharam hrdi nirantaram,

bhasate svayam likhyate katham.

The Reality which is the Self shines within the heart always.
How can one write about it?

If we can realise within the heart the supreme Spirit, if we
can feel its presence, if we allow ourselves to be illumined by it,
we shall have no fear at all. At the commencement of the fourth
chapter of the Mandukya-kharika Gaudapada offers obeisance
to Lord Narayana, the first guru. We may offer the same
obeisance to our Bhagavan. Jnana is like akasa, the supreme
Self which is to be known through jnana is also like ether. The
various objects we see in the world as well as the souls are like
ether. Therefore, who is to know which? What is to be known
by what? The supreme realization is that there is no plurality.
True knowledge is distinctionless. That knowledge is the Self,
the Light Divine. That knowledge is Bhagavan Ramana.

May we offer our obeisance to this supreme Lord who
came to save the world and who still abides and will ever abide
with us in order to make us perfect!

May we, on this auspicious occasion, renew our faith in
our Bhagavan and pay homage to Him so that not only we, but
the entire world may be saved!

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Sri Ramana:

A Pure Channel for

a Higher Power

Paul Brunton

FORTY YEARS* have passed since I walked into his abode
and saw the Maharshi half-reclining, half-sitting on a tiger-
skin covered couch. After such a long period most memories of
the past become somewhat faded, if they do not lose their
existence altogether. But I can truthfully declare that, in his
case, nothing of the kind has happened. On the contrary, his
face, expression, figure and surroundings are as vivid now as
they were then. "What is even more important to me is that - at
least during my daily periods of meditation - the feeling of his
radiant presence is as actual and as immediate today as it was on
that first day.

So powerful an impression could not have been made,
nor continued through the numerous vicissitudes of an
incarnation which has taken me around the world, if the
Maharshi had been an ordinary yogi - much less an ordinary

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man. I have met dozens of yogis, in their Eastern and Western
varieties, and many exceptional persons. Whatever status is
assigned to him by his followers, or whatever indifference is
shown to him by others, my own position is independent and
unbiassed. It is based upon our private talks in those early days
when such things were still possible, before fame brought
crowds; upon observations of, and conversations with, those
who were around him; upon his historical record; and finally
upon my own personal experiences, whatever they are worth.

Upon all this evidence one fact is incontrovertibly clear -
that he was a pure channel for a Higher Power.

This capacity of his to put his own self-consciousness aside
and to let himself be suffused by this Power, is not to be
confounded with what is commonly called in the West,
spiritualistic mediumship. For no spirit of a departed person ever
spoke through him: on the contrary, the silence which fell upon
us at such times was both extraordinary and exquisite. No physical
phenomena of an occult kind was ever witnessed then; nothing
at all happened outwardly. But those who were not steeped too
far in materialism to recognise what was happening within him
and within themselves at the time, or those who were not
congealed too stiffly in suspicion or criticism to be passive and
sensitive intuitively, felt a distinct and strange change in the mental
atmosphere. It was uplifting and inspiring; for the time being it
pushed them out of their little selves, even if only partially.

This change came every day, and mostly during the evening
periods when the Maharshi fell into a deep contemplation. No
one dared to speak then and all conversations were brought to
an end. A grave sacredness permeated the entire scene and
evoked homage, reverence, even awe. But before the sun's
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for most of the day, the Maharshi behaved, ate and spoke like a
perfectly normal human being.

That there was some kind of a participation in a worldless
divine play during those evenings - each to the extent of his
own response - was the feeling with which some of us arose
when it all ended. That the Maharshi was the principal actor
was true enough on the visible plane. But there was something
more .

In his own teachings Sri Ramana Maharshi often quoted,
whether in association or confirmation, the writings of the first
Acharya Shankara, who lived more than a thousand years ago.
He considered them unquestionably authoritative. He even
translated some of them from one Indian language to another.

In the temple of Chingleput I interviewed His Holiness
the Shankaracharya of Kamakoti Peetam, a linear successor of
the first Guru. When the meeting was concluded but before I
left, I took the chance to ask a personal question. A disciple of
the Maharshi had come to me and wanted to take me to his
Guru. None of those I asked could tell me anything about him,
nor had even heard of him. I was undecided whether to make
the journey or not.

His Holiness immediately urged me to go, and promised
satisfaction. He is still alive and still active in the religious world
of Southern India.

Sometimes, as I looked at the figure of Ramana Maharshi
on the couch, I wondered if he would ever come to England. If
so, how would he be dressed, how would he behave in those
teeming London streets, how would he eat, live and work? But
he was uninterested in travelling and so he never came, not in
the physical body: what did come was his spirit and mind, which
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Again and again he gave us this teaching, that the real
Maharshi was not the body which people saw; it was the inner
being. Those who never made the journey to India during his
life time may take comfort in this thought that it is possible to
invoke his presence wherever they are, and to feel its reality in
the heart.

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PART III

On

Miscellaneous
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I

The Eternal Now

Major A.W. Chadwick (Sadhu Arunachala)

N MANY OFFICES one finds the encouraging notice,

it Now!' Although this is undoubtedly good advice, it is
hardly to my present point, as I contend that we can never do
it any "when" else. It always is NOW and the sooner we realize
this the quicker will problems and worries disappear. Sri
Bhagavan has the following verse on the subject of time in his
Forty Verses (verse XV)

The future and the past are only seen

With reference to the present. They in turn

Are present too. The present's only true.

As well to search for future and for past

Outside the eternal present of the Self,

As think to count without unit One,

Which sums up the subject succinctly.

I have long been intrigued by this question of time. Some
few years ago I saw Anand Coomaraswamy's book Time and
Eternity, but unfortunately neglected to take notes of the many
apposite quotations contained therein on the subject. The few
that do follow I have noted myself, at various times in my
varied reading.

St. Augustine, that pillar of Christianity, was himself much
puzzled by this question and prayed to God for enlightenment.
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past nor the future, but only the present really is; the present is
only a moment and time can only be measured while it is passing.
Nevertheless, there really is time past and future'. We seem here
to be led into contradictions. The only way we can avoid this is
to say that the past and future can only be thought of as present.
Past must be identified with memory, and future with
expectation, memory and expectation both being present fact.

This, after all, is much the same as Bhagavan's verse
although St. Augustine is not quite certain of himself and hesitates
to speak outright.

One of the last of the great western philosophers, Kant,
found in time, one of the basic premises of his whole philosophy.
He declared that "time is not an empirical concept derived from

any experience" "only on the presupposition of time can

we represent to ourselves a number of things as existing at one

and the same time or at different times"

"Time is a necessary representation that underlies all
intuition. We cannot in respect of appearances in general remove
time itself, though we can quite well think time as devoid of
appearances. Time is therefore given apriority". In other words
we cannot think outside time. Time is one of the modes of our
minds as thinking machines. Bhagavan also asks in Forty Verses
(verse XVI): "Do time and space exist apart from us?" Implying
thereby, the contrary.

In our objectification of the world, we create it in terms
of time and space, thus only can we see it apart from ourselves.
In the 'eternal now' it ceases entirely to exist. We find it hard to
realize this as our minds are restless machines and refuse to give
up activities which necessitate time for their functioning. We
are always trying to become something else, other than what
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virtuous, failing to see that all becoming must change, so that
this happiness gained will change back into its opposite
eventually, that is into unhappiness. It is only in 'being' or the
'now' that we can ever find rest. Plato also says that time and
creation come into existence together, in fact all appearance is
only in time. And Schopenhauer opines that matter is actual,
(using actual in its original meaning), that is only in its
functioning, which is in time, so does it exist at all?

My reading of the Hindu Scriptures is defective, though
undoubtedly, they must say exactly the same repeatedly. I find I
am unable to quote from them as I should to substantiate my
thesis, but I know one quotation from the Vishnu Purana, which
finds its place here. Parasuram says, "Time is only a form of
Vishnu, for change is only possible for things which are imagined
with reference to a substratum."

But the whole picture, all our waking experiences, is only
one moment in eternity. We see only a part and through
continuing time, a strip. It all depends on the angle from which
we look at it, as to what we see. If we look repeatedly from the
same angle we see the same isolated picture or strip. The picture
never changes, it is only our point of view. The prophet is able
to see a larger expanse of the picture than the layman. To merge
entirely in the picture is to know eternity and from that view
point there is no picture as we know it, and no time.

Boethus, the old Roman statesman awaiting his death in
prison also said, "Eternity is the simultaneous and complete
possession of Infinite Life." It would be hard to find it summed
up better than this. For eternity is the 'now', it does not flow in
time, there is no before or after in it, no birth and no death.

Heraclitus, the Greek famous for the aphorism:
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he did not mean the physical fire, but rather the energy of the
modern scientists, though an energy that was not just material
but rather spiritual. For him this central fire is eternal and
never dies, "the world was, is ever, and ever shall be, an
ever-living fire." Although fire itself is everlastingly changing,
this change would, like phenomena, seem to be apparent, but
essentially fire remains the same fire. Change in appearance is
its nature, as 1:9 Mandukyopanishadhas it: 'Others think that
manifestation is for the purpose of God's fulfilment. While
still others attribute it to mere diversion. But it is the very
nature of the effulgent being, for what desire is possible for
him whose desire is always fulfilled?'

Substitute fire for effulgent being, which is after all a
legitimate substitution, for what is fire but effulgent? And do
not both of these essentially agree?

In Bergson I find the following sentence: "Pure duration
is the form which our conscious states assume when our ego lets
itself live, when it refrains from separating its present state from
its former states." This apparently goes beyond the tenets of
Advaita, as he seems to be referring to the reincarnating ego in
his reference to former states, nevertheless it is pregnant with
meaning, for we are undoubtedly conscious when we rest in
the now, although we do not individualise. Surely it is only
then that we do really live!

For many of the philosophers, time was a problem, with
the exception of those who considered it to be something real,
although we are little interested at the moment in their
conclusions as we are trying to picture the verity of the 'eternal
now', in contrast to the unreality of time, which slips through
our fingers like a running stream when the hand is plunged
into the water to stay its course.

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Leaving the realms of metaphysics let us glance at the
hypotheses of some of the scientists. They have certainly been
intrigued by the problem and well understood that it was not
to be ignored. Especially since Einstein sprang on the world his
theory of relativity. He himself says in one place that distance is
between events and not things, which takes a matter-of-fact
measurements out of the realm of every day life, where we
thought they were safely enthroned and could be relied upon,
into the province of time itself, where we had never thought
that time had any reason to interfere.

It reminds us of Schopenhauer's 'matter is actual', though
one doubts if he ever really intended to imply quite as much as
this. He does say, "All being in time is also non-being, for time is
only that by means of which opposite determinations, can belong
to the same thing. Therefore every phenomenon, which is in time
again is not. For what separates its beginning from its end is only
time, which is essentially a flitting, inconstant and relative thing."
In astronomy time takes on its most intriguing aspect.
We think that when we look through our telescopes into the
measureless distances of the sky, we are looking at something
present now. Most of what we see has either moved millions of
miles away from where it appears to be or has even ceased to
exist altogether. We are, in fact, looking at all sorts of things
which are not there at all. And if this cannot be called may a
then the term has no meaning. One of the furthest nhebulae
our present telescopes can reach is 150 million light years away,
an unimaginable mathematical figure. What actually does this
mean? It means that the astronomer now is looking at a 150
million year past event, which is happening for him in the
present. At best he is only looking at a cosmic memory. The
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The whole pattern of the heavens, the position of the stars
is an hallucination; they have one and all moved away from the
positions in which we see them now, but not proportionately,
so that the actual pattern is much the same. But some have
shifted vast distances and others but little in comparison. We
may photograph it, plot it on our tracing board, all to no
purpose. It is all a myth. Our sight and even our machines are
grossly deceived as we can never know what the picture really
is. Even the apparent stationary position of the stars is deceptive.
They are one and all rushing about at incredible speeds. Time is
playing a game with us.

Eddington pointed out that if the Universe is spherical
whatever direction we may look, provided there is no
obstruction, we would be able to see the back of our own heads.
Well not exactly! Because time has taken over 6,000 million
years to go round and our heads were not there then, we ought
to be able to see what stood in that particular place then. Now
let us suppose there are no obstructions and we do see some
object which existed in that spot 6,000 million years ago, what
actually does it signify? We see and yet we don't see. We really
see an object that is not there at all. Our head is turned by such
riddles and with the poet Omar Khayam, who was himself a
great astronomer, we may truly say,

"Another and another cup to drown

The memory of this Impertinence."

Perhaps this same problem was too much for him also. We
can hardly be surprised.

So it would seem as if science were gradually being forced
to recognize that reality can alone be found in the 'eternal now',
and that time deceives us every step we take. Each of us makes
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spring up together with the uprising ego and with it, sinks back
again. As Bhagavan says:

"The ego rising all else will arise.

On it subsiding, all will disappear."

{Forty Verses on Reality, verse 26)

Is it not also written in the book of Revelation X. 5. 6.?
"And the angel which I saw stand upon the sea and the earth
lifted up his hand to heaven and swore by him that liveth for
ever and ever .... that there should be time no longer."

As a method of meditation trying to rest in the 'now'
irrespective of time is interesting and seems to me a productive
sadhana. When all is at rest and the flow of outward events is
allowed to go on itsway unheeded, or taken up together into
the whole, a peace passing all understanding rests on one and
one draws very near to a full realization of the Reality. I am not
speaking here of nirvikalpa samadhi when all outward
cognizance has disappeared, but rather of a preliminary
condition. As for the ultimate state it matters little whether we
call it the Self, Eternal Now, or pure Being. These are all names
only given in objective consciousness. In pure introspection
they are found to be one and the same.

For the advatin who sees and knows the One alone,
such discussion may seem unproductive and for some not
even interesting, But for those who are not so established,
there still remain doubts and especially on the question of
mortality. They fear death. They look on it as extinction.
And the dogmas and creeds of various faith give them no
more than encouraging words, not assurance, but in the
certainty of the Eternal Now, all such doubts should be
dispelled. Here, there can be no fear of death, for how can
we ever escape from the present that is now. It eternally is.

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And it is summed up by, I AM. Not I was or I may be at
some future date, but eternally I AM.

Schopenhauer endorses this, "any form of life or reality is
really only the present, neither the future nor the past. These are
only in the conception .... No man has ever lived in the past,
and none will ever live in the future. The present alone is the
form of all life, and is its sure possession which can never be
taken from it. The present always exists."

But I begin to overstep the space allowed me. So I will
end with one last quotation from Plato:

"Now all these portions of time, and was and shall be, are
forms of time which have come to be, although we wrongly
ascribe them to the eternal essence. For we say that it was and is
and shall be, but in reality is alone belongs to it."

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There is Nothing, Be!

Major A. W. Chadwick (Sadhu Arunachala)

THE PHILOSOPHY OF Sri Bhagavan, the greatest of sages,
can be summed up in just three words "There is nothing."
So simple and yet so supremely difficult. "There is nothing".
All this world that you see, this mad rush of people after money
and 'existence' is just a fabricless thought. "There is nothing."
You, as a personality, as a petty entity striving for your own
selfish ends, ever seeking so-called 'Self-Realisation', are nothing.
You are like the shadow of a leaf cast by the moonlight,
intangible, unsubstantial, and in fact non-existent. And, as the
shadow is a purely negative phenomenon, is in fact nothing
but a shutting out of light, so is the ego and everything else
(because everything follows in the train of the ego and is actually
a part of it) only a shutting out of the light of the Self.

Sri Bhagavan tells us just one other thing. He says: "Be.
Just be your real Self, that's all." "Certainly, it sounds all right,"
you say, "but when one tries to do it, it does not seem so easy.
Has he no method?"

Method! Well, what exactly do you mean by method?
Sitting on the floor and concentrating on the navel? Or blowing
the wind out of alternate nostrils? Or repeating some incantation
one crore and eight times? No, he hasn't got any method. All
these things are no doubt good in their way and help to prepare
one, but Sri Bhagavan doesn't happen to teach them.

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"Then what am I to do?"

You must just BE, he says. And to be you must know the '
I that is.' To know the v I that is', just go on enquiring "Who
am I?' Don't take any notice of anything except the v I ', throw
everything else away like refuse. And when you have at last
found the 'I ', BE. All talk, all empty words. "There is nothing
' and that's the end of it. No method, nothing to discard, nothing
to find. Nothing at all is except the I '. Why worry about
anything else? Just BE, now and always, as you were, as you are,
and as you ever will be.

'There is nothing.' You may justly ask ' Who wants this
purely negative state? '

To which I can only reply: ' It is just a question of taste.'
Though, note you, I have never suggested that Sri Bhagavan
ever says that the ultimate state after which, it is presumed, we
are all striving is negative. On the contrary, when he says:
There is nothing ', it is obvious that he is speaking about our
present egoistic existence, which for us is everything. But this
being where there is nothing must obviously be a state which is
something. That state is Self-realisation. Not only is it something
but it is EVERYTHING, and being everything then logically
and philosophically it must be PERFECT.

' If we are already perfect and there is nothing else, what
need is there for us to go to Bhagavan? ' you ask.

And this reminds me of a story against myself.

An Australian journalist came to the Ashram, quite why
he came is a mystery, I doubt if he would be able to tell himself.
Anyhow he did come and in the course of his visit came to see
me in my room. It was obvious from the first moment that I
was a tremendous problem to him. Why a European should
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comprehension. He asked many questions but none of my
replies satisfied him. How could they? Especially as he had not
the first idea of what the Ashram was, or what people were
doing here. I didn't even write, then what on earth did I do? At
length he could contain himself no longer and bluntly asked
me what I was doing here. Now here was a problem to answer.
If I had tried to tell him the truth he would never have
understood, that I realized, so making the best of it I just said
that here I found peace of mind. I knew it was an inadequate
answer but hoped it would stave off further enquiries.

He looked at me seriously for a few minutes and then said
pityingly: 'Oh I see, I have never been troubled in that way
myself'!

All I had succeeded in doing was in confirming him in the
conviction that I was insane! And was there not, after all, some
ground for his belief? Here have I been spending ('wasting', he
would say) half a lifetime searching for something I already
possess. I know that I possess it too, which makes matters appear
worse.

'Just BE.' It sounds so easy. Well, Sri Bhagavan says it's the
easiest thing there is. I really don't know. I suppose it all really
depends on how much refuse there is inside. We're all different
anyway and perhaps some of us were handicapped at the start.
It's certain that the rubbish has to come out and the coming out
process is full of surprises. All kinds of hidden vices and evil
tendencies start to pop up their heads which one never suspected
were there at all. But it's all for the good. Bhagavan says they
have to come out. But let them come out, not take charge.
Don't give way to them.

Those who expect Sri Bhagavan to hand them
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deluded. How can anybody give one what one has already got?
All he can do is help one to remove the ignorance that hides it.
It is like going to a lake with a cup and sitting by its side praying
to it to fill the cup with water. You may sit there for a thousand
years but it is certain that unless you lean forward and dip the
cup into the water yourself nothing will happen. Even then
you have to make certain that the cup is not already full of a lot
of residue. Most cups are!

You say: 'If there is nothing, why write?'

Yes, why? The whole thing can be summed up in four
words: 'There is nothing, BE! ' When one understands those
four words one understands everything including Bhagavan
himself.

Then there is no more to say!

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Uniqueness of
Bhagavan

Dr. T.M.P. Mahadevan

BHAGAVAN WAS UNIQUE. He was unique in that he
was not unique. What struck even a casual visitor to the
Ashrama was Bhagavan's naturalness. He did not impress any
one as if he were non-natural, even supra-natural. There was no
affectation at all in Sri Ramana. Let me illustrate what I, mean.
In South India sadhus refer to themselves, while speaking, in the
third person. They would say 'this was walking' or 'this wants to
go there while referring to themselves.They would not use the
first person singular T. But Bhagavan quite naturally used to say
'I go', 'I walk, 'I sit' and so on. One who has the experience of
the plenary illumination constantly, naturally, has no use for such
affectations. And always he used to behave in the most natural
manner. There was nothing which would make others think that
there was some unnaturalness about Bhagavan. But yet once in
his presence there was no need for prompting from outside. One
would be convinced in one's own heart that one was in the
presence of the non-dual Reality. Now, this was an experience
that almost everyone had in the presence of Bhagavan.

He was an open book for all at all times. He did not make
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far as Bhagavan was concerned, there was no privacy. In those
days, devotees used to be with him in the small meditation hall
all day and night. We used to sleep in the same hall where we
used to sit during daytime. And he was a silent witness to all
that happened around him. Any one could walk in at any time.
He was easily accessible not only to humans but also to animals.
Squirrels used to play with him. The cow Lakshmi used to walk
in at her own pleasure. The monkeys used to come into the
Ashram without any let or hindrance. Bhagavan remarked about
a trespassing cow,"Who is to be taken to task? If you had no
fence and the cow walked in through your garden, who was
responsible for this, you or the cow?"

Bhagavan's love and grace knew no limits. In his presence
there was no high and no low.All were the same. There was no
distinction between a Maharaja of old days who visited him
and the rustics who wanted to have his darshan. He could
understand the language of the mute creation. In earlier days
when he was on the Hill Arunachala, the monkeys used to go
to him for arbitration. This shows how Bhagavan taught the
plenary experience to others — the experience which makes no
distinction between one level of creation and another.

Others might think that Bhagavan practised austerities
during the early years of his stay in Arunachala, that his Mauna,
silence, was deliberate, that his sitting posture for days and weeks
in the sub-terranean temple was sadhana, but some of us have
heard him say that all this was not tapasya, although it seemed
to be so. The time factor did not enter into the realisation of
Bhagavan. There was no earlier preparation; there was no
evolution thereafter. Of what is referred to in Advaita as
sadyomukti, instantaneous release, we had a glowing example in
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instantaneous illumination. There was no growth, no procedural
technique, no yogic meditation, no other sadhana. All of a
sudden, the experience came without his inviting it. Now, this
is unique; the entire history of sagehood holds no parallel. A
boy at school who had no particular interest in spirituality, who
was not even a brilliant boy in studies, that such a lad should,
all of a sudden, become transformed into a sage, I think, is
unique.And what was the nature of the realisation? It admitted
no stages, required no effort. It was all complete. Completeness,
fulness was there when Sri Ramana had in a trice solved the
mystery of death. Nachiketas had to go to Yama, wait at his
house for three-days and nights, and put to him questions. The
fear of death was only an occasion for solving the mystery. The
non-dual Self which knows no death and no birth came to Sri
Ramana in a flash; but that did not vanish like a flash, it remained
as His sahajasthiti.

I am not saying that the process of meditation has no place
in sadhana, but that what one gains through the method of
thought-control, emptying of mind, is not the plenary
experience of the non-dual Atman. In the case of Bhagavan this
pinnacle- was gained without the least conscious effort. That is
his uniqueness. Ordinarily, a study of scripture comes first and
then experience. But in the case of Bhagavan, experience came
first and only later an acquaintance with what scriptures teach.
It was when scholarly devotees came to him and wanted some
doubt or other to be cleared that he listened to the readings
from scriptures and then told them that His own experience
confirmed what the texts taught.

The great scholars, both traditional and modern, were
astounded at the simple words that fell from the lips of Bhagavan.
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He was a great teacher. He practised mantra-sadhana all through
his life. He was accepted as a Guru by a large number of disciples.
But he was tormented and went to Sri Ramana. It was Ganapati
Muni that announced to the world the greatness of Sri Ramana,
finding the culmination of his earlier sadhana in Bhagavan.

Elsewhere, I have tried to compare these three great teachers
ofAdvaita: Dakshinamurti, Sankara and Ramana. Dakshinamurti
is the Adi Guru, the first preceptor. He sat beneath the banyan
tree, a youthful figure surrounded by elderly disciples, and
instructed them in the language of silence. Most of us cannot
understand the language of silence. So, Dakshinamurti rose from
His seat beneath the banyan tree and broke His silence. He
appeared in the form of Sankaracarya. He is constantly going
around this world, rousing it from its slumber.

All the great ones who came after him, whether they would
acknowledge it openly or not, are but reflections of this form
of Sankara. In the form of various masters it is Sankara that is
moving in this world. It is the same Sankara that appeared to us
as Sri Ramana.

The times have changed. The present world can be saved
neither by the Guru who is seated in a particular place nor by
the one who is perpetually moving about. The Guru who is
required for our times is neither the one who keeps absolute
silence, nor the one who, speaks profusely. We had this need
satisfied in the avatara of Sri Ramana. He did not move out of
the limits of Arunachala. He did not talk profusely or read
extensively. Day in and day out, most of the time, he was in
silence. People used to come with long lists of perplexing
questions formulated in their minds; some of them, lest they
might forget, used to write out those questions. But what
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all about those questions. I happened to be present when Paul
Brunton came. P. B. had seen other saints in India. He had
written out the questions which he wanted to ask. He sat there
for a long time without opening his mouth. The friend who
had come with him had to prompt him. It was only then that
he read out his questions. This was not an isolated instance.
This was the daily experience. The questioning mind was silenced
in his presence.

And what is the quantum of his "writings"? But they are so
potent that even a single line could transform the lives of people.
Here, we have a middle course between silence and speech.
Silently but surely the influence of Bhagavan is felt. No one
could have thought some years ago that the influence would be
felt so strongly in the capital of our country. But this is what is
now happening all over the world. In Europe and America
there are seekers, who when they get even a glimpse of Bhagavan's
teachings feel that they have turned a new leaf in their lives.

What is, again, significant in Bhagavan's teaching is that it
involves no mystification. There is nothing by way of creed. It
is an open book of wisdom from which one could draw
according to one's capacity. There is no narrowness or
parochialism of any sort in the Master's teachings.

All the teachings of all the sages are put in a capsule form
in this single sloka, Hridayakuhara-madhye which says that in
the cave of the heart Brahman shines. He made known to
sadhakas the bardavidya. He was the one who discovered that
the spiritual heart is the Self itself. The hridaya is the non-dual
spiritual Self. The T is manifest in the region of the hear; When
a person refers to himself he points to the right side of the chest.
The T shines in the heart; the Self is manifest in the cave of the
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immediate to every one. It does not require any belief, or faith
or creed. One need not read Sastra to realise it, one realises it
every moment: And the Upanishads tell us that in deep sleep
one goes into it. Thus, one cannot deny oneself however much
one might try. In a famous verse Sankara says 'It is this T which
is immediately, directly experienced in the region of the heart
by every one; but this Self is not realised to be the non-dual
Brahman on account of ignorance. There is no realising the
Self. Because the Self is real, you cannot realise or make it real.
What is to be done is to unrealise the unreal. We imagine that
this world is real, while in fact it is not. Today the scientists are
approaching Vedanta through science. Nuclear physics tells us
that even in the hardest piece of matter there is no hardness. If
you can accept the evidence of the physicist that what you regard
as a concrete piece of matter is not concrete after all, then from
a higher level is there anything which is unintelligible or
impossible in the proclamation of the Sage that the entire world
is Maya? Maya does not mean that there is no reality. In fact,
the Self is the real and the world is only an appearance. And so,
Bhagavan tells us that this Aham-spburana, the T-manifestation,
is a pointer that, if we are judicious enough to discern the truth,
we shall realise the identity of the Self with Brahman. This is
what we have to experience. Self-realisation is no more than
this. It is losing the individuality in the non-dual Reality. How
is one to gain this? What is the way? Hrdi visa. Enter into the
heart. Use the mind, but there is a stage where you have to
transcend the mind and be what you are always. You can throw
off your body; it is difficult to throw off your mind. It is with
you all the time you are empirically conscious. You have to
make use of it. It is in jagrat that you have to perform the
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conscious moments, moments of wakefulness. And what
functions in wakefulness is the mind, which is to be made use
of. Enter into the heart with your mind. The direct road is
Self-enquiry. It is by Self-enquiry that you have to reach the
heart. But if that becomes impossible for the moment, then
adopt the technique of surrender. If even for this your mind is
not ready, practise pranayama. You begin at the physical, vital
level. Bhagavan says in the Upadesa Saram that the source of
both the vital principle and the mind is the same. By controlling
the vital principle you can control the mind. Begin then with
the practice of regulating the breath.

You will find the mind settling down through the practice
of pranayama, and then you will be ready for the right royal
road. Very often people consider jnana-yoga to consist in
intellectual analysis. This is not so. It is not intellectual
speculation. Up to a point the mind can go; but there it stops.
Bhagavan has taught a simple mode by which one goes beyond
mind. What is that mode? The T-thought is the first of all
thoughts. All other thoughts arise after the I-thought. Only later
on 'this', 'that' and 'the other' arise in your mind. Trace the
source of the I-thought and the practice will reveal to you that
the I-thought arises from the Self. Because we may not have
either the competence or the time to go through the Sastras
and discover the path ourselves, this technique is taught to us as
it can be pursued by one and all at any time. This certainly is
not an easy path. We must not delude ourselves by imagining
that it is easy. It requires preparation, constant practice; it requires
all the other sadhanas. But along with those sadhanas the enquiry
can be practised. And if the Grace of the Guru is there, we will
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The Miraculous and
Supernatural

Marie B. Byles

TELEVISION ONCE SHOWED a picture of a man lying
on his back on a bed of nails with two planks across him
and a tractor or some-such thing being driven over him on the
two planks; at one time a wheel slipped off the plank and went
over his body. As he stood up the interviewer asked him how he
did it and how he felt. He said that he put his faith in Almighty
God and that he felt okay. Another film showed a man chewing
up wine-glasses and saying he enjoyed eating them.

I cannot vouch personally for these two happenings. But
it does seem that such strange and seemingly impossible things
do occur with certain unusually gifted people, and that science
is beginning to take notice of them and sometimestoivescientific
explanations.

There are also the strange workings of astrology and psycho-
kinesis — as when a tensed hand is held over a compass and
swings the needle in the opposite direction, and extra-sensory
perceptions — as when the details of the sinking of S.S. Titanic
were perceived thousands of miles away at the same time that it
happened. And most envied of all are the miracles of healing
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healers, One of the best known is Agnes Sanford who wrote the
well known Healing Light. And a less known mental healer was
the American Buddhist monk, Sumangalo, who unexpectedly
found he had suddenly acquired the ability to cure mental
disorders. Among these apparent miracle-workers we must place
those gifted preachers who have the power to convert people
from delinquency and drug addiction.

Let us then admit that these supernormal happenings are
factual, and also that science is becoming increasingly interested,
so that we may well expect a widening of our knowledge.

The question we need to consider is whether it will make
any difference to our social well-being if there are people trained
to eat glass or even to cure people of drug addiction and
delinquency. No supernormal talent in itself implies simple
goodness and compassion which alone can bring about more
harmonious relations between man and nature. True, some
religious books assume the goodness of the healer and other
miracle-workers, and assume that no one can be a saint unless he
performs miracles. But are miracles any different from other
supernormal happenings? Does what you call it make any
difference? Those who now walk on fire for the edification of
tourists, admit that it does not mean the same for them as it did
when they performed the same act for the glory of God. But the
fact remains that they outwardly achieve the same result as when
they did do it for the glory of God. Those who examine these
supernormal happenings from the scientific angle assume that
the moral goodness of the doer has nothing to do with the matter.

And indeed — why should we think that goodness or
badness in the doer is important? After all the world is composed
of and founded upon pairs of opposites. Therefore we cannot
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can have a positive without a negative. It is therefore obvious
that a person who performs, say, a miracle of healing is not
necessarily a good man or woman. For this reason it may or
may not be inspiring to read about miracles or other abnormal
happenings, which appear to be supernatural.

The supernormal happening depends upon the natural
talent of the individual who performs it. It is not of any
importance. The only thing that matters is whether it springs
from love and compassion which alone can draw us above the
pairs of opposites. To read of those who performed no miracles,
but who did achieve this love and compassion is far more likely
to be helpful and inspiring to ordinary people like ourselves.

Foremost among such ordinary people of whose thoughts
we have a written record is the saintly Stoic emperor of Rome
in the second century, Marcus Aurelius, who kept a record of
his meditations. And that simple record has been the inspiration
of millions all over the world. And yet he had no outstanding
talents: He had only simple goodness and kindness, springing
from compassionate love and understanding of the oneness of
all creation.

And another such was the simple Carmelite monk, Brother
Lawrence of the 17th century, who performed no miracles except
what the Buddha would call the only real miracle, that of a
transformed life. He accomplished this merely by turning his
mind to God and doing nothing but for the love of God. His
whole being radiated serenity and' love, and without any
intellectual explanations his example transformed the lives' of
many.

Of course we must all use the talents we have been given
and do the work that falls to our lot — being the emperor of a
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miracles or healer of the sick. None is superior or inferior, and
talents do not count The way to compassion and enlightenment
is the same for all. We cannot and should not want to acquire
supernatural talents we do not already possess, nor scientific
knowledge beyond our normal capacity, nor even an inclination
to harness these supernatural happenings or miracles. There
are always specialists dealing with their particular fields. But we
each have a built-in computer, as it were, which collects what is
necessary for each of us according to our talents, if only we will
let it work freely unimpeded by our predilections. One of the
best ways of letting it work freely is to repeat in thought' or if
possible in a whisper, what the Hindus would call a mantra,
suited to one's individuality. Brother Lawrence's practice of the
presence of God is a perfect example, for he would do nothing
except for the love of God. By this means our whole being
tends to get tuned-in with Cosmic laws and the harmony of the
universe, whether we know them clearly or not.

Thus our individual talents get utilized by the internal
computer get and directed as migratory birds and fishes are.
Then whatever our talent, whether to perform operations
without anaesthetics like the Philippine healers, or merely to
wash dishes, our work will be well done.

Therefore let us read and learn whatever is helpful, but let
us not be bewildered by or crave for supernormal powers. Let
us be content with the Inner Light that has been given to us,
remembering that the greatest of Masters like Buddha,
Ramakrishna Paramahamsa and Ramana have decried the
craving for and display of supernormal powers as utterly
detrimental to one's spiritual enlightenment.

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An Angry Prayer

lean Butler

In this moving narrative we see the efficacy of an intense
prayer.

SOME YEARS AGO my daughter Martha and I were living
on the island of St. Croix in the Caribbean. At that time
the Virgin Islands (in which group this falls) were so poverty-
stricken that they were spoken of as the world's poorhouse.

One evening I went into the local drug store and found
the chemist, Mr. Edwards, arguing in English with a little Puerto
Rican peasant who was pleading volubly with him in Spanish.

Mr. Edwards was saying, "I'm sorry I can't give you any
credit. I don't own the drug store. I am only an employee and
have to obey orders."

The peasant answered, "It is only until my tomatoes are
harvested. Then I can pay you."

Mr. Edwards was unmoved.

"But," cried the peasant in despair, "what will my son do
without the medicine?"At that point I said rather angrily, "Give
him the medicine, Mr. Edwards, and put it on my bill."

I turned to the peasant and asked what was the matter
with his son. A torrent of Spanish poured forth as he explained.
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months. His wife had died giving birth to the baby. The oldest
boy had epileptic fits, as many as five a day. By law the children
had to go to school, but when the eldest boy had his medicine
he could stay at home in the mornings and take care of the
baby while the father worked his land. If the boy did not have
his medicine he could not be left with the baby. Nor could he
go to school. The only thing the father could do was to tie the
baby on to his back when he went to work on his land and
leave the boy unattended in the house; and on one such occasion
the boy had a fit during which he broke his leg.

A wave of such intense fury, pity and sheer horror came
over me that for a moment I turned dizzy — not only on account
of the little peasant but also of all the others in the world who
were equally suffering and equally hopeless and helpless.

I told the peasant that I knew a great specialist in New
York to whom I would write for a new medicine I had been
reading about. I wrote down the peasant's name and the age
and weight of his son. "The medicine should come in about ten
days," I said, "and I will have it sent care of Edwards for you."

I rushed out into the night blind and sick with rage against
God. "D — n you!"

I cried, "What are you doing? Why don't you at least help
the poor and sick who can do nothing to help themselves and
who have nothing?" I cried and cursed all the way up the long
hill to my house, hating the world, hating God, hating the
unspeakable injustice of life. All night, even in my sleep I
alternated prayers with curses and invectives and blind anger.
Day and night for a week I had no peace. I directed my thoughts
repeatedly to the sick boy, saying to him, "God made you in
His image and likeness. God is perfect, without flaw or sickness.
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That is what Christ said to you." This alternated with my
repeating that, "not even a sparrow falls to the ground without
His knowing it." And I pointed out somewhat bitterly that the
Son of God had said, "Inasmuch as you do it to one of the least
of these you do it also to me."

Gradually the anger and frenzy died down, but
remembrance of the peasant and his epileptic son continued
day and night. One evening, about ten days after my first
meeting with the peasant, I was just going into the drug-store
when a bare-footed man in worn overalls and a big straw hat
came out, holding a package in one hand. On seeing me he
swept off his hat, waved the package in the air and exclaimed
excitedly, "This has just come, the medicine for my son. But I
no longer need it. Something has happened."

It was the same peasant. I had not recognized him with his
hat on. I knew what was coming and felt faint because of it. I
said, "Remember, Senor, the Bible says that the Lord giveth
and the Lord taketh away. What He does is a mystery to us.
Don't ask any questions. Just go to the church and give thanks
to God."

"But Senora," he said, "I must tell you what has happened.
Since we talked the other night my son has had no more fits.
What shall I do with this?" And he held out the box of medicine.

I had known what was coming. "Don't open it, Senor," I
said, "You won't need it. Just go to the church and give thanks
to God." And I turned and rushed up the hill to my house,
thinking, "Excuse me, God! Forgive me!", consumed with
humility and shame at my former rage, overflowing with love
of God.

On a Sunday morning some months later, when I had
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house with Martha to go to the beach when an ancient truck
full of people dressed in their Sunday best came roaring up the
hill and stopped outside my door. One by one they scrambled
out and came on to the terrace, each one carrying something in
his hand. They made quite a pile there — fruit, eggs, chickens,
fish, freshly baked bread, a bottle of wine, lobsters — and then
they returned to the truck, while I kept on remonstrating, "You
have made a mistake! You have come to the wrong house! I
didn't order anything!"

Just then my little Puerto Rican friend, scarcely
recognizable in his Sunday clothes, came up to me shyly and
said, "Senora, these are my relatives. We have brought you these
gifts to show our appreciation for what you did for my son."

"But Senor", I protested, "I did nothing, nothing! Please
try to understand me. It was not I who did it!"

Then I asked him about his son, how he was now. He
glowed with quiet pride. "He has gained fifteen pounds," he
said, "He is quite well now. I sent him to the island of St. Thomas
to work on his uncle's farm for a few weeks and now he is back
here with me. He works on the land with me in the morning
and we earn enough to pay a girl to look after the baby, and in
the afternoons he goes to school. He has never had another fit."

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An Incarnate
Abbot Explains

Asked about reincarnation, Sri Bhagavan remarked,
"See how a tree grows again when its branches are cut off. So
long as the life source is not destroyed it will grow. Similarly,
latent potentialities withdraw into the heart at death but do
not perish. That is how beings are reborn!'

Here is an instance taken from a speech by Trungpa
Trulku Rinpoche given at Roselaleham.

A FTER THE DEATH of the previous Abbot of Surmang,
_Z\_ my monastery, the monks sent a deputation to His
Holiness Gyalwa Karmapa, the head of our particular school of
Tibetan Buddhism. They asked him whether he could tell them
where their Abbot had taken birth again, so that they could
bring him back among them. Gyalwa Karmapa spent several
days in meditation, and finally gave them the answer that their
Abbot was born as a young child living in the village of Geje, in
a house facing south and that the family had two children and a
brown dog. After some difficulty the monks found the house
and the young child, who was myself.

I am told that as the monks came in and presented me
with the traditional white scarf, I behaved in exactly the right
manner, although I had never been taught how. Also that I

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recognised various objects that had been the possessions of my
predecessor, shown to me among others of the same kind.
Eventually they were convinced that I was the eleventh Abbot
Trungpa and they brought me back to Surmang.

Shortly after that I was formally enthroned as Abbot,
although of course, all my duties were performed by an elder
monk acting as regent. I was put into the charge of a tutor, and
continued to see my parents from time to time. I began learning
about religion from my tutor, who told me about the life of
Gautama the Buddha and about his teachings. At the age of
eight I began my first simple meditation.

From then on I learned more and more about the various
meditations of our school. I received instruction from two of
the great Gurus or Teachers of Eastern Tibet. One of them,
Chentse Rinpoche, is now in India and is still my Guru.
Sometimes I lived in the monastery and sometimes away from
it, in retreat. Every monk of our school spends several years in
solitary meditation during that time, living, sleeping and eating
in one small room. Meditation is really the heart of a monk's
life, for in it he discovers and experiences the actual truth of the
teachings he has before known only intellectually. I do not want
to speak about the particular techniques of meditation. There
are many and they are adapted to suit the needs of all kinds of
individuals. I want rather to speak about the reasons for
meditation and its essence, for meditation is not necessarily a
matter of sitting cross-legged and motionless for long periods
of time, it is something that may be practised, consciously or
unconsciously by anyone at any time.

You will be able to draw parallels to what I shall say both
from the beliefs and practices of other religions and from your
own experiences. We are all human beings and our existence

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presents similar problems and similar possibilities. As Milarepa,
the great sage and poet of Tibet, sang from the top of mountains,
'I am the goal of every great meditator, I am the meeting place
of the faithful, I am the coil of birth, death and decay.'

To start at the beginning - each one of us may be struck at
one time or another by the inadequacy of our way of experiencing
the world. We feel that something is missing, that our attempts to
explain and to organise our lives and to provide ourselves with
an emotional security are doomed to failure and are indeed in
themselves contradictory to the nature of things. Also that in our
simply fulfilling our own desires we are cheating the Universe.

Meditation is the attempt to remove those aspects of our
natures in which our awareness of life is limited and confined,
and experience a new depth. Upon what does our everyday
picture of the world depend? It depends not upon things
themselves but on our reactions to them. We project outwards
on things our own hopes and prejudices, and order our separate
world accordingly. Meditation is a gradual loss of these private
worlds, and realisation that our true natures lie hidden in the
heart of the Universe.

It is one of the fundamental teachings of Buddhism that
things in themselves are without substance. They are all, like
flowers, springing up suddenly out of nothingness and again
withering. The world of things, or the appearance of things, is a
kind of puppet show, a masquerade. In itself it possesses a kind
of demonic energy, but it can give no lasting satisfaction to the
heart. In meditation we begin to cross the threshold between
appearance and reality.

Many of us will have thought like this, but will also have
experienced how difficult this threshold is to cross. All
unconsciously, the world of appearances exercises a certain

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fascination. Everything in its appearances releases a small charge
of energy, and our ignorant minds, feeling dissatisfaction with
their existing states, leap to swallow this charge. Thereafter, the
imprint of the object remains fixed in the memory. If the
experience is in some way pleasurable, the mind desires a
repetition of it. If it is unpleasant, the mind will reject any
repetition of it, and a negative force is set up.

Meditation consists of seeing the world for precisely what it is.
This can be done only when one remains quite unaffected by hatred
or desire. One observes dispassionately one's reactions to things, and
gradually the passions of greed and hatred are driven out of one's
system. Instead of reaching out for one thing after another, one
becomes calmer and more self-possessed. One uses the strength thus
released to gradually eliminate distracted and discursive thoughts as
they arise, and brings oneself into a state of clear, one-pointed
awareness. One begins to experience greater freedom and room to
move about. One no longer heeds one's hopes and fears, and lets go
the burden of them. Becoming nothing, one becomes everything
and suddenly it may happen that one is left for a moment still. There
is before one, through one and around one infinite space - the reality
flowing unobstructed. As Milarepa says:

'As happy as the current of a great river,
So is the sage who enjoys the stream of thought.'
This is possible for everyone, but clearly it requires certain
qualities in us, and it requires time to come to fruition.

We need first of all to have clearly in our minds what we
are trying to do. Our basic assumptions influence us far more
than we realise and we must become thoroughly steeped in the
ideas and the attitudes of the spiritual life before we can begin. I
had to memorise a large portion of our scriptures and repeat
them by heart to my tutor.

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As well as study, we need determination and integrity. Each
one stands before the threshold of eternity, alone with himself.
He cannot rely on any created thing. Each one of us can forge
a true vessel only out of himself; others may help us but in the
end it is we alone who are responsible. Gradually we have to
realise the agony of our mistakes, our failure to understand and
we have to have the courage to come out of prison.

Beyond this solitude, one thing else is needed. Just as
everything in the world of appearance releases a charge of energy,
so also does everything in eternity. That energy, indeed, is far
stronger because it has been purified of the stain of greed, hatred
and material illusion. The thought is not a thought of anything,
it is a thought which in itself is pure energy, passing into and
through everything unobstructed. So when we purify our minds,
a force is built up from which each one of us can draw and in
the light of which, each one can examine himself. In the
monasteries and hermitages of Tibet I could feel this strength
in operation. It was something of which we were all part. If I
may be allowed to say so, I feel this atmosphere lacking in the
cities and even in many churches of this country. I hope very
much that during our time here together, we may join in making
a spirit that one may call new and some may call old but which
in itself abides forever.

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Zen Stories

The following are well-known specimens of Zen stories,
much condensed.

TWO MONKS, one older, one young, came to a muddy
ford where a pretty girl was waiting to cross. The elder
picked her up and carried her over the water. As they went
along, the younger, horrified at the act of his brother monk in
touching a woman, kept on commenting upon it, until at last
the elder exclaimed: "What! Are you still carrying that girl? I

put her down as soon as we crossed the water!"

* * *

When a Master was troubled by a monk who persisted in
saying that he could not understand, the Master said: "Come
nearer". The monk came nearer. The Master again said: "Come
nearer", and once more the monk did so. "How well you

understand!" remarked the Master!

* * *

A boastful monkey went to heaven and there met the
Buddha. He said: "Buddha is a small thing, but I can jump
many leagues." "If you are so clever," said the Buddha "jump
away from the palm of my hand." The monkey thought that
would be easy since the palm seemed to him only inches wide.
So he leaped far, far away. He found himself on a large plain

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bounded by five great pillars. To prove he had been there he
made a mark at the base of one of these. After returning to
Buddha he boasted of what he had done. "But look at my hand,"
said Buddha. There the monkey saw the mark which he had

made. It was at the base of one of Buddha's fingers!

* * *

A Master was once approached by a boy requesting
instruction, so the Master gave him the koan: "What is the sound
of the clapping of one hand?" The boy went away and happened
to hear some Geishas playing, so he went to the Master and
imitated that. On being told that was not it, he went away and
heard water dripping, again the water flowing, again the locust
- altogether ten times. All were wrong. Then the boy could find
or think of no more, and lo! he discovered the soundlessness of

one hand, the sound of sound!

* * *

A man chased by a tiger jumped over a cliff and clung to a
tree growing on the side. Looking down he saw another tiger
waiting for him to fall. Worse and worse, he saw two mice, one
white and one black, gnawing at the branch to which he was
clinging. It chanced that he just then caught sight of some
strawberries growing within reach. With one hand he plucked
a strawberry and put it in his mouth. "How good it tastes!" he
thought.

A Zen monk named Ryoken lived in a hut alone and
without any possessions. One day when he was out, a thief
entered to steal. He was about to depart when the monk
returned. The monk said: "I am sorry you have found nothing;
please take my clothes." After the thief had gone, the monk sat
naked looking at the moon. "Alas!", he mused, "What a pity
that I could not give him that beautiful moon!"

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The Story of Lila

An elderly gentleman, formerly a co-worker with B. V.
Narasimhaswami and author of some Visishtadvaita work,
visited the place for the first time. He asked about rebirths, if
it is possible for the linga sarira (subtle body) to get dissolved
and be reborn two years after death.

M.: Yes. Surely. Not only can one be reborn, one may be
twenty or forty or even seventy years old in the new body
though only two years after death.

Sri Bhagavan cited Lila's story from Yoga Vasishta.
(Talk No. 129)

There was a reference to reincarnation. Reincarnation of
Shanti Devi tallies with the human standards of time whereas
the latest case reported of a boy of seven is different. The boy is
seven years now. He recalls his past births. Enquiries go to show
that the previous body was given up 10 months ago.

The question arises how the matter stood for six years and
two months previous to the death of the former body. Did the
soul occupy two bodies at the same time?

Sri Bhagavan pointed out that the seven years is according
to the boy and the ten months is according to the observer. The
difference is due to these two different upadhis (mental states,).
The boy's experience extending to seven years has been
calculated by the observer to cover only 1 months of his own
time.

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Sri Bhagavan again referred to Lila's story injyoga Vasishta.
(TalkNo.261)

Once there was a king by the name of Padma, who was
wealthy and wise. He had a beautiful wife called Lila who was
devoted to her husband.Once she thought, "My Husband is
dearer to me than my life. He is young and prosperous. How
to make him remain forever young and deathless?"

She consulted learned pandits of the court. They advised
her,"All successful accomplishments are attained by religious
austerity, repetition of mantras and self-control, but immortality
can not be obtained on any account."

Having heard thus from the learned Brahmins, she
reflected, "In case I have to die before my husband, freed from
all agony, I shall happily rest in the Self and in case he precedes
me then his soul should not go out of this room. I shall worship
the Goddess Sarasvati and ask for boons."

Having resolved thus the queen, without telling her
husband, performed severe austerities as laid down in the
scriptures.

Goddess Sarasvati was pleased by the queen's austerities.
She appeared and said, "Ask for any boon and it shall be
granted, "Overjoyed Lila sang hymns of praise to the Goddess,
and asked for two boons," When my husband dies, the soul
of my husband, should remain here. Whenever I pray to you,
give me your vision." Accordingly, the Goddess granted both
the boons.

After several years Lila's husband passed away. The bereaved
queen placed her husband's corpse in a bed of flowers as instructed
by the Goddess. In great distress she asked the Goddess,"Where
does my husband reside? What does he do? What is his state at
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The Goddess taught Lila about Brahman (the Supreme
Spirit or Ultimate Reality) and narrated the existence of various
planes penetrating one another and existing quite unperceived
by the inhabitants of other planes. She also taught her the method
of seeing and visiting the various worlds interpenetrating one's
own. Lila abandoned her own body and the Goddess took her
to the world of her husband's in which she saw him in an assembly
of kings. She was surprised to see him sitting on a throne, now
looking very young. Lila asked the Goddess for an explanation.
She was told about the delusion of creation. The Goddess
spoke as follows:

"Once there lived a virtuous Brahmin named Vasishta.
His wife was Arundhati who equaled him in all respects. Once
he saw the king passing by with his retinue and thought,
'Kingship is indeed delightful, blessed with all good fortune. I
wish that I were a king.'

"Vasishtha's death was impending and knowing this, his
wife took refuge in me. Like you, she prayed to me, ' May the
soul of my dead husband not depart from this place.' I granted
her prayer. The poor Brahmin died, his wife, Arundhati, being
unable to bear the pangs of separation from her husband, burnt
herself along with the body of her husband." Sarasvati told Lila
that all that had happened only a week ago, and that the Brahmin
pair had been born as herself (Lila) and her husband, King
Padma, in the world where he had just died after having lived a
long life, leaving Lila alone. Lila did not believe this story, because
the couple had died recently, whereas Lila and Padma were born
years before. Lila asked the Goddess whether one soul can
occupy two bodies simultaneously. Saraswati explained that the
two frames of reference were different and that a person's strong
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The Goddess then took Lila to that world, and made her verify
the story from a son of the deceased pair. Through meditation,
she remembered all her previous births since her origin from
the Creator. Lila lamented, "Alas! Today I have remembered
hundreds of my previous births. Indeed, I have wandered much
in various kinds of wombs."

Both Lila and Sarasvati returned to the present world of
the king, who was called Viduratha, and found him in his 70th
year. His wife was also named Lila (let us call her Lila II) . Lila
and Saraswati manifested themselves before the king in his private
apartment and mysteriously reminded him of his previous
existence as Padma. He entertained a desire to be Padma again.
His present wife, Lila II, propitiated Sarasvati to confer a boon
upon her to be the wife of Vidurtha even in his next life.

After a short time, there was a war in which King Viduratha
was killed. His soul, which was present, throughout, in the room
where the corpse of Padma was lying, reentered the dead body.
And lo! The soul rose again as King Padma, who found standing
before him his two wives, namely, Lila I and Lila II. "Let all
sorrows end and let there be endless happiness." So saying the
Goddess blessed them and disappeared.

Finally, all three of them- Lila, the second Lila and the
King- were liberated while still alive, and in due course, became
one with the Absolute by the grace of the Goddess.

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APPENDIX

Important Events in Sri Bhagavan's Life

1879 December 30, Monday - corresponding to 16, Margali of
Tamil Year Pramadi — Star Punarvasu — Ardra Darshan
Day - Born at 1 a.m. at Tiruchuli ( 'Sri Sundara Mandiram) .

1891 Moves to Dindigul, after completing elementary
education at Tiruchuli.

1892 February 18: Death of father, Sundaram Iyer. Moves to
Madurai. Studies at Scott's Middle School and American
Mission High School.

1895 November: Hears of 'Arunachala' mentioned to him by
an elderly relative.

1896 (about middle of July): 'Death Experience' at Madurai
ending in complete and permanent Realisation of the
Self ('Sri Ramana Mandirani).

August 29, Saturday: Leaves Madurai for Arunachala.
September 1 - Tuesday: Arrives in Arunachala - Stays in
the Temple premises within the Thousand-pillared Hall,
beneath the Illupai Tree, in Pathala Linga (underground
cellar), sometimes in the Gopuram.

1897 Moves to Gurumurtam in the outskirts of the town (early
in the year) .

Stays in the shrine and the adjoining Mango grove.

1898 May: Uncle Nelliappa Iyer visits Bhagavan at Mango grove.
September: Moves to Pavalakkunru.

December: Mother Alagammal visits Bhagavan at
Pavalakkunru.

1899 February: Moves to the Hill, Arunachala. Stays in various
caves up the Hill, but mostly in Virupaksha Cave, using
Mango Tree Cave as summer residence.

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1900 Replies to questions put by Gambiram Seshayya, at

Virupaksha Cave.
1902 (The above published as Self-enquiry)
1902 Answers to questions asked by Sivaprakasam Pillai

(Who am I?)
1905 Moves to Pachaiamman Koil for six months during the

plague epidemic — returns to the Hill.

1907 November 18: Momentous meeting between Bhagavan
and Kavyakanta Ganapati Muni. Bhagavan imparts
upadesa to Muni.

1908 (January to March): Stays at Pachaiamman Koil (with
Ganapati Muni and others) and again goes back to
Virupaksha Cave.

Translates into Tamil prose Adi Sankara's Viveka
Chudamanai and Drik Drisya Viveka.

1911 November: F.H. Humphreys, the first Westerner, meets
Bhagavan.

1912 Second death experience at Tortoise Rock in the presence
of Vasudeva Sastry and others.

1914 Offers prayers (songs) to Arunachala for Mother's recovery
from illness.

1915 The SongofthePappadum written for the sake of mother.
The following were also written during Virupaksha days:
Arunachala Aksharamanamalai, Arunachala Padikam,
Arunachala Ashtakam, Translation of Devi Kalottara,
Translation of Adi Sankara's Hymn to Dakshinamurti,
Guru Stuti and Hastamalaka Stotra.

1916 Moves to Skandashram.

1917 Composes Arunachala Pancharatnam in Sanskrit.
Mother settles at Skandashram. Sri Ramana Gita in
Sanskrit written by Ganapati Muni.

1922 May 19, Friday: Mother's Maha Samadhi.

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Middle of December: Moves to the present site of
Sri Ramanasramam.

1927 Composes Upadesa Sara in Tamil, Telugu, Sanskrit and
Malayalam.

April 24: Composes Atma Vidya (Self Knowledge) .

1928 Composes Ulladu Narpadu (Forty Verses on Reality) in
Tamil and Malayalam {Sat Darshanam) .

1930 Sat Darshanam in Sanskrit (translated from Tamil by

Ganapati Muni) .
1933 Translated into Tamil the Agama: Sarvajnanotharam —

Atma Sakshatkara.

1939 September 1, Thursday: Foundation laid by Bhagavan
for the Matrubhuteswara Temple.

1940 Selects 42 verses from The Bhagavad Gita (now entitled
The Song Celestial) and translates them into Tamil and
Malayalam.

1947 February: Composes Ekatma Panchakam (Five Verses on
the Self) in Telugu and Tamil.

1948 June 18: Cow Lakhsmi attains Nirvana.
Translates into Tamil Atma Bodha of Adi Sankara.

1949 March 17, Thursday - Kumbabhishekam of
Matrubhuteswara Temple in the presence of Bhagavan.

1950 April 14, Friday: Brahma Nirvana of Bhagavan at 8-47
p.m. At that moment a shooting star, vividly luminous,
coming from the South (the present Nirvana Room) and
moving slowly northward across the sky and disappearing
behind the peak of Arunachala was observed by many in
various parts of India.

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